Disclaimer: This story will contain guy/guy sex between consenting adults. If this isn't your "cup of tea" then scram. This story is not meant to imply anything about the sexual preferences of the Backstreet Boys. This story may be redistributed in other archives as long as I am kept as the author and you don't charge anyone to read it. So after all that.....Enjoy! Oh and if you enjoy this, please let me know at md_life@yahoo.com
Authors Note: I want to apologize to all the people who have written me and haven't gotten a reply yet. Please be patient with me I will get to all of your e-mails soon. I just haven't had the chance to yet. Oh...check out these stories in this section of the Nifty Archive, they are all fantastic: Forever, N'SYNC And the Vamps, BSB-N'SYNC Chronicles, Animal-N-Styncts, and Justin's Dark Angel. Thanks and let me know what you think. md_life@yahoo.com ~Mike D.
Previously on Coming Back Into Your Heart...
"Step back. I'm going to open it." He said slowly starting to slid the lid off. All the guys backed off except Kevin who went to kneel next to Alex on the floor and helped him lift the lid. As it slid open the guys held their breaths, but no bang came. They opened their eyes to see Alex and Kevin contemplating the dozens of little chocolates that were in the box. There was a note on top. Alex picked it up and read it out loud.
Wolf~
We remember. You'd think that we would forget wouldn't you? That I would forget. But I haven't and I will get you. Stalker can't save you. You can't save yourself. If you want the both of you to live, go back to the Agency. Rejoin the game and we can play again, just as we used to. And then I will kill you according to the rules. Or maybe I will kill Stalker. That is in the rules you know. The loved ones are always fair game in this game. I'm coming, you can't hide so I'd try to be prepared if I were you. Ready or not here I come.
~ Hunter
Coming Back Into Your Heart Chapter 6
Brian stared at the ceiling of his hotel room later that morning thinking of that note. He didn't understand this side of his cousin...he felt like in the past couple of days, since Alex had showed up he had seen an entirely new side of his cousin. He hated that Kevin had felt it necessary to hide a part of himself from him...his cousin. But still he couldn't condemn Kev for it. It was pretty hard to believe even with proof staring Bri right in the face. But now he was worried, the note that they had found in the box of candy...this made it even more serious. Alex may be tough but a bullet can kill no matter how tough the person may be.
He thought of himself and the other guys too. This killer from the game, Hunter, would probably come after them too. Kev and Alex had left immediately after getting dressed, saying that they were going to go talk to Alex's boss to let him know that they were both, officially out of the game. Somehow Brian had been able to tell that they both were more nervous about this than the note. He didn't understand that but he hadn't been through half of what either of them had. Kev had said something before they left, that there was something that Alex wanted to tell all of them about his past. Something that had happened to him in the game. Brian had a funny feeling that none of them would really be happy to hear whatever it is, but that it would help them to understand Alex, which would be good. Brian was trying to understand Alex and he found himself liking him more and more. It was obvious that he loved Kevin desperately and that the feeling was returned, which was all that any of the guys needed to trust him. The rest was coming.
Brian put his hands behind his head and contemplated everything that had happened since Alex had walked into that hotel room. Brian smiled, well it was a relief to see his cousin lose that hint of sadness that had always seemed to hang around him before. It was also a relief to know that his cousin actually did have a libido. The guys had wondered over the years why Kevin had never dated, but had never asked after the first time. Nick had jokingly asked Kev why he never dated and he had gotten the saddest look on his face and excused himself. Well now maybe he could tell the rest of the guys that he was bi-sexual. Even when he had known about Nick and AJ he still had never had the courage.
He continued to stare at the ceiling, memorizing the paint splatters and felt himself drift back to sleep. His last conscious thought before he fell back into the darkness of sleep was to wonder what was going on at the "Agency."
Kevin stared at the doors of this building that he had walked out of years ago and vowed to never enter again and felt an incredible feeling of dread. He felt Alex's hand come to rest on his shoulder and squeeze lightly.
"Kev...I can do this alone if you want." Alex said gently, knowing how hard this was for Kevin.
"No, we will do this together. When we go in there though...you will again be Stalker and I will be Wolf. I had hoped to never have to go back to being that person again. But, to have you with me, forever makes it worth while to be Wolf every once in awhile." Kevin said smiling at Alex.
"Kev.." Alex smiled shaking his head, "I thought you had realized by now.." at Kevin's questioning look Alex continued, "Wolf isn't a persona that you take off and put on..he's always part of you. There are just times when he is less apparent."
Kevin stared at Alex for a minute, "I guess your right...but I'll think about it more later. Come on Stalker. We have a part of our lives that needs to be permanently closed."
Alex nodded and they walked towards the doors.
