Chapter 5 Reaching Out In Friendship
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Kyle got to the school and found Justin waiting at the bike rack. "How did it go with Jamie's parents, asked Justin?
"The police and a social worker are involved now, they interviewed me for about two hours then they went over to Jamie's. I don't know what happened over there. Jamie and his parenst left with the police and the social worker and some other guy who I guess was their lawyer, a little later they all came home, that's all I know."
"How was everything at home for you?"
"When I got home the General started in on me, and I told him off."
"Did he hit you?"
"Nah just a little slap, but then he grounded me for the next two weeks I can't even go to baseball and no phone calls either. Will you tell the coach that I can't come to practice for two weeks."
"Sure."
After catching up on the news the three boys walked into homeroom. When they got done with gym class Ben asked Justin, "did your dad say that you can't use your computer?"
"No, he didn't say anything about the computer."
"Good because we can still talk on IM."
"Your right," said Kyle.
"I'll be on line at seven every night and ten in the morning on weekends as well, will that be ok with you dudes?"
"When you get off grounding I want both of you to spend the weekend with me." said Ben.
"Just remember if you have to send the code just im and we will get it."said Kyle.
"See you guys tomorrow." said Justin.
That night Bill called Don and told them, " Jamie is going to be assigned to a local sexual offender/abuse group. He is going to be on probation for five years and can't have contact with any boys under the age of sixteen."
"What about the person who abused Jamie, what is happening with that?" asked Don.
"Call me on Thursday night and I will tell you all about it. And Don please tell Kyle that we appreciate that he doesn't want Jamie to go to jail. I know that he can't have any contact with Kyle but we found out as twisted as it is that he thought that by having sex with Kyle he would make him feel good and then they would be closer. We talked with a councilor today and they told us that sexually abused children often equate love and sex as one and the same thing. Because all of Jamie's relationships outside of his family have been sexual in nature in his mind having sex with Kyle was a way of getting closer to him. I think Jamie now understands that there is a difference between love and sex. I know he is very sad that he and Kyle can no longer be friends." said Bill.
"I will tell Kyle what you said, and we hope that Jamie will get all the help he needs to become everything you want for him."said Don.
After hanging up, Don went and talked with Kyle and told him everything that Bill had said. How did things go today, were Justin and Ben ok?"
"Ben told us that as soon as Justin gets off grounding he wants us to spend the weekend with him, he said that he has something to tell us. Justin got grounded because after he got home his father started calling him names and saying that he is a bad person. Then his father slapped him , Justin got mad and told his dad that he wasn't bad, but that he was the one who was bad. This morning the General was still home and grounded him for two weeks, he can't even go to baseball practice, and no phone calls either."
"Just be a good friend to Justin at school and help him wait out the grounding. Were there any marks on Justin's face?"
"No, he said it was only a slap, and he is learning to duck."
Wednesday morning came and Jamie was a wreck. Since he smoked, Frank had given him a special lighter. It was a transmitter, and would spark but not light. All he had to do is try to light a cigarette to activate it, then the police would be able to hear everything that happened within a twenty feet of where he was standing. When they had all the evidence they needed for a conviction, they would raid Steven's home. Then until he had to testify in court it would be over. At school he got in an argument with his girlfriend. She had demanded to know why he was acting strange the last week and half. Jamie wouldn't tell her and they ended up breaking up.
When he got home from school Frank and Kim were both there. Seeing how nervous Jamie was Kim took him aside and spent a hour talking with him.
"What's the matter Jamie, are you having second thoughts about doing this?"
"It is just that I love Steven our relationship isn't just sex, we do a lot of other things together that I enjoy too. And his friends have always treated me like a younger brother. They do a lot of fun things with me besides sex. They only agreed to the sex as a gift to me. I know that it is against the law for an adult to have sex with a minor, but I was the one who pushed them to do it."
"Jamie, listen to me, even though you initiated the sex, these men always knew that is was wrong and that they should have said no. Your life would have been much different if Steven hadn't molested you when you were nine years old. You wouldn't be going through what you are now. In fact you might never have had any reason to explore gay sex. Let me ask you something, do you think that in the future that you will be able to live totally as a heterosexual, or will you desire and need to continue to have gay sex? Not that I think there is anything wrong with men loving other men. But, if you marry and your wife can't completely satisfy your sexual needs than you will be forced to find other partners. This could lead to the ruin of your marriage, as well as catching something you don't want and giving it to your wife."
