Dan and Ben at Sixty-two

Dan and Ben at Sixty-two--Chapter Eleven By Ezra Randle

The following Friday, Gary and Ben were in bed by nine. Ben was heading to his daughter, Annie's, the next day, likely for most the day. "What does she want you to do?"

"She and her husband have a work party so they'll be gone from noon until mid-afternoon. The kids especially wanted me. How could I refuse? She said Marnie might drop over for a short visit when they come back. That would be groundbreaking if she did."

"That's beautiful, boss."

"You haven't called me that for months. I'd almost forgotten about that pet name."

"Do you like it?"

"Actually, I do. Brings back such good memories when we were first getting together."

"Then I'll resume using it. I thought since we were living like partners you'd rather not hear it."

"I love to hear it when it's just you and me."

They were rubbing each other, taking turns feeling each all over their bodies, fingers exploring their chest and back. "You feel so good tonight. We haven't had a good romp for a couple of weeks. I've been so busy I'd forgotten to miss it," Ben said.

"I'm seeing Jerrad tomorrow when you're away. I wanted to tell you in case you had second thoughts."

"I'd forgotten about that. Do you still want to go through with it?"

"He really does, so I guess, I do, too. But we could have him over and he could watch us do the real thing if that would be better for you."

"No. That wouldn't work. He's Danny's son. It wouldn't feel right."

"You're sure you can handle it? Because I'd feel terrible if this came between us."

"It's just a one-time thing still, isn't it?"

"Yes. I've made that clear several times."

"Because, as I've said, he's probably in love with you to some extent. He has to be to suggest it."

"Yes. I think I can manage it. And I've been very honest with him that his age prevents it from being anything more than a one-off."

"What if your age limits change after this? Or even during your lovemaking?"

"Ben, I'm hardwired with the age thing. He's not going to turn me. Besides I'm crazy about you."

Gary kissed Ben, and Ben smiled. "It's good for me to hear that before I go off to Milwaukee. If Marnie shows up, she'll need me to explain why in the world I'm with you. What you've just said pretty much explains it all."

They kissed again. Ben reached down and felt Gary's erection. "I love when you get hard while we kiss in bed. It inspires me. Touch me and see."

Ben felt Gary stroke him gently using their precum as lube. Gary pulled the sheets aside and leaned down to lick Ben's cock, perched on his knees. His ass protruded near Ben's right hand and Ben rubbed his ass cheeks, then slipped inside them to touch his hairy hole. Gary sucked Ben in response. "I want yours, too," Ben said.

Gary stretched on top of Ben so both of them were sucking at the same time. Ben took his cock deep into his throat as Gary licked his balls. "Yes, Gary, please."

Ben licked Gary's balls at the same time. They descended across their taints at the same time, and both were able to lick each other's hole simultaneously. They rimmed each other rapturously. Ben turned Gary onto his belly and continued to rim him. "Fuck me, tonight, Ben."

Gary was on all fours as Ben lubed him. "I cleaned out for you. I need you in me so much."

"I want you, Gary. Touch my cock."

Gary reached back and felt Ben's hardness. His glans was free and ready. As he pushed just a bit, he slid in easily. "My, you're loose tonight."

"I've had a plug in for several hours. I didn't take it out until I got into bed with you."

Ben felt the joy of fucking a man again. He could barely recall what it felt like in a woman. He'd become such a changed man. As he slid in and out and Gary moaned, images of the women he'd had over the years swirled through his head. Most of them were of Ellie, fucking her in this position. It had taken her years to get her to like it this way, but then it became her favorite. He'd lick her into orgasm, then she took him on her hands and knees. She moaned more in this position than any other. Gary interrupted his thoughts. "Let me flip over. I'm getting a cramp."

Gary rolled onto his back and lifted his legs onto Ben's shoulders. Ben slid their fucking pillow under Gary's ass and reinserted his cock. He looked down at his lover who was staring at him with a wonderful grin. His hard cock was flapped on his belly as began to stroke it to the same measure as Ben's thrusts. They both moaned as they brought each other through the stages to orgasm. Gary squeezed Ben's cock rhythmically as he jacked himself. Ben moaned, "Jesus, when you do that, it drives me."

He began pushing his cock deeply. "Tell me if it's too much force, Gary. I'm on fire."

"It's never too much. I can't get enough from you."

"Tell me when. I can't go much longer."

"Pause a minute."

Ben stopped, his cock fully inserted up Gary's ass. "Ben?"

"Yeah?"

"I really love you. It would break my heart completely if something happened to us. So, don't worry about tomorrow. OK, boss?"

Ben smiled at him. He completed three more thrusts and his orgasm took him away. Gary shot over his belly and chest. When Ben rolled off, he licked Gary's chest and kissed him. They didn't get up to shower before they fell into a deep sleep.

Gary had just changed the linens on the bed he and Ben had made love in. Images of their glorious lovemaking scenes from previous night lingered in his head. Their goodbye kiss from an hour ago had been very passionate. Part of him wondered why he had agreed to this stunt with Jerrad. Because, in many ways, it was a stunt...like two teenagers trying things out. But he also rationalized it in a way that seemed very sensible. Jerrad was on the cusp of some discovery. Perhaps he'd try it with him or someone else and never try it again. If he remained interested in men, he wanted Jerrad to be a good lover, passionate and decent at the same time. He considered himself to be such a lover. But he'd been born this way. Jerrod was exploring in a world into which he'd made just a few baby steps.

