Disclaimer: This story contains sex between males. Anything of this story pertaining to this world is just coincidental. If the law in your state forbids you from reading this story then do so at your own risk. I have given you warning and its all on you. This story is purely fiction. I claim full copyrights of this story and no duplication of this story is allowed, without my consent of course.
This story is based of a discontinued story but in no way am I taking credit for that one. Just a story similar to that one. Okay?
Warning it contains abuse, swearing, and other things. BTW I am not for abuse but it is a story. Life is not all about gum drops and rainbows. Even though I do like rainbows.... Hahaha... I'm weird...
How Long is Forever? Hello!
Today was proudest day of my life.
Standing on stage wearing my cap and gown, with my boyfriend Eric in the audience, I had the most sense of pride that I ever had before. My diploma in my hand, declaring me a college graduate, I was ready for the world. The band and audience giving me a boost. I was happy.
All those years of hard work and sweat have finally paid off. Eric called my name out and I smiled, he was smiling at me with pride in his eyes. The whole world revolved around me, for that moment in time.
I wrapped my arms against Eric, my one true love, and smiled. He hugged me back. He was four inches taller than me with black hair and ice blue eyes, ones that I usually fawned over. He was the bad boy I always found myself attracted to. Black jeans, leather jacket and a tough guy attitude. He congratulated me and we took off in my car to my favorite bar to meet the rest of my friends.
While I drove I had a pang of sadness. Wishing my parents, my child hood friends and my best friend Rocky would be here. With me. Over the last two years my relationship with them had disintegrated. Just about the time when my relationship with Eric started. They had a problem with him and I ignored them.
A decision I have never, ever, regretted.
I shook my head, even though they didn't want me. I had someone who did. That was all that mattered. Being wanted by him.
When we entered the bar we made our way to the back corner where my cousin and two friends where waiting for us. Two of my old job friends Rick and Andrea, who I thought had a thing for each other, and my cousin Terry, who was more like a sister.
When we reached the table the I felt the sadness creep into my mind again. Some of my most special people should have been here. But they weren't. They didn't care. I told myself so it wouldn't hurt so much.
Eric grabs my hand gently and sits down on the booth next to me. Wrapping an arm around me, if anyone said anything negative Eric made sure they would not even get a chance to say anything else. I didn't like when he started fights but it made me feel more wanted. He was so good to me and we both knew it. I was nothing compared to him and it made me wonder why he stayed with me. I was just grateful to have someone, much less someone like him.
He was the epitome of coolness and I was not. More of a nerd than anything else. No glasses or anything like that but I was smart. He was really muscular. He had a few problems, but all in all he was really sweet. That was all that mattered to me.
He kisses the tip of my nose making me blush and giggle. I had never really tried to make myself seem manly. Not my type but I wasn't feminine either. Shaggy brown hair that reached a little past my ears. Hazel eyes that let my emotions pass through them easily, making people see my lies. My skin didn't tan well and I knew I wasn't really that attractive.
A fact that I was more aware of since being with Eric. He was made to shine, while I was made to blend into walls. I was an average person, just like the ones you meet on the street.
All of them congratulated me and we ordered a few snacks. "So did you pick a school you are going to work at yet?" Terry leaned in from the other side of the table giving me all her attention. I mentally thanked her for taking me out of my depressing thoughts.
"I'm going to go work for Gibson." I feel Eric's arm around me tighten. Almost to the point of me yelping out in pain. He wanted me to work at Madison because they would give me a higher salary. We needed the money more so now that he didn't have a job.
"Actually he is going to work at Madison," He chuckled but his grip was still tight.
A few minutes pass in silence. Rick and Andrea both looked over at the TV on the side and ignore the situation. Terry was scowling, looking at me then at Eric like she wanted to say something. The food came and she shut her mouth. Something I was grateful for. Depending on what she said I might not talk to her anymore like the rest of them...
We leave the bar around midnight. I hug Terry, promising to call her later about the job. Andrea and Rick both say their goodbyes holding hands making my suspicions of them together more solid. Eric was wasted, drinking too much. I drove us home.
I gasp out a breath, tears streaking down my face. Eric takes a look at me and loosens his grip on my throat. "I'm so sorry baby..." He hugs me and rubs my back. "Please don't leave me."
Like I ever would. I noticed his worried face, even being covered with my tears. I hold him tight, not wanting to let go.
"I love you so much.... I don't wanna hurt you.... Please know that I don't..." He took my face into his hands and leaned in to kiss me. I ignored the pain on my neck. "Please Casey know that I love you."
I nodded, feeling the tears streak down from my face. He loved me. The only one that really loved me. After all it was all my fault. I made him hurt me. Made him angry.
I should have listened to him and chosen Madison. We did need it. Each time he hurts me its because I'm the one who hurt him. He smiled down at me and I smiled back.
He took me by the hand and led me to our bed. He took off our clothes and we snuggled next to each other. His chest to my back and his lips to my neck. His hand wandered to my crotch but didn't touch it just above it. We hadn't made love in a few weeks. I wanted him but I knew shouldn't want anything from him. He gave me enough already.
"Next time baby..." He kissed my neck again, feeling my arousal. We both feel asleep.
When I woke up I noticed that Eric wasn't there. That was getting to be normal now. Him leaving early in the morning without explanation. It made me feel unwanted but I knew that was just in my head. I looked over at my reflection and frowned.
I had a few bruises on my throat. I took a quick shower and got rid of a little tension. It was the only relief I got, touching myself. Putting in my fingers in myself imagining it was Eric. I needed it so bad, not just sex but the touching. Him and me being together.
Well.... it would have been longer but I wanted to start the teaching job next chapter. This is just a way to show you a glimpse of what is to come. I will not go much into detail about the abuse. Not something I want to write or think about, just knowing it happens in real life is enough for me. You met the main character and have seen what his life is for right now. This is my second story so I hope it goes well just like Loving You.
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