Sorry it has taken me so long to get part two out, but I had some stuff to do, and a little case of writer's block. I hope you enjoy this part, and I would like to thank the people that has written me to tell me that they liked my story so far. Thanks Joey, without I couldn't have done this.
If you are offended or uncomfortable by material concerning gay life style. please know that this story does deal with that heavily. This is a work of fiction and is not meant to imply anything about anyone. While some of the characters may be loosely based on real people, none are meant to actually represent anyone, particularly any of the members of 'N Sync.
I would like to heard what you think of the story. You can e-mail me at gwmwayne@aol.com.
Enjoy!!!
from part one
As I was packing, Marks face would appear but I would hear Josh singing to me...
part two
Dreams When the sands of time stops falling I will still love you. When the world crumbles I will still be here for you. Nothing can stop me from finding you. You are my dream come true.
Hold on to your heart hold on to your dreams. Let me be there for you when you cry. Let me tell you why. I love you.
Every one has a special dream. Let me tell you mine. To love you. __________________________________________________________
JOSH
Terri put the phone down. Turned to Josh and smiled. "Well he's coming. Also he told me to tell you that you should be a professional singer." Terri said.
Josh and Terri looked at each other and burst out laughing.
"Terri, I can't believe he's never heard us sing before." Josh said.
"He probably has, just hasn't put your voice with the group. It's not like you are the only one singing in the songs." Terri said.
"You mean Wayne doesn't even know what I look like?" Josh asked
"Probably not. If I know Wayne he has never seen any of your videos." Terri said.
"I don't know if I should be happy, or pissed." Josh said
"Just hope he doesn't see a video or gets your CD." Terri said seriously.
"Why?" Josh asked with a hint of concern in his voice.
"Cause it Wayne finds out that you are J.C. of 'N Sync. He'll cut himself off from you." Terri said.
"Why? Because I'm a Celebrity?" Josh asked.
"No, of course not Josh. Wayne would only be thinking of you. He's openly gay and wouldn't want the press to find out that you are hanging around with him. He'd only be think of your and the guy's Image." Terri said.
"Then what we could have had is doomed before it was started." Josh said with pain in his voice. "UnlessÉ I don't tell him that I'm in 'N Sync. But then I would start off something with Wayne with a lie. Terri what am I to do?" Josh asked, again with pain.
"First, you'd better not lie to him. Wayne hates liars. I think you and Wayne should get to know each other before he gets here," Terri explained.
"How do I do that?" Josh asked.
"I'll give you his cell phone number. Then you can call him every day." Terri said, smiling.
"I don't know Terri, today and tomorrow is really busy for me and the guys. We've got a meeting today and a photo shoot tomorrow, plus an autograph session today and tomorrow." Josh explained.
"Call him at night, if Wayne has the same habits he used to, he doesn't go to bed until three am every night." Terri said.
"What do I say about calling him?" Josh asked.
"Tell him I want you two to get to know each other." Terri said.
"OK, I'll do that. I just hope he doesn't hang up on me like he did to you." Josh said.
"He'd better not! I would rip out his intestines and play cat's cradle with them. I want you and him to get together. He needs you and I think that you need him too." Terri said
"Thanks Terri." Josh said with a smile. " I have to get going. I have a meeting at lance's house at noon."
"Ok, here's his number." Terri said as she wrote down Wayne's number
"Call me tonight and tell me how the talk went." Terri said as she hugged Josh.
"Sure, you bet." Josh said with a nod. Josh and Terri walked to the front door and hugged again. "See you hon." Josh said.
"Take care Josh, and call Wayne." Terri said with a smile.
Josh got into his jeep, and headed over to Justin's house to pick him up. Josh grabbed his car phone and dialed Justin's number.
"Hello, Curly." Josh said when Justin picked up.
"Hey Josh. I was just about to call you. We have a meeting you know." Justin said.
"Yea, that's why I'm calling. I will be there to pick you up in ten." Josh said.