As Jerrod drove the twenty miles to see Gary, he wondered why he was still proceeding with this silly notion. Why couldn't he just push aside what had happened to him on the sandbar? Not repressing it exactly, but putting it out of reach. He had already come to some extraordinary conclusions in his wildly enjoyable nights with Katrine. He knew he loved sex with her, and, by extension, every woman like her. But then Joel would appear before him. It was confusing. But he had to figure it out. And Gary seemed like the most sensible person he knew to help him sort it.

Gary didn't notice Jerrad pull into the driveway, so when he heard him in the kitchen calling his name, he yelled back to let him know he was on the porch. Jerrad was wearing a blue t-shirt and baggy gym type shorts, with flip-flops that he left behind as he walked out to porch. "Hey, Gary. How are you?"

"Doing well. A better question is how about you?" Gary said.

"I'm ready. I still want to proceed with this. Probably even more than when I first asked you."

"I've been thinking. Would you like to film it? I have a few cameras we could set up. That way you could review it whenever you want."

"I can watch porn anytime. It's about how I feel inside."

"Makes sense. You know this is a one-time thing. That it has to be."

"Yes. I know. It has to be for me, too."

"And you think our friendship will withstand whatever we try?"

"Pretty much. As I told you, I want you to lead me to some things and then let it play out. I trust you very much. Otherwise, I never would have suggested it."

"OK. We're headed upstairs to the bedroom where I sleep with Ben. Not down in my dungeon."

"How come? I was figuring on the downstairs."

"It's a bigger bed. The bathroom is nicer with a big shower."

"Feels a bit weird to be in the bed you share with him."

"I'll changed the sheets after. I put fresh ones on for us earlier."

Gary rose from the rocking chair and approached Jerrad. "If we don't kiss well, I don't want to go any further. Did you kiss the guy at the river?"

"Yes. I enjoyed it. But when we kiss, it might not be the same."

Gary reached his arms out and pulled Jerrad to him. Their faces were only a few inches away. "Ready?" Gary asked.

Their lips touched. Gary closed his eyes to concentrate. Jarred was still open-eyed looking at Gary. "Was that OK?" Jerrad asked.

"It wasn't really the type of kiss I meant," Gary said.

Gary then kissed him again, and Jerrad responded like he might with Katrine. With tongue and some force. Gary stayed with the kiss moaning some and sucking on Jerrad's tongue and lips. They continued for several minutes in this pose. When they were done, Gary reached his hand down to Jerrad's shorts and felt his cock. It was hard which sent Gary into another round of kissing. When he pulled away, he said, "You know how to kiss. Who taught you?"

"I think most of it's a natural thing. But Katrine has made me much better. So, it's kind of recent in a way."

"Nice. Let's go upstairs?"

Jerrad had been on the second floor several times, but they were always brief searches for one thing or another. He followed him into Ben's room. "Let's undress each other as we kiss. Are you OK with that?"

Jerrad nodded. "I hoped we do that. I like doing it with Katrine."

They kissed again and Gary paused. "Maybe I should talk less and just do things that you can repeat when it's your turn?"

"Yeah. I think I have good instincts."

Gary slid his hands under Jerrad's shirt and rubbed his chest and belly. "You like that?"

"Yes. Very much. I think my skin is very reactive all over."

"When did you get chest hair?"

"It started to sprout in late high school with a lot of peach fuzz on my nipples and belly. In college it turned the brown color it is now."

He helped Gary take off the t-shirt and Gary touched Jerrad's chest and belly hair. "I've noticed it quite a bit when we shower at the club. I'm glad you enjoy showering now. That you feel so much more comfortable with your body."

"Yeah. I'm really transformed in that respect. Having other men see me naked has really helped. Do you like my body or is this a matter of mind over matter for you?"

"Yeah. It's like my body or Ben's. You're in the same club as us. Have you always been a bit chubby?"

"Yeah. I can't remember not being so. But I didn't get to what I'd call fat until high school. Then I became really self-conscious and ate too much and it got worse. My high school graduation picture is embarrassing now."

"You'll always be heavy set. But you can be healthy heavy set."

"Like you?"

"I like to think I'm doing OK in that respect. I could always lose more. But Ben and I have a mutual need to control our appetite and work out, so we kind of work on each other. Encouraging each other. Nagging when we need to."

"That's nice."

Jerrad lifted Gary's t-shirt free and rubbed his chest. Gary had a bit more chest and belly hair, and his nipples were a bit larger than his. "Do you look at me in the shower?" Gary asked.

"Yeah. More over the last month. Sometimes I don't hide it very well."

Gary laughed. "I've noticed."

They rubbed each other's chest and nipples. Jerrad reached down to see if Gary was stimulated by it. "Are you fully hard?"

"Mostly. I'm haven't given myself over to the pleasure completely. I'm still working out how I can do this. As an instructor or lover."

Jerrad took the initiative and kissed and licked Gary's nipples. "That OK, sir?"

Gary laughed. "Yeah. Don't worry about me. I'm enjoying this. It's fun talking it through with you."

"Thank you. I'll be saying that a lot through this. But I mean it."

