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This IS just a fiction of my imaginations and nothing here is true. I'm a big fan of N'sync and the story here is just my fantasy with Lance of N'sync. This of course is not true although I really hope so!
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Hey, hey, hey, glad to be back on track again. This took me a long, long time for me to write but I hope it's worth the effort. Like I said, it's gonna be a long story. Thanks to my `mui mui' again for the support and hope you guys enjoy it! Any comments at all are welcome at jascablue@edsamail.com.sg.
Chapter 4
I woke up again for the second time today. I still can't believe this is happening to me. I smiled at the face before me and kissed his nose lightly. His eyes opened and he lurched for me. Hands pressing down on my shoulders, he leaned down for his prize, a peck in the cheek and a good afternoon. I smiled and greeted him warmly and stood up. My hair was in a mess, I looked like the lone survivor of the Hiroshima bombing with my hair all standing up on ends. He looked at me quizzically and burst out laughing. I pushed him down to the bed and went to the bathroom. This time I didn't took the luxury treatment of the bathtub and instead just splash water on my face and started wetting my hair. I combed my hair to the side and brush my hair high in the front. I left the toilet and stood with my hands on my hips looking at him. Lance looked back curiously. "Well?" I said.
"Well? What? What did I do now?" he voice raised slightly in defence, the face looked totally confused.
"Well, what are we going to do now? I'm bored and I'm smelly with these clothes on!" I looked at him with my face cranked up and one hand pinching my face.
He smiled and went up and hugged me. "You smell perfect! Of cigarettes and puke that is." I poke him on his sides and he jumped. "Okay, let's go shopping. What do you say?"
My mouth opened and started, "What, hey I'm not rich you know. I'm still a student and after blowing my bank buying your N'sync ticket, I'm practically broke!"
Too late, I was always a miser to begin with but he just smiled that ever-happy face and said, "My treat".
That began the day for us. First stop was to the hotel's cafe where we had a delicious international buffet. He had some French toast and orange juice. A scrambled egg and some muffins followed later with another glass of orange juice. I had some bacon and two sunny-side up eggs. Cereal was next and then bacons again all dunk into the stomach with milk. I looked up at him and he smiled. "What do you know about me anyway?" he asked with a casual approach.
"Oh, not much. Just that you like French toast and Mexican food. Umm, your name is actually James Lansten Bass and your nickname Scoop' was taken from Justin or one of the others' brother because you always seems to know the schedule for the tour and stuff. I know you have different coloured contact lenses and today you're wearing yellow but your actual eye colour is light green, right? Oh yeah, you live in Mississippi but you just brought a house over at Orlando. You were in a choir once called attache' and you've a scar above your left eye." looking at him slyly I added, "I've also read somewhere that you and Joey have the smallest dick in the group."
With that he choked on his orange juice and was coughing so badly that I had to move over his side to pat his back. "Looks like I've got a mad fan here. You want an autograph?"
I smiled sweetly at him and said no. "I just want you around, to love and hold as I would do for you." I moved from his back and planted him a kiss on his cheek. He smiled at me with his face all red. I went back to my seat and continued eating. Food tasted so good when you're in love. As we were going out of the hotel I asked him again. "So who has the smallest dick in N'sync?"
"I'm not going to tell you. You go check it out yourself."
"What, you're giving me permission to check the guys?"
He poked me in the sides and asked teasingly, "Aren't you content with mine?"
I grinned at him and replied, "We'll have to see how good you are with it." With that we entered the one of the many shopping centres at Orchard Road in Singapore.
Chapter 5
That day ended with us both exhausted from the shopping trip. I brought some nice looking T-shirts and a khaki pant while he had brought a pair of trainers and some Tasmanian collectibles. I looked at the time and flipped. "Oh shit, I haven't called my mom for like since yesterday. I gotta go home now."
He held my hands and looked straight in the soul of my eyes. `Stay' was all that he said and that was all I needed to hear. You'll never know the feeling of being needed by someone so badly. I nodded my head and smiled. I jumped to his laps and kissed him madly. Before he could even get a hold on me I was off my feet and on the phone. "Hello, mom? Yeah it's me. Sorry, I forgot. My friends and I were drinking and I stayed up at their home. I'm gonna stay for another few days there okay? Don't worry about me. I'll be fine. Okay love you too bye." I let out a deep breath and sank into the bed. It was a very tiring day. I felt his body move closer to me and I stretched out my arms. Comfort welcomed me as his body enveloped my arms. I hugged him tightly and slept. Time passed and I woke. "Oh god, what time is it already. I feel like I've been sleeping forever." I asked.
"What? It's only been five minutes since we've slept! Yeah, it really feels like a long time huh?" Lance said looking at me.
"Well baby, it seems like time passed slowly for us to enjoy the night." I grinned. We kissed. It was mutual kind of kiss. We just suddenly stood up synchronise and just like a magnet we were attracted to each other by an unknown force. Our lips met and later the hands. Finger by finger, each finger finding their other half and connecting. Knees moved closer and closer. Steady and slowly our knees met. Our eyes opened at once and our lips parted. I looked at him and he looked at me. surprised. My mouth still hanged opened while his hands went over to his mouth and covered it. Never had I felt this kind of feeling when I kissed guys. I mean never! I guess from his look that he too had never felt such feelings before. It was a mutual and loving feeling. A strong and powerful surge of emotion crossed my heart as our lips touched. It was as if time had stopped and the tide had ceased just for that moment. It was absolutely wonderful. I opened my mouth and sang.