"Great! Then we have time to get something to eat before we get to Lance's. I'm starved." Justin wined.
"Curly, when aren't you." Josh joked.
"Hey! I'm a growing boy." Justin complained.
"OK, I will talk to you when I get there. Bye." Josh said. as he hung up the phone.
Josh started thinking of Wayne. 'God do I have it bad' Josh thought. 'I don't even know him. Yet I can't stop thinking of him. All I hope he is not like David and more like Aaron....
WAYNE
'I have to call Rex.' Wayne thought. 'How long has it been sense the last time I talked to him and Jean.' I looked at the calendar, on my dresser. 'Three weeks! God, are they going to kill me.' I thought.
I picked up the phone by my bed and call Rex's and Jean's number.
"Hello?" I heard a woman's voice.
"Hello Jean. How have you and the boys been?" I asked.
"Wayne!" Jean exclaimed.
"Yes, it is I the royal butthead." I said with a smile.
"I would say you are more a poor excuse for human life. I haven't heard from you in three weeks. The boys miss you and Rex is about to rip out his hair, you know he is still in love with you." Jean said.
I became serious "Jean. He has you and the boys. Will he ever give up?"
"You were his first love. You know he won't stop loving you. If I didn't know how much he loves me and the boys I would be jealous, I mean if you where straight, I would have gone out with you." Jean said.
"Jean, love. It has been eight years, he broke up with me remember." I said.
"Wayne, the only reason he broke up with you is because of Mark. Oh God. Wayne I'm sorry I didn't mean to mention him." Jean pleaded.
I felt a sharp pain in my heart.
"Jean, don't worry, I'm fine." I forced myself to lie. "What do you mean it was because of Mark he broke up with me?" I asked.
"Rex saw the way you and Mark looked at each other when ever you got together." Jean explained.
"Jean, Mark and I were friends, only friends. There was nothing going on." I said
"He knew that, but he also knew that you and Mark, would be better together then you two. He could not give all of himself to you, but Mark could. That is why I fell in love with Rex he thought of your feeling over his." Jean said, with love in her voice.
"Jean, I never thought for once that he was not giving all of himself to me. I loved him." I said.
"I know what you mean Hon. I feel the same when I look at him. But we are talking about Rex. He always thinks he is not giving all he can. Remember how long it took me to get him finally propose to me." Jean said with a laugh.
"Yea, I thought you would have to drag him to the altar. Two years. How did you ever do it?" I said with a laugh.
"I told him if he didn't marry me I was going to get my dad to have a very long talk to him in the shed." Jean said.
"Jean! You didn't. Not the tanning shed. You are so cruel" I said with a giggle.
"Yes, I am. Even had dad take of his belt to show Rex I was not kidding." Jean said.
"Remind me never to piss you off, or you dad! So how is the twins?" I asked, to change the subject.
"They're doing great. They'll be five in two months. Shane has his dad's eyes, Chris has mine, other then that they look alike. So when can you come and see them, and us?" Jean asked
"That's why I'm calling, IÉ uhÉ need a favor." I said in a small voice.
"Oh, I knew it. You can't call just to talk. No, you need a favor. OK, what is the favor?" Jean asked.
"Well... I'm going on a little vacation and was wondering if you Rex and the boys would like to stay at my house while I am gone." I said.
"Really. Oh Wayne! We would love to. So where are you going?" Jean asked.
"I'm going to go see Terri." I said
"Oh. That's great you need to see her, as I'm sure she needs to see you." Jean said
"Yea she twisted my arm. Told me if I didn't come down there to see her. She would come and drag me down there. You know Terri she would do it too." I said with a laugh.
"So, how are you getting down there, surely not by plane. You hate to fly. You driving? Going to take Baby?" Jean asked.
"Yea, I think Baby needs to get the road under her wheels again." I said with a smile.
Baby, is my nineteen sixty-two Nova. My pride and joy, Mark bought, and had her rebuilt. He gave her to me for our second anniversary. Mark was so mad that I named her Baby.
