Hi Sir, I am at work, ... work has been extremely slow so I decided to write you an email. We have been playing around for over 7 years now, I can't believe it has been that long already. I know it started out as mutual play and I enjoyed every bit of it. I especially love it now though, I still can't believe that you were grooming me since the beginning to become your fag.
I know I said this before, how I treated it like a game, and how stupid I was taking back gifts and running away like a pussy. I truly apologize for that. I was just very afraid of what I was becoming, I was scared to admit that I really was weak. When I was a kid in Middle school and High school, I was always bullied, I was called a Fag and Fat and it realy hurt me. I knew I was gay but in those days it was hard to admit.
You really are in my head, I think about you all the time. Every time I jerk off I think about you. I fantasize about the times I've served you and the things I want to try as we move further. You must really have Evil inside you for the way that you control my mind. It's crazy to admit, but I want you deeper in my head, I want you to fuck with my mind.
I love my husband, I need to stay with him and I'm sure you feel the same way about your husband. The scary thing is though, when I fuck around with my husband, I have a hard time getting and keeping an erection. With you though, just the thought of you I get hard. My husband sucks in bed, it is the same 'ol routine with him. Suck, kiss, cum. We both have to be showered and smelling clean before sex. Is yours the same? Is yours into any kink at all?
Like I said once before, each relationship that I have had, I always said I wouldn't cheat, but I was born to be a cheater. Whenever I was in bed with someone, I always got much more pleasure knowing I was making my partner happy. So I guess I have always been a fag, but never really come to grasp with it until you made me realize it.
3 years ago when you told me if I wanted to still fuck around with you that things needed to change. Part of me wanted to seriously run away from you. I am a smart person, I have a great job, people look up to me, come to me for advice. I am usually the strong level headed one, but I caved. I caved big time. I let myself go with you. I gave into you, I have probably given you over 15K in cash and gifts and Cigs, and I don't even care. I know I could have used that money to better myself and pay bills, etc, but paying you to serve you is unbelievably HOT.
I LOVE to suck your toes and smell your feet. I love licking up your legs and massaging you with my hands and Newport boxes. OMG, I get so turned on when I get a chance to smell and lick your hairy balls. I love how you spit in my face and mouth, how you slap me. Just being on the floor, looking between your legs is amazing. I remember when we first started playing, I would never eat your cum, now, I crave it. I don't even swallow my husband's cum anymore. Your ass, your amazing hairy hole. I have always loved to rim a guy, but I never thought I could eat out a ripe ass until I got a taste of yours, and eating your ass is so perfect. I know you wanna take it further and I am totally willing as long as we go slow and ease me into it. I jerk off thinking about all the nasty things you wanna do, I jerk off to scat porn thinking about you. I know in time it will happen. I also want you to hurt me more, both physically and mentally. I crave to be humiliated and degraded by you. I love when you call me names and put me down.
You have opened my mind up to so many things. I never would have thought in my wildest fantasies that I would open my mouth to be an ashtray for you let alone exposing my back to be burned. I wanna take that further too, I want you to burn the hairs off my cock and balls, I want you to burn me in other places on my body. Wtf is wrong with me? Again, in time.
I need to make you happy. I don't know why it's you, but it is what my mind is telling me to do. Does your husband get into any of this? Is this why you cheat too? I totally wanna get to know more of you.
I know you are busy now with school and you are not in the warehouse anymore. I miss the daily texts, I miss dropping by and hanging cigs on the back door. Covid really fucks us both and hopes that the vaccine comes out soon so life will be normal again. Sometimes I feel like I am bothering you when I text you especially when you answer me with one word texts. It has been over 7 years and I really do love you. Yes, I am truly pathetic.
(I'm a Fag living in CT. Let me know how you liked my story and you can always email me: Patheticslave06514@yahoo.com)