They took turns sucking and nibbling on each other's nipples. Gary reached down again and felt Jerrad's cock through his shorts. "Are you not wearing underwear?"

"I thought it might be sexier if I didn't wear them."

"I'm going to give you a pair, go into the bathroom and put them on. It's fun to play with just underwear on."

Gary dug into the top drawer of the dresser and pulled out a pair of purple boxer briefs. "Go into the bathroom and put them on. I don't want to see you completely naked until later."

"Are these yours or Ben's?"

"Not sure. I keep some clothes up here. Ben and I wear the same size of underwear. We often end up wearing each other's."

"Wow. That is so sexy."

Jerrad came out of the bathroom, the purple waistband showing above his shorts. Gary smiled. "Very nice. They fit nice and snug?"

"Just putting them on got me more aroused."

Gary slipped behind Jerrad and held him from behind. He rubbed his chest and belly, then slid his baggy gym shorts to the floor. Jerrad stepped out of them, and Gary now ran his hands over Jerrad's bulge. His cock was erect and his balls filled out the tight fabric. "You like that, Jerrad?"

"Very much. And I like feeling your bulge behind me."

Jerrad reached behind him and slid Gary's gym shorts off so Gary's erection poked Jerrad at his ass crack. "I've thought about anal sex. What it would be like."

"Just to be clear, Jerrad, that's not on today's menu. Not that you couldn't be tempted, but that's too big of a step. Too intimate."

"I understand. Maybe later you can just tell me what it's like. I assume you and Ben do that."

"Yes. I'd be happy to talk about it later."

"If you want, we can do some ass play. I'd like that," Gary said.

"Me, too."

Gary continued to rub his cock through his underwear across Jerrad's ass cheeks as he kissed Jerrad on the neck. When Jerrad felt Gary's hands begin to slide his borrowed underwear down from his ass, he shuddered. "Wow. That really got me."

Gary continued to pull them down past his ass cheeks and below his knees until Jerrad stepped out of them. Jerrad tugged at Gary's shorts from behind, just enough to free his cock. When he felt Gary's naked cock at his ass, he shuddered again. "Jesus, that's amazing."

"Maybe you're a real assman, Jerrad."

"Don't know, but that sure feels sensational. Very new and sensational."

Jerrad put Gary's cock at his ass crack and Gary pushed it in. Jerrad moaned loudly. "I never knew it could feel that good."

"And I'm not really doing anything yet."

"Feel my cock."

Gary reached around and touched Jerrad's cock. It was wet with precum and extremely rigid. "You do like this, don't you?"

"Maybe I worked myself into a state of extreme anticipation. But I can't believe how good just this little stage feels. I hadn't thought we'd do this part."

"It's my sense that every man has strong sensitivity there. We just have to let ourselves know about it."

Gary continued pushing his cock past Jerrad's hole and through his taint reaching his balls. Jerrad giggled a bit. "I'm laughing because it feels so good. I'm not ticklish there."

"What makes it amusing?"

"Just being here. Never in a million years would I have thought I could. Until recently."

They turned around and Jerrad pulled Gary's underwear off and pressed his cock into Gary's ass cheeks and to his hole. "Wow. You're bigger than I thought. Impressive," Gary said.

"Bigger than Ben?"

"Yeah. Ben and I are much the same size. When we get under the sheets in a minute and I can give yours a full examination, I'll know for sure."

"Dad saw me hard a few days ago."

Gary laughed. "How did that happen?"

After Jerrad explained, Gary laughed again. "I'd heard that Larry and Chip liked hanging out nude, but I didn't know you liked it, too."

"I started doing it soon after I moved in. It was part of my body image reclamation project."

"Does Dan join in?"

"Not so much, but Larry and Chip enjoy seeing me naked. Dad suggested they might be getting off on me."

"Wouldn't be the first time."

"I've overheard them having sex, and I wasn't even trying to listen. They can get a bit loud."

Gary laughed again. "Kudos to them."

Jerrad ran his cock all the way to Gary's balls, sliding back and forth through the hair in his taint. "Dad said the size of my cock is probably from my mom's dad. Dad's seen him hard when they changed at the swimming area up north. He thought Grandpa was trying to impress him. He has a long foreskin and Dad saw him retract it and show off his pick knob."

Gary giggled. "He probably wanted your dad to suck him off."

Jerrad laughed. "That would be a pretty picture."

Jerrad pulled Gary's underwear off. "Do you need to shower, Jerrad?"

"I had a good one just before I left home. You?"

"Just before you arrived."

Gary led him to the bed. They cuddled and kissed under the sheets, both of them aroused. Gary held their cocks together, and Jerrad reached around and felt Gary's ass cheeks, massaging them as he did. "You like that, Gary?"

"Sure. I have erogenous zones all over back there."

"What's your preference, to top or to bottom?"

"I like both. Depends on the mood. But more often than not, Ben and I don't penetrate when we make love. There are a lot of ways men enjoy themselves."

"Has that been your experience with other men, too?"

"Yes. Some don't like to fuck. Some love it more that I need to do it. Ben and I have a good routine. And sometimes we just cuddle and fall asleep. And some nights I sleep alone in the dungeon. To have my own space back again."

"Sounds nice. I'm guessing Ben and Dad were good lovers, too. Given they were friends over the years."