Once they entered the secretary, an older woman that was the picture of the stereo-typical grandma, smiled at them but Stalker knew that if she hadn't recognized him she would have had her hand on the semi-automatic machine pistol strapped to the bottom of her desk. As it was she simply buzzed The Exterminator saying in her quiet, matronly voice,
"Stalker is here to see you sir."
There was a pause before Stalker and Wolf heard him reply, "Send him in." The secretary nodded at them smiling again and went back to typing industriously at her computer, and they entered the large door past her desk.
"Stalker so I take it that your mission was successful." The Exterminator said not looking up from the paper on his desk.
"In a way it was." Stalker said as calmly as he could manage, using all his skills to keep his emotions from showing, feeling Wolf's presence next to him helped extremely.
"In a way?" The Exterminator asked looking up, surprise flashing across his face when he noticed Wolf. He leaned back in his chair smiling, "Wolf! It's been a long time. It is good to see you again."
Kevin simply nodded as Alex continued, "Sir, we've come here so that I could resign from the game."
"What! Stalker, but your our best agent, we need you...your country needs you." The Exterminator was mad, this was not how it was supposed to have happened. Stalker was supposed to have convinced Wolf to come back, not the other way around. It could not end this way. Somehow he needed to convince them to stay with the Agency.
Alex took a deep breath, "I'm sorry but I've been doing this for years, I can't anymore. I want to simply have a life with the man I love. I've made up my mind."
Exterminator leaned back in his chair, his mind moving swiftly. Perhaps he could just put out that they were both back officially...if he did that then they would have to come back to the Agency, there would be no safe place. Practically every killer in the game wanted to see if they were good enough to get these two. He smiled, this would work. He knew it.
When Exterminator smiled Stalker knew that something was up. He knew that he had a plan when he said simply, "Then that's your choice."
Alex sensed a trap, but knew that there was nothing that he could say that would stop the trap so he simply nodded and turned to go. As he and Kevin neared the door the Exterminator again spoke.
"Stalker," He stopped but did not turn, "I will put out that you are officially out of the game. But you know that that may not stop some of the more...ambitious of the assassins out there. You have been a major target for too long. It would bring a hell of a lot of prestige to the person that manages to kill you."
Alex and Kevin looked at each other and then, without saying a word continued out the door and out of the Agency.
Once outside and in the car Alex leaned back against the seat and sighed deeply, "He's right you know Kev. The person that kills me will gain a lot of prestige, I believe that I am putting you and all the guys in even more danger."
Kevin smiled at Alex, "Alex, look the guys know what to expect. And they agree with me that you should leave the Agency. They like you Alex, they want you with us. Almost as much as I do. You can't go Alex. Because, I swear...if you do I will come after you this time."
Alex looked at Kevin and smiled then sat up to start the car he had rented. They sat in companionable silence for most of the way until Kevin sat up and said gently,
"You know that when we get back we have to tell the guys what happened to you in Russia."
Alex took a deep breath and nodded, "I know and...I can do it. I...I might break down a little Kevin, but I already feel like we are all a family and I want to tell them, they deserve to know." The both grew quiet again and Kevin reached over and held Alex's hand that was resting between them on the seat.
"Brian told me before we left that he has something to tell everyone too. I don't have any idea what it is and he wouldn't budge when I asked him, but I think it is pretty major. He seemed nervous." Kevin said as they neared the hotel.
Alex thought for a minute, "Maybe he's going to tell y'all that he's gay too."
Kevin grinned, "That would be awful for Howie, him being the only straight guy in the whole group."
Alex laughed, "Yeah, but at least he knows that he's the only manly one out of all of you."
Kevin turned to glare at him, "Are you calling me unmanly?"
"Oh no, my love. But....I do know that you scream like a little baby when someone tickles you. But I would never call you unmanly....at least not to your face." Alex said trying to keep a straight face as he parked the car and jumped out, running for the doors with Kevin in hot pursuit.
Alex knew that Kev would catch him if he got on the elevator so he made a break for the stairs once inside the hotel, hearing Kev running up them behind him.
Shoving the door open when he reached their floor he ran for Brian's room knowing that he didn't have the key to his and Kevin's room. He found the door unlocked thank goodness and burst into the room, trying to get it shut behind him before Kevin reached it, but Kevin shoved against the door, pushing it open again before Alex could lock it.
The other guys watched as Kevin slowly advanced on the still laughing Alex. They had all nearly jumped out of their skins when Alex had come bursting through the door and now watched bemusedly as Kevin tackled Alex and started to tickle him, wondering what had caused this.
Alex shrieked with laughter as Kevin tickled him unmercifully. Kevin held him pinned down and stopped tickling long enough to ask grinning, "Take it back?"
"Never! You scream like a little girl!" Alex gasped out as he tried to catch his breath. Kevin sighed deeply.
