ALONE BUT LOVED 1
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Author's Note: Some of you might remember me as the author of "An Angel's Life." To the fans of that series, please don't worry because I am not discontinuing it. I am still writing on it, its just that I got this idea for a new story and can't wait to write it down. So don't think I'm discontinuing it already, all right?! Again, all e-mail (except flames) are gladly accepted so don't hesitate. Okay, now on with the story!!!
Alone But Loved By: Angel
"Get the hell out of my out of my house, you fag! I refuse to accept you as my son!! Now, get out!" Dad screamed. "No, Dad... please, I'm.... still ::sob:: even if I'm gay, I'm still the same!!!! I'm not leaving!!!!" I shouted while crying. He then grabbed my arm hard and started shoving me out the door. "Let me go! I want to stay here.... I have nowhere else to go...." I started crying All the while, my Mom was packing my bags and grabbed other necessities I needed. After she was done, she threw them out of the door and into the lawn. "Get out, Angel, before things get worse," my Mom said, and then she closed the door.
"NOOOOO!!!!" I shouted and then I looked around. I was in a room that was quite lavishly decorated and then realized where was I. The phone rang and I picked it up. Then I started crying all over again. And before I knew it, I was wailing too. With all the noise I was making, I didn't realize someone was banging at the door till they opened it. "What's wrong, Angel? Why are you crying?" Shannon walked over me and I quickly started hugging her. She then noticed that someone was talking over the phone. So she picked it up and started to listen, then realized who it was and shouted, "You fucking asshole! Do you have any fucking idea what you're doing to him?? And you have the nerve to call yourself a father, you sick, unrelenting, son of a bitch!!" Then she slammed the phone hard on the handset and began to hug and comfort me. "Where's Britney?" I asked in between sobs and hysterics. "I'll go get her, all right?? Please stop crying because I hate to see you like this," she said looking at me, and then ran off to get Britney.
When I heard the doors close, I started crying all over again.
Lounge
"This tour will be a major bombshell to the fans!" Britney said. She was talking about the tour BSB's management cooked up for the coming millenium. "Yea!! I can't believe we've never done this before, and it was right under our noses," said AJ excitedly. "I agree, it will be a hit, considering N'Sync is going to be there too. I haven't seen them for awhile and it's going to be lots of fun going on tour with them," Brian added. "What I can't believe is that of all the people, Kevin "actually" didn't come up with this tour!" Nick joked. Kevin threw a pillow at him while Nick tried to block it. Unfortunately, he was positioned in a way that made him fall on his back caused by the impact of the pillow. This caused his fries to fly up and then fall all over him and around the place. Everyone started laughing while Nick tried to pick up all the fries. "I don't know about you guys but I can't wait to meet Christina again. We both have a lot of catching up to do since the MMC days," Britney said.
Suddenly, running footsteps can be heard coming closer and closer. "Why on earth is that person running?" Kevin asked to no one in particular. Then, the door burst open and there stood an emotional wreck, Shannon. "Britney, its Angel. He..." but Shannon didn't get to finish because Britney was out of there in an instant. She took a moment to wipe the tears on her eyes and looked at the guys. "What's going on here?" asked Howie. "Yea, and who is this Angel guy?" Nick said. Shannon just motioned for them to follow and then ran off to Angel's room. "Wait!" Kevin said and then went in pursuit followed by the others.
Angel's Suite
'Why does this have to happen to me?' I thought. It wasn't my fault I turned out to be... gay. And how can they just kick me out.... I was only 12 1/2 at that time and had nowhere to go. What I can't believe is that they demanded that my aunts and uncles will not make contact with me or help me in any way. I just couldn't take it anymore, being all alone. Hell, I think I'm the 1st and only 14 year old to become a dancer for a popular singer. Let alone be here, at all. So many times I've thought of suicide, but Britney's always there to hold me back. I don't know what'll I do without her always being there for me.
Images of my past started flashing again in my mind. When my parents kicked me out of the house. My Mom throwing out my luggage into the front lawn and my Dad screaming and hollering about how disgusted and disappointed he was.... Then I saw my cousin Alma... and that's when I started crying uncontrollably again. I hated myself for bringing all this histeria on all my relatives. Now I can never see Alma again. I started hearing movements and someone shouting but I didn't pay any attention to it and continued crying.
Britney slammed the door to my room open and flicked on the lights. She saw me on the side of my bed with my blankets all around me while I was crying. "Oh Angel, stop crying... stop crying... I'm here... sshhhh," she said sitting down next to me. I hugged her and started crying on her shoulder while she patted my back. Just then, Shannon came with the Backstreet Boys behind her. They stopped asking questions when they saw me in there, crying. Britney looked up and started firing questions at Shannon. "What happened here, Shannon? And why is he crying this bad??"