"They still see each on occasion."

"As friends?"

"As lovers, too. I accept it. Their friendship is quite profound. On all levels."

"That doesn't scare you? Or make you jealous?"

"I'm getting better and better at understanding it and accepting it. I just have to pull up my big boy pants."

"Katrine has a boyfriend. They almost got engaged last year."

"Are you jealous?"

"Just a little. I don't really love her. We get along great and have fabulous sex but there's no magic in terms of our deep affection. She doesn't know me that well. Like she doesn't want to. Which I understand."

"Because you're too complicated?"

"No. It's more that then her own life would get confusing. Trying to love two different men. I'm cool with that because I'm not ready to love another woman. Like I thought I did with Sylvia. I was wrong about that, but being in love, or even thinking you're in love can make you do stupid things. Like me thinking I was going to marry Sylvia. Fuck, that would have been a disaster."

"Ben and your dad have a really profound friendship and love. Ben's told me he can love two men the same time, though he wants to be spending his time with me for the most part."

"That's a hard one for me to even think about."

"The world of men loving men can be very different, Jerrad. I never thought I'd be living with a man, establishing a partnership. Until Ben. But that's what he's used to when he's in love. He was married for over twenty-five years and was with Maureen for half a dozen years the second time around. It was easy for him to want to live with me."

"Are you liking it?"

"Very much. He's training me to be a good house mate. But he's got a long history I'll never really be a part of."

Gary kissed him. "Let's make some more love." He reached down and felt Jerrad who was still hard. "I'm impressed that our conversation didn't wilt your hardon."

Jerrad kissed him back. "Teach me some more."

Gary slid down between Jerrad's thick thighs and licked the inside of them for ten minutes, up and down each time just barely touching his balls with the tip of his tongue. Gradually, he licked more and more of his shaved testicles. Jerrad spread his legs as far as they would go exposing his taint. Gary licked there as well. Each time he got closer to Jerrad's ass, Gary increased the intensity of the licking. Jerrad raised his hips and Gary put the fucking pillow under his lower back so his hole was exposed. Gary licked it lightly then increased his desire. The entire area was soaked with his spit as he rose to the balls again. He licked them lightly for ten minutes then slowly rose to Jerrad's beautiful shaft, licking it up and down without taking in the knob. Jerrad had been breathing deeply and moaning through this half hour of pleasuring.

Gary licked the tip just a little before rising again to kiss Jerrad deeply. Jerrad responded with passionate responses. "Do you usually take that much time?"

"Not always. But I wanted to for you. So you might discover places you didn't know about."

"Let me do that to you."

Jerrad slid down and repeated what Gary had just done to him, from his thighs to his anus to his balls. When he reached the tip of his shaft, he paused. "I'd take you now, if you want."

"No, together."

"Can we suck each other at the same time?"

"Yeah. Get on top of me."

Jerrod put his mouth at Gary's cock and balls. He fit well on top and Jerrod's cock and balls were positioned just perfectly at Gary's mouth. "Follow me," Gary said. Gary licked Jerrad's balls again, then down his hairy taint. His fingers reached Jerrad's ass and he squirted lube onto the area. Jerrod did the same with Gary. And soon they were fingering each other and sucking each other's cock. Lightly without any intense pressure, but the feeling was so profound that it felt like a deep sucking. "Wow, I won't last long, Gary."

"Me, either. Will you take my cum and swallow it?"

"Yeah. I want to so bad."

They continued finger fucking as they sucked. Gary's hips were in motion and Jerrad let his do the same. Jerrad moaned loudly with Gary's cock inside his mouth. Jerrad's was deep in Gary's throat. They spurted with many guttural noises. Jerrad pulled off Gary's cock and said,

"That was intense. O, fuck. That was good."

Gary kissed Jerrad's still rigid cock. "Yeah. Very good. You get ten stars from your teacher."

Jerrad swiveled around and pressed his face to Gary's chest. Both of them were breathing heavily. "O, boy, o, fuck. I can see why men like it."

"Just rest. Let me rub your back as you rest against me. Fall asleep if you need to. I probably will."

Thirty minutes later, Gary looked over at Jerrad. "Did you sleep?"

"Not as much as you. Just a short doze."

"I'll bet you're thinking."

"Yeah. Pretty overwhelming. Once the orgasm occurs and the rush is over, thoughts come racing in. Like usual."

"Thoughts like: this was a bad thing?"

"None of that. Maybe it was too good."

Gary laughed. "My intention was not to turn you. You can handle both of your desires. I've known men who have been quite good at it. One of them sleeps in this bed with me."

"But he's not thinking of women these days?"

"Sometimes those thoughts come. But he's become a gay man with beautiful memories of his time with women. Ellie was his first wife. He still loves her. Sometime in his dreams he calls out to her."

"She died of cancer, right?

"Yeah. So, he still has great memories. I'll never try to take those away. And I'm certainly not jealous he has them."

"Gary, you are quite a man. I've been impressed with you from the beginning."

"That's sweet of you."

"Maybe if I were thirty years older, you'd see more potential in me."

Gary kissed him. "Jerrad, I've already told you how much I like you. Now I like you more. I'll never tell anyone besides Ben what happened here today. And I'll tell Ben not to tell your dad. It should be just us knowing this."