"I haven't thought about that, but if I am to tell you the truth, I would have to admit that I doubt if I can go without gay sex. I just like it too much."
"You may have still grown up as a bisexual, but you weren't given a chance. Steven chose for you, when you were too young to know any better. Let me ask you this, when you molested Kyle did he make you do it, or did you decide to have sex with him for whatever reason you had at the time."
"I chose to do it."
"That is exactly what I mean, these men were all adults other than Steven the first time they sex with you on your fourteenth birthday. They have added to your sexual corruption. You weren't allowed to find your own way, they gave in to their own lust , and allowed a minor to do things that they knew were unlawful."
After eating supper and quick shower Jamie drove over to Steven's house. When he got there Jason, Garret, and Dennis were already there. When he walked into the livingroom they were sitting around eating pizza and drinking beer.
"You want a beer?" asked Jason.
Jamie nodded and took the beer and twisted of the cap, and took a swig. He reached for his pack of Marbs and reached into his shorts for his lighter.
He flicked it several times and then said, "shit I forgot to fill the damn thing." Garret passed him a lighter and he lit his cigarette.
Dennis looked at Jamie and said,"tonight is going to be something you will never forget. I got some awesome blow. We are going to fly tonight."
Steven added,"I got some new toys and you are going to love them." Dennis then laid down ten lines of coke so each one would have two lines to snort.
"Jamie you are going to love this. You have the hottest boy pussy I have ever had and you are such a cum pig. Every time I think about your tight pussy I get as hard as a rod of steel."
"Dennis, what do you mean; do you guys make it with other boys also?"
"Hell yes, did you think you are the only hot young teen twink who likes dick.
"Steven, do you guys actually fool around with some other young guys?"
"Oh yea baby, hell one of the hottest is only twelve, if we let him he would have us double fuck him twice a day everyday." "
Here Jamie use this straw so we can all fly." said Dennis. Jamie snorted the coke and then all five went into the bedroom stripped and began to mess around.
Just then Steven's front door was smashed in and police stormed into his house heading directly to his bedroom. The police handcuffed the four men, then helped them into underwear and shorts. Kim had followed Frank into the bedroom grabbed Jamie and dragged him back into the livingroom. She placed a blanket around his naked body.
As the police took Steven out of the house he said, "you fucking queer little son of bitch, how dare you do this to me after all I have done for you. You're an ungrateful slut traitor."
Jamie hung his head and began to mutter, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
Then Jason was escorted from the bedroom, he looked at Jamie and said , "this was going to be my last time I'm supposed to be getting married next month now I go to jail for the next ten of twenty years if I am lucky. Why dude, all we ever did is give you what you wanted, Fuck You."
Kim stood up and told Frank to keep those guys quiet. By this time Jamie was crying and saying, "first I fuck everything with Kyle then I screw up with Jen, and now I am sending my best friends to jail. Fucking stupid asshole, why can't one of the cops just shot me."
Kim had seen enough troubled teens to know that Jamie was in deep trouble, and if not protected he would commit suicide.
"Frank, come here please." Kim filled Frank in on all that had been said, and what Jamie was saying.
"Please cuff him for his own protection, I'm going to call his parents this boy needs to be a hospital right now."
Frank cuffed Jamie, who offered no resistence and let the blanket slip to the floor. Frank looked down at the boy before him and couldn't stop thinking about the fact that it could be his son Mike. If I could get away with it I like shoot all four of those mother- fuckers right now. They have probable ruined this boys life. Frank slammed one fist into the other and ordered a officer to watch Jamie.
He went outside and grabbed Steven from the back of the car and bitch slapped him.
"I hope you catch aids and die in jail you fucking pervert. You have destroyed that boys life. He is in there, is in there thinking about killing himself because he betrayed your worthless trust. Get them out of here before I save us all a lot of trouble and kill the lot of them."
Kim called Bill and Marie said, "we have arrested the four men, but Jamie is in deep trouble, he thinks his life is over, and if we don't protect him he may try to kill himself. Then we would have grieving parents and Kyle will blame himself. So please commit him, to a Hospital that has a special psych unit just for teens. If you agree I will call them and make sure they have a bed available for him."
"Ok we just want him to be safe," cried Marie.
"I'll call you as soon as I know anything."