"I'm very disappointed in you Alex...are you trying to say that you don't?" Alex nodded stillgiggling a little and Kevin looked at the rest of the guys and asked, still smiling, "What do say? Does he shriek like a little girl?" and began tickling him again, sending him into peals of laughter yet again. When he stopped the guys were all grinning broadly.
"Sorry Alex but you do shriek like a little girl." Howie said laughing and Alex glared balefully at him.
"Dammit Howie, your not supposed to agree with him! Who's side are you on?" The guys all grinned and pointed at Kevin who laughed and smiled down at Alex.
"Give up yet?" Alex sighed deeply and nodded. The minute that Kevin let him go though, Alex grabbed him and pulled him down to his chest and rolled them over so that Alex was straddling Kevin now and began tickling him....he grinned when Kevin shrieked with laughter. After a minute Alex relented and let Kev up. They both stood and walked over to the couch trying to catch their breath and Kevin sat down with Alex sitting between his legs, leaning back against Kev's chest.
"Soooo..." Nick said trying to think of something to say, "What brought that on?" he finally asked.
"Alex was teasing me. I didn't think that was the proper way to treat his boyfriend and had to set him straight." Kevin said squeezing Alex tightly.
Howie grinned, "Set him straight? Isn't that the opposite of what you want him to be Kev?"
Kevin stared at Howie for a moment then said, "I guess your right Howie. Damn, I didn't set you straight permanently did I?" He asked Alex in mock horror.
Alex grinned, "Nope, even worse...you gave me a taste for tall blondes." he said jumping and walking to Nick and sitting on his lap who looked totally shocked.
"Hey!" Nick cried looking at AJ who was playfully glaring at Nick, "This wasn't my idea!"
They all laughed and Alex resumed his seat leaning against Kevin's chest. "So, Brian, Kev said that you had something that you wanted to tell us. Want to spill now that we are all present?" Alex asked cautiously.
Brian silently nodded and took a deep breath, "Guys.....I'm bisexual."
They all stared then turned to look at Howie who said seriously, "Yeah, well I'm lesbian...so what?"
They all started to laugh and Brian looked distinctly relieved.
What did you think that we were going to do Bri? Yell at you for being attracted to guys?" Nick asked taking AJ's hand, " Somehow I don't think that you have much to worry about. Howie on the other hand, being the only straight guy around here...." Nick's voice trailed off as Howie raised one hand.
"Hold it right there Nick. I never said I was straight. I'm bi, like Brian I just never said anything because I've never had a serious relationship with another guy even though I am attracted to them. It didn't seem like a big deal." he said calmly.
Alex burst into laughter, "I can't believe you guys! Jeez, you guys are every gay guys' as well as females' wet dream. Y'all are just too much."
"Hey! Enough already." Brian said laughing, "Now, Alex there's something that you wanted to tell us too right? You wanna spill now too?"
Kevin and Alex immediately grew serious and Alex stood and walked to the bar. He pulled out one of the mini bottles of Vodka and swiftly drank it all while the guys watched, concerned.
"Kev..." Brian asked uncertainly.
"It'll be alright Bri. Alex is just preparing himself. This little story hurts him a lot to tell, I think that he just needs a little courage before telling you." Kevin said still looking at his lover who was staring out the window.
"Okay I'm ready now." Alex said just loud enough for all of them to make out his words. "Well Brian this story starts a little over a year ago in Russia. I was on a mission with my new partner to uncover the cruel plots and schemes that lay behind the current premier's perfect public figure. I went under cover....."
A couple of hours, a pack of cigarettes, two more bottles of vodka, and a lot of tears later Alex finished his story. Kevin gently cradled Alex against him as the rest of the guys tried to stop the flow of tears down their own faces. AJ also had Nick wrapped tightly in his arms as though he would never let him go again.
Suddenly Brian stood and walked over to the couch and pulled Alex out of Kevin's arms and into his own, hugging him tightly. Alex cried softly onto Brian's shoulder, pouring out all his anger and grief. Pretty soon he felt more arms surround him and knew that the other guys had wrapped themselves around him as well, giving him the comfort that he had longed for but had not been able to find with any of the friends that he had found before these guys. He finally had a family again.
To Be Continued...
Well...it was a little more light-hearted there for a little while. I am sorry that it took me so long to get this part out. And I hope that y'all will understand when I say that it may take even longer to get part 7 out. It's not that I don't have ideas. It's just that I'm going out of the country for a little while and won't be back until July. And to all those who have e-mailed me and not gotten anything back....I'M SORRY!!!!! I've also been really busy with life in general. I will try to check my e-mail and get out all my replies before I leave but I'm not making any promises. But...still please e-mail me, because I read every single one and appreciate every one. Thanks~ Mike D. md_life@yahoo.com