"Thanks."

He was rubbing Gary's shoulder and back, and found the tuft of hair at the bottom of his back. He tugged on the hairs and rubbed them at the same time. "That's nice. Very loving. Something you could do after making love. You know, continuing with the affection in that small way. It's very intimate."

Jerrad felt Gary's cock stiffening against him. He was hard too, and he rubbed their cocks together. "Would you do something for me?"

"What is it?"

"Just rub your cock over my hole, like you did before. Spoon me and do that. I want to feel what it's like again. "

"Roll over."

Jerrad's area was still wet from the spit and lube. Gary slid his cock in and out of the area. "What's it like to fuck?"

"You proceed slowly. Sometimes it takes many dates. Sometimes it never happens. You get good and cleaned out if you're the bottom. The top always enters slowly especially if it's a cock like yours. But even mine is big enough to produce lots of discomfort. You protect each other if you need to. Experiment with positions. Treat him like a lover. Always."

"That's nice. Can I slide around by yours for while?"

Gary rolled the other way and Jerrad slid his rigid cock between Gary's cheeks. He let it run toward Gary's balls just as Gary had done to him. Gary reached his hand back and put the tip of Jerrad's cock at his opening. "Come in just an inch or two. Nothing more. I trust you won't force it in."

Jerrad gingerly pushed and retreated a dozen times. "At some point, your bottom will let you know you can push past the sphincters. Your cock will hurt him no matter how much you prepare him. He should probably stretch himself with a thicker than average plug for some hours before hand."

"I'm sure I could read about this stuff online, but it's really nice to hear you talk about it, especially with my cock there."

"Do you want to cum again, sliding around over my hole?"

"Can I?"

"Of course. I'll talk while you do. Like a sex chat date. Let me lube my area some more."

When Jerrad repositioned his cock, he was surprised how wet it was. Sometimes Gary squeezed him with his legs, other times he let Jerrad push all the way to his balls. "Yeah, Jerrad, think of entering my ass. It's ready for you. So wet. So tight you will almost cum from the tightness. You slide in part way, then another few inches. Then stretch that big cock inside me. O, yeah. It's so big. It makes me gasp. Then I adjust and take it so easily. Your big knob feels so good inside me. All the way up in me. When you run it against my prostate, I gasp and leak like crazy. You find a beautiful rhythm and fuck me so nice. Making love to your man."

Jerrad reached around and felt Gary's cock. It was rigid again like his own. "Yeah, Jerrad, fuck me. Make me yours. Leave all your cream in me. O, yeah, o, yeah."

"You're getting me close with that talk."

"Come on, Jerrad, make love to me. Treat me like a man."

Jerrad spurted hard across Gary's hole and into the hairs of his taint. Gary reached down and filled his hand with Jerrad's cum. "On your back, Jerrad."

Gary sat on Jerrad's waist and jacked himself with Jerrad's cum. Harder and harder. Jerrad watched with lusty eyes. "Yeah, Gary, cum, please. All over me. Yeah."

Gary exploded onto Jerrad's chest and onto his face. They both started laughing as Jerrad wiped his face and licked Gary's cum while Gary licked his own cum off of Jerrad's chin.

This time they slept for an hour. When he woke, Jerrad said, "Will Ben be back soon?"

"We're good. We've got a few more hours. We'll shower in a bit and I'll make you lunch."

They rubbed each other as they rested side by side. "For a younger man, you excited me a great deal, Jerrad. I wasn't sure I could mount that obstacle. But this was really good. It'll take a while not to want you again."

"It's going to be really difficult for me."

"Ben said he thought you were probably in love with me. He was worried after something like this. You'd be beside yourself. He knew I'd do something special with you. You'd want more."

"I can prove him wrong."

"Tell me how things go with Katrine next time. I'll be curious."

"About what?"

"If you're back in the saddle with her. Or bewildered. Because what we did here was not some simple suck and run."

"I think I can handle it. Not to dispute what we've done pleasure wise."

"Go shower. I have to make a call."

Gary thought about calling Ben. Instead, he texted him a brief note. "All went well. Jerrad's a happy man. Don't tell Dan anymore. I'm not sure he would understand it all. Let Jerrad tell him. Not us."

He got up and stripped the bed, gathered the dirty sheets into a pile, and made the bed with fresh ones. He was just finishing up by opening the windows to eliminate any smells of man sex when Jerrad came out of the bathroom. Gary smiled and looked up. "Pause there a minute. I want one last look."

Jerrad stood there and turned a circle, modeling his body. "You're very handsome. What do you think you'll do about men? Or will you just forget about it?"

"I have no idea. Seeing Katrine next weekend will be enough for a while. Maybe I'll jack off thinking about today. But I've done that thinking of Joel at the beach. So, nothing new. What do you think has happened to me?"

Gary shrugged his shoulders. "Could be anything."

"Do you think I'm gay with the right person?"

"Probably not. Might be you're bi. Lots of men are without realizing it. You had two great moments. It would be hard for you to just forget about them."

Gary stood just a few feet from him. Jerrad looked at him. "I still want you. Right now."

Jerrad's cock was halfhard. "Getting kind of late. The more we do the harder it will be for you," Gary said.

"Would you text Ben? Ask when he'll be back."