"Wayne? Hello Wayne you still there?" Jean asked.
"Yea, I'm still here. Was just think of Baby and Mark. Tell you what, I'll pick up the boys and drive them around while you get some stuff packed. That way I get to see them and you get a break for a bit." I said.
"That would help a lot. Thanks. So, when are you leaving to for Florida?" Jean asked.
"I want to leave by five tonight." I said.
"So soon? I thought we would get sometime to talk." Jean said.
"Jean, it is ten now we will have time. I told Terri I would be down on Wednesday." I explained.
"OK. I'll call Rex at work and tell him we are watching your house for you. If I know Rex he will take the rest of the day off, so he has time to talk to you. I'll let you go so I can get the boys ready for you. See you in a bit." Jean said.
"See you in a bit Jean." I said, as I put the phone back on the hook.
I grabbed my luggage and my keys and walked out back to the garage. Opened the door, and looked at Baby, opened the trunk. Put my luggage in and closed the trunk.
I walked back to the house closed and locked it all up. Then turned on the alarm system. Got into Baby and drove to Jean and Rex's house. Parked out front and got out. Turned to the front door and promptly got tackled to the ground by two little boys.
"Uncle Wayne!" the boys said.
"Hey Shane and Chris. Could you let me up?" I said.
"OK." Shane said.
I looked at the boys. They sure have grown. Shane and Chris look so much alike, it was hard for me to tell them apart until I remembered what Jean said. Shane did have Rex's deep green eyes, and Chris had Jean's dark Blue eyes; they were so dark, they almost looked Violet. They each had Rex's black hair, so black that it had a blue cast to it.
"Wow, you sure have grown boys." I said as I gave each a hug.
"Thanks. So where are you going to take us? Mom said that you would take us in Baby." Chris said.
"Oh. I think I'll take you for Ice Cream, If your mother says it's OK with her." I said.
"Yea, Ice Cream. I want Rocky Road." Shane said.
"I want Strawberry." Chris said.
"Hold on. We have to see if your mother will let you have Ice Cream. Have you two been good today?" I asked.
"I have, but Shane didn't pick up his room. So he can't have any." Chris said as he stuck out his tongue at Shane.
"I Think, both of you have better let Wayne go. So I can hug him." a voice said from behind them.
I looked up from the boys and saw Jean standing. She is still as beautiful as when I first meet her. She had brown hair, deep dark blue eyes and fair skin with an hourglass figure. Jean had a huge smile on her face, when our eyes meet I winked and said. "Well, I think you're being to mean. What makes you sure I want a hug from you?"
"Uncle Wayne, don't get her mad. We want Ice cream." Shane whispered.
"Oh, so he is bribing you with Ice Cream I see." Jean said.
"I wouldn't call it a Bribe." I said.
"Boys, I'll let have Ice Cream if you go in right now and clean up your toys; and Shane I want your room cleaned." Jean said in her mother voice.
"Yes, Mother." Both boys said in unison, as they went in to the house.
"Brat, why did you have to tell on me?" Shane said to Chris.
"Because, I don't feel like cleaning your room like I always do." Chris said.
When the boys were out of hearing range I said, "Hope you don't mind that I am going to take them for Ice Cream, Jean. I just wanted to do something special for them."
"No. I don't care. They need it and they've been very good today. Oh, Rex said that he'd be at your house when you get back from taking the boys. He said that he wants to talk to you." Jean said as she reached out and drew me into a hug.
"OK. I should have them back around noon, going to take them to the toy store." I said.
"Don't you dare buy them any more toys." Jean said.
"Would I do that?" I said with a grin.
"Yes, you would. OK, just don't spend that much on them please. Come in for a bit." Jean said returning the grin.
We went into the house and talked for twenty minutes, until the boys were done cleaning up their mess. Then the boys and me left.
After Ice Cream, I took them a toy store and bought them N64 and some games.