Kim called Skylar, and was able to get a bed for Jamie on the teen ward. Frank tried to get Jamie dressed but he wouldn't cooperate and he didn't want to hurt the boy anymore than what had already happened. He wrapped the blanket around Jamie and carried him to his car and took him to the hospital where Skylar would help Jamie get the help he needed. Kim drove to Bill and Marie's and spent two hours explaining to them everything that took place that evening. Many tears were shed that night. Both parents blamed themselves for not suspecting something wrong what with the age difference between Jamie and Steven. Kim explained to them that they needed to stop blaming themselves. Jamie was going to need them to be strong if he was ever to recover.
On Thursday evening Peg took Kyle to the group. At first he was afraid to go in, but once he got inside he saw two of his classmates. They waved him over to the ring of chairs. There were ten other boys sitting in the ring and pleasant looking man. As Kyle sat down he looked around and realized that he knew all but the two youngest boys.
The man introduced himself, " hi I'm James Warner, but the boys all call me Jimbo, I lead the boys sexual abuse victim's group and what is your name."
"My name is Kyle Russel." "
"Kyle, what we do here is tell our story in the hope that it will help others to be better able to cope with their own situation. Since this is your first time you don't have to say anything tonight. I take it that you know both Tim and Ronnie."
"Yea we are in the same class at school."
"Tim would you be willing to tell your story so Kyle will understand that he isn't alone in what happened to him. Oh Kyle two rules we have here and they are unbreakable. First what ever is said stays in this room it is never spoken of outside of this room. Second, no one who isn't part of this group knows who is in this group. Do you agree to those two rules."
"Yes, I'm glad, I was kind of worried about a lot of people finding out what happened to me. My two best friends know, but they won't tell anyone."
"My story is a little different from the other boys, everyone else was molested by another boy or man, but I was molested by a woman. Last summer my parents had to go to a special school for a month. They hired a college girl to stay with me. She is one of my mothers best friends daughters. Everything was fine for the first week. Than on the second week as I was taking my morning shower she walked right in on me. She pulled the curtain open and looked at me and asked if I wanted French Toast for breakfast. The next day while I was eating breakfast she came into the kitchen with just a towel on to get a cup of coffee. Somehow her towel got caught in the refrigerator door and pulled it off when she turned around. She didn't even blink an eye. She turned all the way around and asked me if I liked what I saw. I blushed, and she looked and noticed that I got a hard on. Then she walked over and pulled my shorts off and gave me a blow job. I was in shock to say the least, but that night she made me sleep with her and she taught me how to do it. I was only twelve and not very big. She told me she liked young boys and since I couldn't cum she didn't have to worry about anything. The next day I was real upset I was afraid my parent would find out and then I would be in big trouble. I told her I didn't want to do it anymore. But that night she just came into my room and picked me up and carried me to her bed and made me do it again. For the whole month it happened every night. I begged her to stop. She then call me a pansy, she said if I was a real boy I would love what we were doing together. It felt good, but I knew it was wrong.
When my parents got home they knew something was wrong, but I wouldn't tell them. I started getting depressed and my parents took me to see a councilor after a few sessions I told him what had happened. The girl ended up being arrested, my parents weren't mad at me at all. They knew that I never would have done those at things at twelve unless some one forced me to. I hadn't ever even kissed a girl yet."
"Thanks Tim, Ronnie will you be willing to tell Kyle your story."
"I guess he will hear it sometime so now is as good as any time. I have a older brother named Joey his best friend is Eric. Anyway last September on a Saturday afternoon when my parents were gone for the weekend Eric showed up at the house. I let him in like always and told him that Joey was at work and wouldn't be home until after nine that night. He asked me if I minded if he just hung out with me until Joey got home. I have always liked him, and admired his great build. He works out with weights a lot. We played hoops for a while then came back inside for a cold drink. He asked me if I would like to do a bowl with him. Not wanting him to think that I was a geek I said sure. After two bowls I wasn't feeling a thing, then Eric carried, me to Joey's room and took all my clothes off, then he told me he had wanted my cherry for a long time ,and I was going to love what he was going to do to me. I was so high all I could do is giggle. Then he fucked me right there on Joey's bed. Not just once, but at least three times before it was time for Joey to come home. He put me to bed in my bed and was watching TV when Joey came home. The next morning when I woke up and went to bathroom a bunch of blood and white stuff came out of me. I couldn't remember what had happened for sure, but I was scared. Joey and I are real close so I ran to his bedroom and woke him up. He came with me into the bathroom and I showed him what had come out of me. He got real quiet then asked when Eric got there yesterday. I told him all about playing hoops and then I admitted that I had smoke pot with him. I told him that I couldn't remember much except being carried to his room and someone taking off my clothes and tickling me a lot. Joey turned red and then he said I'll kill the son of bitch. He took me to the hospital and made me let them examine me. They took samples from my butt. They even took pictures of my butt. I was so embarrassed, I just wanted to crawl in a hole and die. Some policemen and a social worker came to the hospital and talked to me for a long time. Joey was there the whole time holding my hand. We didn't get home until late in the afternoon. He gave me a shower and then we just watched TV. He called into work and when it was bed time he made me sleep with him. My parents got home the next morning Joey told them everything. Then he got in his car and left for a hour. When he got back he had bloody knuckles and a bruise on his face. I asked him what had happened and all he would say is payback sometimes just doesn't make you feel better. Eric is in Juvenile Detention. The worse thing about it is I liked him so much that even though I not gay I would have done it with him just to make him like me. But, he never even asked he just got me stoned out of my mind and then he raped me three times."