"I just sent him one saying we met and all was good. I'm going to take a shower. Take the sheets down to the laundry room."

Jarred picked up the pile without getting dressed. Gary laughed and let it go. While he was in the shower, Ben texted back saying he was having a good time and would be back by dark. Gary came out of the bathroom, hair wet and picked up his phone and saw the message. What was he going to do? He actually had profoundly affectionate feelings for Jerrad. But he also knew it was a crazy dance he was doing. Jerrad came back in, his cock back to normal size. "I set the sheets on top of the machine."

"Grab your clothes and follow me."

Gary picked up the wet towels and led Jerrad to the laundry room in the basement. He started the towels and sheets in the washer. Then he turned to Jerrad and looked at him. "What?"

"Ben won't be back until later. After seven."

"OK. Is that important?"

"Want to snuggle and talk a while longer in my bed?"

"Yes. Very much."

Gary had put fresh sheets on his bed the day before and they cuddled under them. Gary pulled Jerrad to his chest. "You're a real sweetheart. Let's talk about when we meet down the road. It's cool to hug, but let's not kiss."

"How about in private?"

"Better not. Cause then it will become a thing. Wanting to get each other alone. It can't go that way. You could ask your dad how he handles that with Ben. Might be instructive."

"OK. You know I don't want to jeopardize anything."

"Yes. Let's make sure of that."

"Can I kiss you a bit more now?"

"Yes."

They kissed again, easily and naturally, and it continued to nipple play. "Is this the first or second date we're on now?" Jarred said.

Gary laughed. "Don't be an asshole. But let's play some more."

They kissed again and Gary's phone buzzed with another text. He read it and turned back to Jerrad. "Everything OK?"

"It was Ben. He's coming back soon. Things turned ugly at his daughter's."

"I should get going. Glad I already took a shower."

"Yeah."

Jerrad stood up and reached for his shorts. "Hey, could I take the underwear. As kind of a memento?"

"By all means. Hope you think of today when you wear them."

Jerrad slipped them on followed by his shorts and his t-shirt. "You don't have to see me out. Thanks for having me."

"Just remember what we talked about. I'll call you about working out."

"Please do. I hope we don't lose that."

"We won't."

Gary stood up and hugged Jerrad. "See you, buddy. Keep your head on straight about this stuff," Gary said.

"I'll try."

When Ben walked in the back door, Gary was finishing up grilling a cheese sandwich. "Hey, boss. Can I make you one?"

"Nah. I've eaten too much all day."

"What happened?"

"I'm not completely sure. Even after talking to Annie on the phone most of the way back. Marnie drove up to join us for a while around four. All seemed good. She was the sweet Marnie I've seen so often. We talked about her kids mostly. Nothing unsettling. Had a snack that Annie fixed. After a while, it was just the three of us talking about some good memories of the girls growing up. Benjy ran in and sat on my lap and said, Mom said we can over in a few weeks and spend the night.' Annie told Benjy we can talk it over later and sent Benjy out again. Nate and I want to have a weekend to ourselves in Madison. We thought we could leave the kids with you and Gary for an overnight'."

"Wow, what did you say?" Gary said.

"That it would be great. We'd love to have the kids. I didn't notice any change in Marnie. I wasn't looking at her. But then, out of the blue, Marnie went off. Saying stuff like, How could you, Annie? In our own house? Letting your kids be around that?' I said, Be around what, Marnie?' She looked at me like I was a stranger. You and him. Queers. Living in sin.' Then she looked at Annie and said, You know what they do, Annie?' I wanted to slap her face. I tried to be as gentle and reasonable as I could. We love each other, Marnie. There's nothing wrong with what we do.' She said something like maybe not to you. You're so far gone with your deviancy. I shook my head at her. Maybe it reminded her of being a kid when she misbehaved and I'd stare her down and shake my head in disapproval. Before I could even say anything and throw more gasoline on the fire, Annie stepped in and said, You've got to leave, Marnie. Dad's my guest. You're not going to insult him my house.' To Marnie's credit, she got up and walked out the front door. I ran out to say goodbye, but she was already in her car fastening her seatbelt. I knocked on the car window but she backed out without even a wave."

"I'm so sorry, boss. You didn't deserve any of that."

"The good news is that Annie intends to follow through with the kids."

"I can make a point of being away. Stay at my brother's."

"No. That's the point. Annie and her kids want you here. The kids especially."

"That's very sweet."

Gary rinsed off his plate and put the dirty dishes in the dishwasher. He had just cleaned the counters when Ben came back in from the bathroom. "How about a walk, boss. That usually is a very healing thing for you."

"Yes, let's walk to the park."

Ray was on his knees in his perennial garden next to the sidewalk. "Hey Ray," Gary said.

Ray leaned back against his knees. "I meant to say thanks for the party last weekend. I haven't seen you since."

"It's been a busy week. I didn't see any signs of you and Jack from this past Wednesday."

"His partners taken a turn. We were lucky to see each other at the party. Sorry that we disappeared after a while. We needed to see each other in private."

Ben smiled. "We're very happy our place feels safe to you. Though you probably didn't have to enough time to yourselves."

"It was short but sweet. We talked about what might happen. But nothing conclusive."

"I was over to see Annie and Marnie earlier today."

"Any progress with Marnie?"