"Thank you Uncle Wayne." the boys said together as the each gave me a hug.
"No prob. Think of it as a early birthday present. I would do anything for you two rug rats." I said as I messed up their hair. "OK, time to go. We have to get back, before your Mother and Father call out the Marines." I said
"Sure, can you play with us when we get back?" Shane asked.
"Sure for a bit, but your Father wants to talk to me so I can't play that long, and besides I have to go on a trip."
"Oh, and were are you going?" Chris asked.
"I am going to go see Auntie Terri." I said.
"Oh, I want to go with you. I haven't seen Auntie Terri in so long." Shane said.
"Sorry kiddo, but you can't this time. Don't worry, she'll be coming up here soon. I promise." I said.
We got back to my house. Just as Rex was getting out of his car. l lost my breath as I looked at him. God he still looks great, I thought. Thick black hair, deep green eyes a smile that makes my knees weak, a build that would, make most of the body builders in the muscle magazines jealous. He is taller then me by a couple inches. I'm 5'9" so he must be about 6'1". He turned at the sound of Baby pulling up.
"Wayne!" Rex shouted as I got out.
"Hello, Rex." I said as I go over to him.
Rex pulled me into a hug, then kissed me on the lips. God, his kiss can still make shiver with passion. I pulled away and blushed. Then the boys each came over and jumped on Rex.
"Daddy!" Shane cried.
"Dad, why did you kiss Uncle Wayne?" Chris asked.
"Oh, did he!" Jean said a she came out to see what was going on.
Rex blushed and turns to Jean. Goes over to her takes her in his arms and gives her a long loving kiss.
"Hello honey." Rex said after the kiss.
"Rex, it is not going to work, I am immune to your charms. So why did you kiss Wayne?" Jean said.
"Yes, Rex why?" I asked
"Boys, go play in the back yard for a bit." Jean said.
"Ah, oh dad's in trouble" Shane said, giggling as he and Chris went in the back.
When the boys were far enough away so they couldn't over hear Rex turned to Jean and me.
"I don't know what came over me. I just saw you Wayne and I felt this urge to kiss you, like I use to." Rex said is a small voice.
"Jean, can I talk to Rex alone?" I said as I turned to her.
"Sure. Just leave something for me to sink my teeth into, after you're done." Jean said, I could tell she was pissed.
Jean turned to Rex and Slapped him across the face, then ran back into the house. Rex put his hand to his cheek. He had a shocked look on his face.
"You deserved that. Rex, how could you do that? In front of the boys even. What got in to you?" I said.
"I.... I really don't know." Rex said.
"Bull shit you know. Things aren't the way they used to be. God Rex I can't, I won't let you do this to Jean. Get over it already." I said with anger in my voice.
"Wayne. I love you. I always will love you. I have missed you for this last three weeks, you didn't call you didn't come over. Do you know what you're doing to me?"
"WHAT am I doing to you! Think Rex, what are you doing to Jean?" I yelled.
"Oh, God! Jean, What am I going to do now?" Rex said with tears in his eyes.
"First off, you are going to have to stop thinking like this. I love you Rex, but not like that. I love you like a brother. You had your chance; remember you left me. You don't even know how much you hurt me, if it was not for Mark I don't think I would even have made it." I said.
"I don't want to hear his name. He ruined us." Rex yelled.
I felt my anger and hurt well up from deep down inside me. I slapped Rex across the face and said, "Don't you ever, I mean ever say that to me again. There is no us there will never be an 'us' again. As far a I'm concerned you have just wrote yourself out of my life." I screamed.
"Noooo! Wayne, please I am sorry. I didn't mean it." Rex pleaded.
"Rex, deep down you do. That is what hurts the most. You hate Mark. My Mark. He gave all himself to me and asked for nothing in return, except my love." I said as I started to cry.
I turned and ran into the house and in to my bedroom. I could hear yelling from the living room. Then, after slamming a door behind me, I fell asleep with tears running down my face.
