DISCLAIMER: The song is "I Will Always Love You" written by Dolly Parton I don't know Nsync or know if they are gay or not. This is FICTION and is NOT real. I'm not implying that nsync or any of it's members are homosexual By this story. also do NOT own nsync or the song. You know the "age" rule. This story is going to gt NC-17 so pay heed!
I Will Always Love You Prologue By: Candy (Angelusette@webtv.net or CnYsN@webtv.net)
If I should stay >i would only be in your way >So I'll go but I know >I'll think of you >Every step of the way
Dani sighed as she reached out to hold someone who was never truly hers. She loved him so much. She would DIE for him. Anything and everything for his happiness, even if that meant leaving.
And I will always love you >I will always love you
She let her hands run through his hair as she though about all her love for him had withstood. The tours, the fans, the truths and lies. But his love was someone else's, even if he didn't know it yet.
Bittersweet memories, >That is all I'm taking with me.
As long as she was with him, he could never be truly happy. He would never admit that she wasn't the one he loved.
So goodbye, please don't cry. >We both know I'm not what you need.
She let go of him, for the first and last time. As she got dressed, she purposely put on one of his shirts. Just one, thing that's all she wanted.
And I will always love you. >I will always love you.
Before she left, she watched him sleep. The only time his face was ever calm. God, she loved him. That was why she was doing this to herself- for him.
I hope life treats you kind >And I hope you have >all you've dreamed of.
She placed the note she had written 3 months ago beside his bed. "I love you , Chris. That's why this must be done."
And I wish you joy >And happiness >but above all this, I wish you love.
She placed a soft, quick kiss on his forehead and swiftly walked out on everything she loved. Refusing to look back. Refusing to cry.
And I will always love you.
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CHAPTER ONE
Chris staired at blankly at the wall. She had left him. She left him because she LOVED him.
"I don't know what to do, Lance. She is gone." When Chris woke up and found the letter, the first thing he did was call Lance.
They didn't get a long AT ALL. Lance was stubborn, set in his ways, and calm. Chris.... wasn't. But they were still friends and whenever they needed each other, the other was there in a heartbeat.
Chris also called Lance because Lance wouldn't try and joke him into a better mood. He REALLY didn't wanna hear any jokes now.
Lace was dumbfounded. He though that they had a relationship that could withstand ANYTHING but then he would look down at the words that told him otherwise.
Dear Chris,
First off, you have to know I DO love you. That's why I'm doing this. That's also why this is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. You are my everything. I love you more than life, more than you will ever know. That's why I have to do this. It's time to let you go.
Chris, this may come as a surprise to you but you don't love me. You love him. As long as I am here , you will never admit it to yourself, much less him. I care about you and your happiness means the world to me. That's why I will not cry.
You may not know who "he" is, but you will but you will. I've seen the way you look at him, in a way you never have looked at me.
I'm so sorry Chris but this is the best for you. One day, I swear, You wil thank m for this. Remember something tho, I will always love you.
Dani
Lance folded the letter back and sat down next to Chris. "I'm confused."
"Me, too." Chris agreed "And she is right. I don't have the slightest clue who 'he' is."
Lance was about to say something but a loud beep interrupted him. Lance looked at his watch. "I'm so sorry, Chris, but I got a meeting I gotta go to. If you need anything at all, call, okay?"
"Okay." Chris watched as Lance waled out of the room.
"WHO THE HELL IS 'HE'!?!?!" Chris yelled as let himself fall back on the bed.
Chris shifted on his bunk. It had been 3 weeks since Dani left him. 3 weeks and not one tear had fallen.
He kept telling himself that it was because he wasn't letting himself cry, but the truth was, he was still trying to figure out who "he" is.
Chris never thought of himself as "gay". Sure he found men attractive, but he had never been "in love" with one.
He though being gay meant you were in love with the same sex. So he thought of himself as straight.
Until Lance asked if he had ever been in love with a woman.
That blew that opinion out of the water.
"Are you sure she didn't misspell 'she'?"
"Give it up Joey!" Came Justin's voice.
"Guys, PLEASE, just let me SLEEP!!!!!" Chris rolled over and placed a pillow over his head. He prayed for 5 minuets of sleep.
START DREAM
"I love you." Chris heard his own voice say.
"God, Chris, I love you too." The voice came in such a whisper that he almost missed it.
Chris felt like his eyes were open yet he couldn't see anything. He wanted to reach out and touch the owner of the voice, but he couldn't move, or maybe he was moving and he couldn't tell.
"Who are you?" The question was asked by Chris's voice, yet he couldn't remember saying anything.
"You know." Yet another whisper.
Chris wanted to speak, but lips quickly silenced him by touching his.
"I love you, Chris."
Chris waited a second, or maybe an hour, before he answered.
"I love you, Justin."
"I'm not Justin."
Suddenly, Chris's vision came back, only to see a hurt Dani's face. "I'm so sorry..." Chris was surprised at his monotoned voice, but her face softened anyways.
"It's okay, Chris. It's what's best for you."
END DREAM
"Joey, Shut up." Justin said, trying his hardest not to yell. "Let Chris sleep."
Joey laughed as he popped another gumdrop in his mouth. "I'm sorry, I think its funny."
"How is it funny?"
Joey looked at Lance. "He is in love, but he doesn't know with who."
"Okay now I'm into this conversation." JC rolled out of his bunk and walked into the "living room" area of the tour bus. "Joey, leave Chris alone. I'm sure you have never been confused about who you love." The last comment came out sarcastic.
"Nope." Came Joey's short, quick reply.
"Yeah, right." Justin said standing up. "I got two words for you, Tiffany and Jennifer."
Joey shrugged, "They were twins."
........................ End Part 1
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