"It was OK for a while, but then it turned sour. She can't handle me loving Gary."

"I think about that. If I left Celeste for Jack, which part of me wants to do, at least one of my kids would disown me."

"That's a lot to consider, Ray. We're heading over to the park. See you later."

A block later, Gary said, "Do you really think there's a chance he'd leave Celeste?"

"Nope."

"Are you OK if they continue using our house?"

Ben smiled. "That's the first time I've ever heard you describe the house as `ours'."

"It's still yours, but I sometimes talk about it that way."

"To answer your question about Ray, I'm OK if you are, partner."

"Good. It may be short term anyway if Jack's partner passes on."

As they walked on in silence, enjoying the cool evening, they occasionally let their hands brush against each other. "What did you almost tell Marnie before Annie spoke up?"

"That for the first time in my life, I'm ashamed she's my daughter. Something like that. I know she's drunk on her version of evangelism. But Ellie and I didn't raise her to insult family."

"She'd never forgive you if you said something like that."

"Forgiving me is not likely in any event."

"I hope Annie follows through with the visit."

Ben felt Gary's hand again and this time he grabbed it. "What the fuck, boss."

"I don't care. Don't let go."

They reached the park both of them still emboldened by Ben's touch and sat on a bench. "Hey, how did Jerrad's visit go? You alluded to it in your text, but I wasn't paying much attention."

Gary thought about saying nothing much happened, but he said, "Yeah, he was here for a few hours."

"Want to give me the executive summary?"

"You don't want the details?"

"Not tonight. Maybe some other time when I'm feeling better."

"It was sweet. I reinforced the parameters. That it's a one-time thing and there wouldn't be any fucking. And I reminded him that he couldn't fall for me anymore than he has. You know as friends."

"I think your friendship is likely beyond that anyway. Since he asked you for the lessons to begin with. He loves you but maybe can't say it. When I was eighteen, Danny fell for me and I didn't know it. If he could have, he would have made love to me all the time. I kind of suspected it a little throughout the years."

"That's why you felt emboldened that first time when you seduced him?"

"More or less. All I'm saying is I think Jerrad cares about you in a very special way. Maybe you do about him, too. You don't have that many friends."

"Comparing you and Dan to me and Jerrad is not a good fit. I've been gay since I was a teenager."

"Just saying, Gary. So, don't give me any more details right now. Maybe some night when we're in bed after we've made love, I'll ask you about it."

"Fair enough, boss. But about the other thing you referenced. I do like him, as I've told you. But he's not anywhere close to what you mean to me."

Ben took his hand again as they sat on the bench. "Thank you. That means so much to me right now. I didn't really doubt your love, but my earth has been shaken a bit by the way Marnie talked today. I've heard about families never talking again after some tough event. Irreconcilable differences sort of thing. It feels like that with her. And she was my first. Fuck. Ellie's got to be rolling in her grave."

Gary pressed his hand into Ben's. "I know it's hard for you sometimes. To show the world what you are. Maybe after today, you wish you'd never invited into your home. It would be easier if I just visited but we weren't living together."

Ben looked at him. "If I'm truthful, yes, there are moments. But there are so many more when I'm deliriously happy you live with me. Fuck, Gary, you're almost housebroken."

"Fuck you, boss. I've never been this domestic in my life."

"You get easier and easier to be with every week that goes by. And I think about you all the time. Every day. I don't mean when we're home together. But when I'm on my own. Sometimes it's just who's making dinner tonight. Or what we might do on the weekend. Sometimes it's a teenage lusty thought, like how much I like it when we make love."

"I think about you as well. Almost always it's good. Your quirky lifestyle things are mostly in the past. By the way, you can stop putting the toilet seat down. I pee the same way you do."

Ben laughed. "That's a hard habit to break after living with four females. One day, a few weeks ago, I thought of buying you a ring."

"Like to get married?"

"No. We both know it's not time for that. We've not been through enough shit to warrant an `I do'. The ring would have been just to remind you I care about you."

"Like a simple band on my right hand?"

"Something like that. But then people would ask when they see us. No fair bringing more attention on ourselves. Or maybe it's just on me," Ben said.

"It would be on both of us if we wore rings, but mostly on you."

Ben wrapped his right arm around Gary's shoulder. "The ring thing would be mostly me telling you I don't want you to leave or see other men. The one time with Jerrad is the exception."

"But you see Dan sometimes."

"Yeah. I can't not see him, especially if he's lonely. Our love is very deep. But you and me are getting to be the same thing."

"I know you see him. Sometimes you tell me. Sometimes you don't. It's OK. If I had someone in my past that I felt the same about, you'd have to accept that, too."

"Want to head back?"

They stood but before they took one step back home, Ben pulled Gary into a deep embrace. "Fuck, boss, you're doing it again."

"I know. And I'm going to kiss you, too."

It wasn't just a peck but a deep kiss as they stood in the park. At least ten people were picnicking at the far end. One of them pointed toward Ben and Gary. Ben waved to them as the two of them walked off.

"I don't know, boss. You're getting a little too extreme for me."

They held hands for the mile back home. "After today, I don't care how many people know." As they approached Ray's house, Ben said, "I don't ever want to end up in Ray's predicament."

"You never cease to surprise me."

"Are you too worn out from Jerrad to make love with me?"