JOSH
Josh was just pulling up to Justin's house, when a sharp pain thrust through his chest. 'Wayne, something has happen to Wayne. I don't know how I know this, but I just do.' Josh thought.
Josh pulled out his cell phone and the piece of paper that Terri wrote Wayne's number on. He was about to call, when Justin jumped into the jeep.
"Hey Josh. Who are you calling?" Justin asked.
"Oh. Hey Justin. No one I just was getting off the phone." Josh said as he put his cell phone back in his jacket. 'I will call later. I don't want Justin hear me talking to Wayne." Josh said to himself.
"Ok, time to get to Lance's. How was your weekend?" Josh asked.
"It was great. Played Basketball with the guys yesterday." Justin said.
"What'd you do?" Justin asked.
"Oh, spent the rest of the weekend with Terri." Josh said.
"Oh, so you're giving up on us for some girl, I'm hurt." Justin said with a grin. "What aren't we good enough for you now?"
"Well, now that you mention it..." Josh said with a laugh.
"Wait tell I tell all the fans about your Girl friend." Justin teased.
"You tell them, and I will have to tell them when you stopped sucking your thumb, and stopped wetting your bed." Josh shot back.
"You are oh so cruel." Justin said with a laugh.
"Hey, Curly you want to drive?" Josh asked.
"You bet!" Justin said.
Josh got out of the jeep, and around to the other side. As Justin slid over to the driver side. When Josh got in Justin peeled off to Lance's house. Josh quickly put on his seat belt.
"Curly! Slow down. I don't want to end up on the side of the road bleeding to death." Josh said.
"Give me a little credit I know how to drive." Justin said as he took a corner a little to sharp.
"Sure you do." Josh said as he held on for dear life.
Once they were in traffic Josh started to relax, Justin slowed down. Justin is really a good driver he just likes to show off when he get to drive. Josh started to think about Wayne and try to figure out why he thinks Wayne is hurting. Josh feel to sleep midway into his thoughts.
Mark, Josh and Wayne
Mark, was waiting for Josh and Wayne to both fall a sleep. He had to fallow the rules of the Spirit world. He could only talk to someone in their dreams, and he could never tell the person what is going to happen to them. Even thou he could see a little in too the future.
Mark was a little worried about Wayne and he hoped that He and Josh could get through to Wayne.
'God Rex. You have terrible timing, Wayne is at his most vulnerable time, and you had to rip apart what I started to heal.' Mark thought.
Mark reach out with his left hand to pulled on a silvery white line that connected him to Wayne. It the bond between two soul mates and he knew it was kept him from passing on to the other side. He felt a pull back from the bond, he knew that Wayne was starting to dream of him.
Mark then reached out his left hand to grab onto a very thin light blue line that he connected to Josh, so that he could get into Josh's dreams. He pulled very gently on the blue line, it was new and fragile. Mark thought he would have more time to make it grow stronger before he had to do what he must.
"Josh, Wayne needs you." Mark whispered as he drew his hands together and let the two lines touch.
Mark felt a rush of spiritual power run from Wayne's line to Josh's. Mark nodded.
"Good. Even hurt Wayne is reaching out to Josh." Mark said out loud.
Mark then let some of his energy flow into the two lines and imaged the hill and willow tree then sent him, Wayne and Josh's dream selves to that place.
Josh found himself sitting under a willow tree on top of a hill, and Wayne laying beside him. He also a figure standing behind Wayne, but he could not see who it was because the light was coming from behind the person. Yet he knew it was Mark.
"Wayne." Josh said in a whisper.
Wayne drew his head up from where it was on the ground. Looked at Josh and said.
"Who are you?"
"May name is Josh. Remember we talked on the phone." Josh said
Josh was not sure if this was a dream or something else, but he hoped it was happening.
Wayne, looked at the person sitting beside him, Black wavy hair, Deep blue eyes, a smile that you just had to return. 'He is really hot.' Wayne thought to himself.
