DISCLAIMER: I don't know Nsync or know if they are gay or not. This is FICTION and is NOT real.
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PART TWO
Justin let the cool water run over his skin.
To day was going to be the day. He was going to tell Chris the whole truth.
"Chris, I'm gay."
Okay, that wasn't going to do it.
"Chris, I don't find girls.. women attractive. I like me."
Okay that was better, but still not it.
Next on the list.
"I'm in love with one of the guys."
Yep that's it!
"Chris, your the one I love."
Justin quickly turned off the water.
He had to do this.. now. He was thisclose to losing it and running home to his nice warm bed. But he wasn't about to let all the courage he had built up over the past 3 years get thrown out the door. No he was going to do this.
3 years. God, that felt like forever. 3 years of lonely nights, praying that how he felt wasn't wrong. Praying all these prayers weren't just futile attempts of a lonely boy wishing for the love of anyone.
He had to do this. He had to know. He had to see if this was really real or not. Was this real or just another daydream.
All the times he saw Chris looking at him, were they real or just his heart playing tricks on him to make him feel better.
The time has come to find out.
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Chris heard a knock on his door just as he turned off the playstation.
"Come in."
Chris looked up to see justin come in the room.
"Whats up man?"
"Nothing, everything... well... you... we need to talk...... Or maybe..... I just needed to or...... even wanted to." Chris walked over to the man. H could tell that Justin was serious and scared by the studder.
"What's u man, you know you can tell me anything."
"Not this..." Justin sighed. "But I have, too." Any speech Justin had planed, any words he had to say, left him the moment his eyes met Chris's. The words he wanted to say couldn't be said. suddenly they felt like they could never compare to what he truly meant. What he felt could never be put in words. Only in actions.
Chris wasn't sure how long he had been starring at Justin, it could have been hours or seconds or even years. It didn't seem to matter. Looking into Justin eyes lit a flame in Chris's soul that he thought had died, so long ago that it had never stated.
There were so many words he waned to say, questions to ask, but all the words he knew couldn't come together to say anything coherent.
Justin felt lips touch his, lighting a passion that only the other man could fuel.
Time stood still. Every clock stopped ticking. Every man stopped moving. The world existed only because the willed it.
Justin sighed into the kiss, allowing Chris to kiss him deeper as Chris's hand slipped into Justin's hair.
[What am I doing?] Justin abruptly pulled back. [He isn't thinking of me.]
"Oh god, Chris... I'm so... so... sorry. I didn't..." Justin tried to pull from Chris arms but he had a firm grip.
"Justin, No." Chris said before his lips came crashing on the other man's.
They could have been kissing, exploring each others mouths for years, but they didn't care. Everything that had happened in their lives - the heartbreaks and lonely nights- were building up to this one moment of bliss.
Suddenly a sound came into their universe.
"Awwwwwwwwww." The two parted in time to see Lance clamp a hand over his own mouth.
"Oh,... I'm sorry.." A thin red creped over his face. "I was just looking for JC..... and.. I..." Lance smiled. "Aww!! You are the cutest thing since J...... God, your are CUTE!"
Chris looked at Justin. "Your 'prolly right."
"Damn straight. I KNOW I'm right. I'm NEVER wrong!!!" Lance continued to smile as he left the room.
"Shy one my ass. That ego rivals JC's."
"That's true."
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