By this time Ronnie was crying softly, when he looked at Kyle he saw tears running down Kyle's face also. He stood up and walked over to Kyle and hugged him. "When did it happen?" is all he asked.
"Two Sundays ago." answered Kyle.
The two boys hugged each other and silently cried on each others shoulders for a couple of minutes. The rest of the meeting involved Jimbo checking in with each boy as to how their week had gone, and asking each one if they had any issues that needed to be discussed.
On the next Monday Kyle came home from school and asked his mom, "is Jamie in jail."
"No, why?"
"I haven't seen him since last Wednesday evening I saw him leave at the same time as Frank, dad's friend from the police that was here that Sunday. When your dad gets home he will talk you about Jamie. Don got home at six that night. Kyle met him at the door.
"Dad where is Jamie I want to know the truth."
"He is in a mental unit for teens at hospital where Skylar works."
"Why is he there?"
"Last Wednesday he helped the police catch his cousin and his friends having sex with him. They had given him coke to snort before having sex with him. Before they had sex they admitted to having sex with other boys, one only twelve years old. When they took the men away they called him a traitor and his brain just couldn't take anymore and he went into what is called catatonic shock. He is awake but doesn't respond to anyone or anything. Before he went into shock he said something about wanting the police to kill him. I think that he believes that he has destroyed every relationship that mattered to him. Bill told me that he cried every night from Sunday through Tuesday night. He had nightmares and called your name out several times. I think he is very sorry for what he did to you. He loved you in a twisted way and knows that he has destroyed what ever you felt for him. Bill told me that the doctor's are very worried that he will not come out of this. He has been in a fetal position ever since Thursday morning. They are feeding him with an IV because he won't eat or drink at all. Kyle you have to know that none of this is your fault. And there is nothing that you can do about it."
Kyle stood there crying and then he began to scream and scream.
"I have to see Jamie now before it's to late."
"He is not allowed to see you,"
"That doesn't mean I can't see him if I want to."
"I don't think it can be arranged."
"Daddy we have to try, I still like Jamie, he has been a big brother, what he did is wrong ,but it shouldn't be the end of his life. It would kill me if I know that he is never going to be ok."
Don called Bill and told him that Kyle wanted to help Jamie. Then Bill called the hospital and spoke to Jamie's doctor. Don drove Kyle to the hospital where Dr. Brown spoke with Kyle for several minutes until he was sure that he only wanted to help Jamie.
Kyle walked into Jamie room and saw him curled up like a baby on top of the bed.
"Everyone get out and stay out until I come out." Dr. Brown nodded and everyone left.
Kyle walked to the bed and began to talk with Jamie.
"Hey dude I hear that you aren't doing so well. I know you may think that I hate you, but I don't you see for a few days I was really mad at you. Now I'm sorry that I ever said anything. Until that Sunday you have always been a big brother to me. If you don't come out of this I am going to be real sad."
Kyle continued to talk to Jamie for a hour. Finally he just reached over and turned Jamie on his back then he said to Jamie.
"I still love you and I will prove it," still no response from him. "
"I will not give up on you damn it, you owe me, now wake up. If you don't tonight I will hang myself, because I have destroyed your life. The ball is in your court now to save my life all you have to do is get out of that bed. But, if you don't give a shit about me than I will just end my life and no one will stop me." Kyle yelled with tears running his face.
Jamie slowly sat up. Kyle wrapped his arms around Jamie and hugged him and said, " I'm starving and they told me you haven't eaten since Wednesday night, let's find some grub."
Jamie slowly stood, Kyle took his hand and lead him out of the room. Hen opened the door and said, "is there any food around here my bud and I are starving."