Every time our eyes meet, This feeling inside me, Is almost more than I can take, Baby when you touch me, I can feel how much you love me, And it just blows me away, I've never been this close to anyone or anything, I can hear your thoughts, I can see your dreams, I don't know how you do what you do, I'm so in love with you, It just keeps getting better, I wanna spend the rest of my life, With you by my side, Forever and ever, Every little thing that you do, Baby I'm amazed by you.
He gazed at me, the words forming from his mouth, "with you by my side forever and ever." I was also thinking of that song right after we kissed. Smiling, he mouthed out ` I love you' without saying a word.
Looking at him in the eyes felt so wrong. It was as if I could just see through his soul just by doing that and what's worse was that he seems to welcome me into it. I looked, and looked, and looked. I found what I was looking for he wasn't lying. My mouth opened as I said me too' and realised that no voice came out. His hands moved to my cheek and slowly caress it. I closed my eyes and let the sensation take over. My hands felt blindly for him, anything that was him. They landed on his firm chest. I felt the soft texture of his shirt and the hard, developed body inside. My hands came to his nipples. They slowly came to a hardness that was brought by my simple circular motion of the thumb. His hands moved slowly down to the neck and there he kissed, planting each kiss lovingly like a farmer to his crops. Each kiss also increased his desire and need as he moved carefully downwards. My hands were already pulling out his shirt and with an impatient movement he flung them off. Standing upright he faced me allowing me to feel his every contour of his body. His hard shoulders from overworking, his slightly developed six-pack from his rigorous dance routine and those slim muscular arms that would make keep me warm for days to come. His hands came to my waist and pulled at my shirt. My conscious self didn't want him to take it off. I am fat and he was not. Hadn't he looked at me just yesterday? My mind couldn't imagine it. Him looking at my less perfect body. I should've exercise more. I took off my shirt consciously and looked at him. "I am fat! Oh, don't look at me." My hands covered his eyes and he said a hey!' before falling onto the bed. Disappointed at myself I left the bed and went to the chair at the dressing table. Slumping down, I frowned. This somehow seemed wrong. It wasn't right, no it isn't. I turned towards him and asked, "Are you really serious about me?"
He turned around, "Tell me what you felt just now when we kissed."
"Well, it sure felt strong. That's all I can explain. I don't even know how to define it but whatever it was it sure felt comforting and loving. Yes, I feel love for you and from you." I said as I walked around the room.
"Then what do you have to doubt? I love you, it's been so long since I felt so strongly for somebody."
"So let's take it slow shall we? I don't want us to go too far without even knowing each other first." I cut him off before he could finish his sentence. "I don't want it to be just sexual feeling we have for each other. I want." my mind searching for the suitable word.
"You want more than that. You want us to be happy even without sex. You want to be content just to be with the person. You want what I want."
"So let's just know each other first. Let's take it slow." I smiled at him. "Do I look fat?" I winced at him.
"No, you're just fine. You're just like a little teddy bear. My teddy bear." His eyes locked into mine making me his.
"And you're mine as well. You're my knight in shining armour. Hold me in your arms and never leave me!" My eyes shine brightly as I pretended to be a damsel in distress on a classic olden movie. His face cracked and began laughing.
"You know, you should be an actor. You're good." He said as he wiped tears away from his eyes.
Chapter 6
The next few days flew passes by without me even noticing it gone. We went for scrolls in the park although it was really a very small area of land. We ate in the hotel room and spent hours talking about ourselves. It amazed me how we have to talk about even though we don't really share much interest. He told me of his love for adventure and water sports especially water skiing. I had to agree that I like water sports but it is hard to do those kinda things that he does here in Singapore. Moreover I was only 16 and in this country I'm still considered very young, way too young to do anything in particular. He told me in details about his relationships. He was a bisexual and Danielle Fishel had found out about that and broke off with him. He had a couple of fans as boyfriends but none really went well from the start. Most were over protective and some were too demanding. He had some girlfriends in high school and they really could have went well but he knew that they wasn't what he wanted and thus broke off with every one of them. I listened to his history with interest and some jealous and a pinch of fear. What if I were to be just another person he talks about to with his future partner? What I he was to use the word was' instead of is'. That is what I fear. I don't even want to think of where I'll be then. I thought of my promise to him. "let's just be content with each other right now. Save the problem for later." Yeah, something like that. I smiled and pushed the thought aside but not before I realised what that meant. It meant I was really serious about him, oh god. I told him of my puppy love with a girl I was introduced to. I told him of my mind playing ex boyfriend I had which lasted for three months. That was all. I didn't have much history to talk about but two ex were enough for me. I had my fun and sad times with them but none was so serious as this. I just couldn't believe that it was happening to me. We spent nights sleeping together in bed with our clothes on and bodies intertwined. Sometimes my head snuggled in his chest and sometimes he would sleep hugging me from behind. It was during those times I could hear him whispering softly, too faintly for me to make out the words but somehow seems comforting. With that our four days of heaven was gone.
Chapter 6
"Come on, wake up you sleep ass."
"Huh, what? Oh, it's time already. Wait, I'm still yawn sleepy. Lemme wash my face first will okay. I can't face the guys like that!" I sense awoke and I found myself walking towards the bathroom. The next thing I knew the cold water hit me. With teeth gritting from coldness and hands trembling, I fumbled for the towel. The softness of the towel felt so good on my face. I slowly walked to the room and Lance was already looking at the watch. "What time is it already? Shouldn't they be here?" I asked.
Like a magic word to open the hidden chest the door opened. In came four exuberant young men.
"Yo Lance, how are you doing man." cried out Chris.
"Hey, lemme see Lance. It's been like what, a week since we last saw him?" asked Joey.
"Hey, hey, hey, how's my buddy!" yelled Lance as he went forward and hugged Lance.
"Hey Scoop, you still haven't. who are you?" demanded JC.
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