"Not at all."

"Good. Brush your hand against my crotch."

Gary discreetly felt Ben's walking shorts. "Nice boner, boss."

"I want you to suck me. And whatever else disgusts Marnie about what we do in bed."

Gary laughed out loud. "That's so naughty. Even Annie wouldn't want to know about that."

They kissed as they stood in the kitchen. Ben lifted Gary's t-shirt off and kissed his hairy chest. Gary unbuttoned Ben's shirt and did the same. "Are we officially chubby guys or heavy-set men in pretty good shape?" Ben said.

"I'd say mostly the latter. Neither one of us has put on much weight since we started getting naked."

"We made that promise to each other and have been pretty good about keeping our word. Have I told you recently how much your body excites me?" Ben said.

"I always like hearing that."

"Did Jerrad like it too?"

"I think so. I don't know for sure what he likes in men. Or if he truly likes it."

They kissed again and Ben pulled Gary's shorts down to the floor. "No underwear. I like that."

Gary's cock was semi-erect. "Watch me," Ben said.

Ben unfastened his walking shorts and pulled them down with his underwear. He was almost completely hard, his glans poking out of his foreskin. "I need to shower first."

When they were in bed, Ben kissed him and Gary sucked his nipples. "OK. I can't stand it any longer. What's his cock like?" Ben said.

Gary laughed. "If I tell you, will you be jealous?"

"No. It will make me more aroused. But let me guess, since he's Dan's kid, he's cut."

"Yep."

"And knowing Danny's size quite intimately, I'd say about our length but thinner."

Gary knelt between Ben's legs. "No. Longer and thicker."

Gary licked his cock until it was fully stiff again. "Wow, a monster cock. Must have been nice to slip that into your mouth. Suck me more as I fantasize about it. I like it when we do that. Like that night you told me about Dolph's cock. The one Danny is licking and eating now."

"Yeah, I was like that. Big in my throat. Like yours is now, Ben. I'm going to suck you dry."

"Yeah, big fucking cock. Cock for men to lick. Feels so good when you lick me and suck me. When I first tasted cock, I thought I'd die. Even if I reacted poorly afterward. But sucking Danny was divine. Tell me about Dolph's big one again."

Gary interrupted his sucking but continued to slide his hand up and down on Ben's cock. "I never suspected he'd be that big. We'd hadn't exchanged pictures on the internet. He was leery of putting his pictures out there. We got into bed with our underwear on. Kissing like crazy. He was a good kisser. I slid down and licked him through his boxer briefs. He got so big. Then, I couldn't stop taking it into my mouth. He was too big for me that day. Can you imagine a cock that's too big?"

"Yeah, suck me some more while I think about that kind of crazy lust. Like I was out of my mind in lust for your cock when I first saw your bulge at work. Some days I'd go out of my way to call you into my office. I wanted to tell you so bad that I wanted to pull your pants off."

"As I've told you, I knew you wanted me. One day I didn't wear underwear. I came into your office and spread my legs as we talked. I made myself get half hard, which didn't take much doing. You looked at me, but you couldn't stop yourself from looking down. This was after you admitted to me you liked men. I wiggled it in my trousers. They were black but you could still see my wet spot."

Ben was jacking himself as Gary talked. "I know you wanted to rip my pants off. I could feel it in your stare. You wanted to open my shirt and lick my tits. Then I pulled my cock out."

"O, god, I remember that day. You were teasing me so much, and we both knew it. I got up and locked my office door. You half unzipped yourself. You half took it out. I got so hard behind my desk, my cock nearly pushed out and busted the pleat in my trousers."

Gary was licking Ben's balls as he continued to jack himself. "I almost told you to go away and do some work. It was lunch time, so most of the staff were away. You said you had to pee. Just saying those words got me harder. I followed you a minute later into the bathroom. You were standing at the urinal. Your pants were undone, and your ass was showing because you mistakenly left your underwear on your dresser that morning. Your massive ass cheeks welcoming me. As I stood at the other urinal, I could see you hard. Too hard to piss. I took mine out. My tip was showing. Gary, lube your finger and put it in."

Gary lifted Ben's ass and slid his finger in. "Yeah, just like that day. I zipped up and went into the family bathroom. The one with the lock. You followed me. We took our shirts off. Then our shoes. Then I pulled your pants off. You were naked except for your socks. My first time seeing you. I was dying from excitement. You did the same to me. We grabbed each other's ass cheeks and squeezed them as we kissed. Crazy, almost violent kissing. It was such a rush. O, god, I'm getting close. Just like that day. When we jacked each other as we kissed. Your finger's on my prostate. Fuck, fuck, that feels so good."

Gary continued with the story. "I knelt and took you. It didn't take much and you shot deep in my throat. After taking it all so there'd be no mess, I kissed you and you knelt and took me. I wanted you so bad, like now. I pushed down into your throat. I shot a big load. I was worried some of it would leak out afterward and show on my pants. You'd thought of that and continued to lick me until it was nearly dry. We got dressed and, as I turned to leave, you pulled me back from the door, and grabbed my ass. You said, `if you ever come into my office again without underwear, I'm going to fire you'."

Ben laughed as he shot onto his chest. "O, god, I get so aroused when we make up stories like that. Come here and kiss me."