"He had that dream again... the one he's always having now and then. I heard him shout so I went here as fast as I can... and," she started to cry. "And.. I tried to comfort him, and that's when I noticed him listening to the phone. I listened to it and I heard his...... Dad...." She trailed of and sobbed. "WHAT?? How did his Dad know where we are, let alone know what hotel we're staying at?" Britney shouted, her face getting an angry expression. "I don't know, I don't know. I just hung up on him and started to comfort him and all, and then he asked where you were and..... ::sob:: .... I... I... I'm sorry, I..... have to go and talk to TJ," and with that, Shannon walked off. Meanwhile, the Backstreet Boys were still standing there taking in everything that was unfolding with confused and sad faces.
"I want to die, Britney. I... I can't live with this anymore. Why does this have to happen to me?" I hollered. Britney was taken aback with what I just said but continued to hug me tighter. "Shhh! Don't say that, Angel. C'mon, you're a talented young teenager, and you have a lot ahead of you in the future. And I'll be crushed if anything happens to you," Britney said. She then looked up to the guys and said, "Umm, could you guys...."
"Sure. We'll be in the living room if you need any of us, okay?" Kevin said while ushering everyone into the next room. "Yeah," Britney answered. Kevin closed the door behind him while Britney continued to talk to Angel.
Living Room
"What is going on here?" Brian asked. He took a seat on the couch beside Howie while Nick sat at the other side. Kevin and AJ each grabbed a chair from the kitchen and brought them back in the living room. "I'm sure that whatever it is, Britney's handling it right now," Kevin answered trying to reassure Brian. Nick, meanwhile, was in deep thought over what had happened so far and AJ noticed this. "Hey Nick, you all right? Hello?!? Earth to Nick.... Sheesh, you are out of it, man" AJ said trying to get Nick's attention but obviously failing. Brian nudged Nick on the ribs snapping him back to reality. "Huh? What? Oh yeah... I'm fine," Nick answered. "You sure?" Brian asked and Nick nodded. Thirty minutes passed when Britney finally came out of the room.
Everyone stood up when they saw Britney exit the room. "You guys, we're not in a hospital you know?!" Britney said smiling. "Sit down," she said finally motioning them go ahead while she grabbed a chair. "He's asleep, thank goodness," she said in relief with her head looking down on the floor. "What's all this about anyway? And why all the anger towards his Dad?? Why did e want to die?" Nick asked hurriedly. Britney looked at him for about five seconds and then sighed. "I might as well tell you guys his story."
"It's okay, Britney. You don't have to tell us anything you know? We're not pushing you into anything you don't want to do," Kevin said. Britney looked at him and smiled. "Thanks, but Angel himself told me to tell you guys. You are bound to anyway, and now is a good time as ever to tell," Britney sighed again. "Okay....."
"Well, ever since Angel was twelve, he's known that he was gay," Britney started. "He is?" Nick asked. "Yeah," Britney said in response. "Twelve..... How old is he now?" Nick asked again. "Umm, 14.... his birthday was last September 15," Britney answered again. "Fourteen? Wow.... And he's one of your dancers?" Nick asked, again. "Yeah," Britney answered, again smiling. "He's really talented," she added. "So, he must be this young dancer everyone is talking about," Kevin said. "Oh?" Britney said in surprise. "I didn't know many people talked about him."
"Yeah, lot's of people. Kept on sayin' how good he was at dancing, but even better at.... singing?" Kevin ended in a question while looking at Britney who just smiled. "Yeah, you guys should here him sing, he can whoop your asses of the charts if he had a single. I've been forever trying to get him a singing career, but he always says not yet," Britney said. "Now that you mention it, I think I've also heard of him before. Remember when we had a dance rehearsal with Fatima and Nick here kept on making mistakes? Then Fatima said, "C'mon Nick! I know someone who can dance better than you ever did. And his name was Angel and in fact, he's one of Britney Spears' dancers... and he's only 14!!" AJ said, mimicking Fatima. "I remember that," Nick said with a smile. "You should!" Brian smirked. "Anyway, before you were so rudely interrupted," Howie said, giving a look-over at the guys, "Continue with the story." Britney's response was, "Oh,"
"When Angel was twelve and a half, he finally broke down to his parents and told them about his sexuality. Apparently, they didn't take it so well and kicked him out of the house. Poor guy had nowhere to go," Britney said with a sad face. "He contacted his cousin at Los Angeles and went over to live with her. After a few days or months, thank goodness he finished high school, by the way," Britney squeezed in. "Is he a genius or something?" Kevin asked. "No, his parents were loaded with money so they got him a tutor. That's why he's been able to go through "school" fast." Britney answered.
"Anyway, Angel tried to contact his other relatives, but all they told him was that his parents forbid them to support nor help him out," Britney said. "What?" said the surprised Brian. "I can't believe they did that...." Nick added. "Yeah... and they had the money to do it to. That was one of the reasons I was angry when Angel's dad had contacted him here. Anyway, Angel sorted out that his cousin, Alma, was the only one not controlled by his parents so he continued to live with her. He went to college at UCLA and took dance classes on his free time. After finishing a year of college, he decided to take a break from it and continued taking dance classes. I guess his teacher saw a potential in him and referred him to my management because we were short one dancer. They were hesitant at 1st to take in a 14 year old but once they saw his ability, they took him." Britney said. There was a knock at the door and then it opened.