"Oh, so this is how I picture you in my dream. I have a very good imagination, I see." Wayne said with a smile.
Josh. Felt light headed when Wayne smiled at him, his heart started to race. 'Well, that settles that. I am in love.' Josh thought.
"Josh, Listen ask him about Rex." Mark said for Josh's ears only.
Josh jumped. looked up at the figure behind Wayne. The figure put his finger to his lips. Josh new what that meant.
"Wayne can I ask you something?"Josh asked.
"Sure, you have to be my subconscious. Trying to tell me something." Wayne said.
Josh played along. "What happen between you and Rex?"
Wayne got a far away look on his face. Then started to cry. Josh reach out a put his hand on Wayne's hand.
As the two hands touched, there was a spark and a rumble in the sky above them. Josh could have sworn he heard the wind sigh, with approval.
Mark felt a Jolt of energy flash from one line to the other and back. 'Oh, was it like that between me and Wayne?' Mark thought. He looked down at the two lines and stared in shock. There was not two lines anymore there was three, and the were intertwined. One bluish silver, one Deep Bronze, and one Reddish Gold.
Mark. studied the lines. The silver line when to Josh, The Bronze when to Mark and the Gold when to Wayne. 'What does this mean?" Mark asked himself. 'I was not supposed to be connected to them. It was just supposed to be them.'
Wayne, shivered with a feeling of piece, and rightness. When Josh touched him. He also felt Mark closer to him like he was just standing behind him looking over his left shoulder.
Josh, felt a jolt of pure love and wholeness fill him. 'God is this true love?' Josh thought. 'Yes.'
"Rex... He... That stupid jerk! He never liked Mark." Wayne finely said.
"Why do you say that?" Josh asked. As thought started running through his mind. 'Who is Rex? What does he have to do with Wayne and Mark? Is he one of Wayne's past lovers?'
"Well, he is first he kisses me in front of his kids, then he tell's me he doesn't want to hear about Mark." Wayne said as he looked over at Josh.
"So, your mad at Rex because he kissed you?" Josh asked
'I would like to kiss you right now and always.' Josh thought to himself as he looked deep into Wayne's eyes.
"God you are making me face myself. No I'm mad because I like it and didn't want him to stop." Wayne said as he blushed.
Josh felt jealous of Rex, because he made Wayne want him.
"So, you love Rex?" Josh asked.
"No..yes, I don't know. I love him, we went together for two years. I can't say that I don't love him. Do I want him? No, I don't he is a part of my past." Wayne said.
"So you have forgive Rex for saying that about Mark, He was probably hurt when you pulled away. I am assuming you pulled away right?" Josh said hopefully.
"Yes. I pulled away and slapped him across the face to boot." Wayne said with a smile.
Josh was about to say something, when he saw Wayne start to turn ghost like. 'He must be waking up.' Josh thought. When Wayne was fully gone, Josh turned to Mark.
"All right what is going on? Am I dreaming this or is this really happening?" Josh asked, having a feeling he was not going to like the answer.
Mark stepped forward and looked down at Josh.
"Depends on what is real, and what is a Dream. You are and you aren't dreaming. I pulled you and Wayne here so you could help him. I didn't expect you to touch him thou."
"Why? What was that spark and rumble when I touch Wayne." Josh asked.
Mark was about to explain to Josh what it was, at least what he thought it was, but Josh disappeared before he could.
Mark sighed. 'I have to wait and watch them tell they next fall a sleep. What really did happen here? Why is do I have a line now connected to them. I'm dead I shouldn't have a line.' Mark thought to himself.
Mark, tried to see a little into the future to see what will happen now that he is connected with Josh and Wayne.
Mark felt a shiver run down his spine. 'I can't see. I have lost the sight. What have I done?' Mark thought.
Then a saying that Wayne always said when, he was unsure of the out come, came to him.
"FATE HAS YET TO TURN OVER ALL THE CARDS."
To be continued....