"Hey Britney," Shannon said. "Can me and TJ see Angel?" she asked. "Sure, but he's sleeping though," Britney answered. "That's okay. We won't stay long," Shannon said and walked in to my room followed by a guy. "Who's he?" Nick asked. Britney looked at him and said, "Do I detect something behind that question?" Nick started to blush and this got the others laughing. "He's one of my dancers, Nick!" she finally answered. "Oh," Nick said, still blushing.
"The rest is history for him and me, I guess. But, when he tried to contact Alma, his parents got a hold of her," Britney ended. "How can his parents do that? I mean, he was so young then. It must have totaled him to have his parents act that way. And all because he is gay," Nick said making everyone look at him. The other guys knew exactly where Nick was going at this, but Britney was in la-la-land about it. "What are you talking about?" asked the confused Britney. "Britney, I don't know how to say this but...." Nick didn't get to finish. "Your gay, huh?" Britney finished.
"How did you know?" Brian asked. "Oh please, I saw his reactions while I was telling you guys about Angel. And then that question he asked when he saw TJ... he was almost asking weather TJ was Angel's boyfriend or something!" Britney answered, then saw a scared look on Nick. "Relax Nick, I'm okay with it. Really!" Britney reassured. 'Oh this is so good! Now I can put two and two together between Nick and Angel, and watch the fireworks spark!! Ha, I'm so good," Britney thought. Nick finally looked at her and smiled. "Thanks!"
"So does anyone else know about this?" Kevin asked in a paternal tone. "Management know, so hell won't break loose when something bad happens," Britney said getting a laugh from everyone else. "Then there's Shannon, TJ, me, and finally you guys," she said. "Did anyone say our names?"
Britney looked around and saw TJ and Shannon coming out of my room. "Hey, you guys," Britney said. "He's still sleeping so don't worry. We'll be going back to our rooms now, okay? Goodnight!" TJ said and he walked off to a door, which connected to his room while Shannon went to another. "Angel has really good friends," AJ commented. "Yea, he has," Britney said looking down. "What are we going to do with N'Sync and Christina with us on tour?" Howie finally asked. The guys looked over to Britney who just smiled again. "You guys don't have to worry about anything because N'Sync knows already, and I think Christina will be okay with it too." Britney answered. "N'Sync knew about this already?" Nick asked.
"Yeah! In fact, Justin and Lance were the 3rd and 4th people to know about Angel. I was last," Britney said the last one with a disappointed tone but perked up again. "So that would make Shannon and TJ the 1st and 2nd people?" Kevin asked and got a nod from Britney. "Okay, at least it's all out."
"But what about you Nick?" Britney asked remembering him. "We'll tell everybody in due time," Brian answered for Nick but Nick nudged him. "My gosh you guys, look at the time! It's already a quarter past 12 so we better go to bed," Britney said with a yawn and stood up. The others also began to stand up and walk to the door. Nick was the last to go out but turned back to Britney and said, "We'll see you tomorrow, okay?"
Britney smiled at this, "Yeah, and don't worry. Angel will be his normal self in about three days!" Nick blushed again while Britney laughed. "Goodnight!" said Britney and then Nick closed the door behind him. "Wait up you guys!"
As Nick neared the guys he began to dread over himself. What will happen to him? He still has to tell everybody else about his sexuality and had no idea how N'Sync or Christina will react. Brian noticed Nick's sudden brooding and decided to calm him down. "Relax Nick, if N'Sync accepted Angel, I'm sure they'll accept you," Brian said, "And I'm sure that Christina will be okay with it too."
"Nick, just remember that you are still the same person and we love you," AJ said trying to reassure Nick. "Thanks you guys," Nick said. The guys reached their rooms and said good-night to each other. Nick stripped down to his boxers and plopped down on his bed. He turned around and stared at the ceiling again, in deep thought. 'What will happen when "I" tell my parents??' he though, and fell asleep.
To be continued..........
Author's Note: Well, what do you guys think? What I think is that I've made some progress on my story writing and this is the best so far. I might continue on with both series, but with school starting next Thursday, my life will be hell. I need you readers' opinions though: do you think I should discontinue my other series, "An Angel's Life" and continue with this one, or write both??? I need feedback on this story people so write those e-mails!! Again, I need your decision if I should continue on with this..... or my other story, "An Angel's Life" (you guys should read both this and the other story before you decide)? Or should I do both? Anyway, last... if you readers have any comments/suggestions/ideas, please e-mail me at magic45mj6@aol.com so don't hesitate to drop a line. Flames will be ignored!!!