Inadequate Men
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Chapter 15 -- A Decision
For a moment, Jared felt gut punched. What Tom was suggesting seemed to be a million light years from the house with the white picket fence. He felt threatened that Tom could even be suggesting asking a third guy to join them for... whatever.
But he trusted Tom enough to put aside his initial fear and simply ask, "What do you want?"
Tom told him, "I want whatever's right for us."
"Me too," said Jared. There was a long pause, and he tried to get in touch with what he was feeling. Finally, feeling sure of himself now, he said, "I don't want to mess up what we've got, Tom. But at the same time, I feel so comfortable with you that I don't think we could mess it up. Does that make sense?"
"Completely," said Tom. "Whichever way we go on this, I feel like we can't make a mistake." He added, "I guess I'm saying I really trust you, Jared."
Jared felt his heart break open at those words. He said, "I really trust you, too, Tom. More than that. I really care about you, my Pal. I want you to know that."
"Me too, Buddy," Tom said simply. "Very much."
Jared said, "So.... Have you ever been with two guys at the same time?"
"No, but I've thought about it," admitted Tom. "To be honest, I'm always so worried about ejaculating prematurely in front of one guy, I didn't want to have it happen with two guys."
"Yeah, I hear that," said Jared. "It's difficult enough having a smaller penis, without having the smallest one."
Tom said, "Damn, it feels good to be able to talk about this with you, Buddy."
"Me too, Pal," Jared said, "This is embarrassing, but right now, even though I'm really turned on, my penis is really soft and small."
"Oh, man," said Tom, "That's so hot, Buddy. You know I love it like that. You never have to worry -- hard, soft, or semi is totally OK."
"That feels good to hear, Pal," said Jared, "I keep thinking, if that kid Sean were with us, he'd probably be bigger than both of us."
"Yeah," Tom said, "That's hot, thinking about that."
Jared continued, "He'd probably start out thinking that we're two older guys, so we're probably bigger and more confident..."
Tom picked up the fantasy, "Yeah, and then when we get our clothes off, he'll see for the first time how small we both are compared to him."
"For sure," Jared added. "Imagine if I put my small soft dick right up against his big hard one. He'd probably think I was built more like a boy than a man down there."
"Yeah," Tom said, "Even if he's just average size, he'd probably feel really proud of his big one, especially in front of two small-penis guys like us." He went on, "I keep thinking how embarrassing it would be if I were lying on the bed between you and him, with all the focus on me, and I started to feel like I was going to have a premature ejaculation. What if I couldn't hold it in?"
Jared's heart skipped a beat when Tom said that, and he said, "Yeah, Pal, that would be really embarrassing, wouldn't it?" At the same time, Jared instinctively reached for the lube on his night table. He pulled down his white briefs and rubbed a good amount on his penis with his thumb and forefinger. Even though he was tremendously turned on, and Jared knew from earlier in the evening that he would be ready to cum soon enough, at the moment his penis was tiny -- no bigger than when he stepped into that shower room for the first time in ninth grade. The feeling was embarrassing and erotic at the same time, as he took his soft penis between thumb and forefinger, just like a boy would do, and began squeezing it between the short, limp shaft and the tiny head. And he asked Tom, "Hey, Pal, is that kind of starting to happen now?"
Jared could feel his partner's reluctance as Tom admitted slowly and with a hint of deep shame, "Yeah. I can feel it starting to happen again. I'm starting to get so close that I don't know how much longer I can hold it."
At those words, Jared little penis started to stiffen. He could hear Tom's struggle and said, "Damn, Pal, sounds like you're getting close. Are you worried the same thing might happen in front of Sean?"
"Yeah," said Tom, "Especially if I were in the middle, between you guys. There would be no hiding."
"Yeah," Jared agreed, "You'd be totally exposed in front of Sean."
"I know," Tom said, "I keep thinking about what would happen if I were in between you guys, with my arms around you both. I would feel so out of control. Sean would be rubbing my dick, but I wouldn't be able to push his hand away if I started to get close. I'd want him to slow down so I could last longer, but I would feel too ashamed to ask, because a guy my age should be able to hold it in and not squirt like a boy on his first time out. But I wouldn't be able to say anything, I'd have to just try to be a man and hold it in."
Jared's penis was fully erect now as Tom talked about his embarrassment about not being enough of a man. He asked, "What would you be thinking as this was happening?"
Tom steeled himself up and said, "At first, I'm trying to squirm out of the way of his hand, to try to get less stimulation. But no matter what I do, his hand is still rubbing my dick and he just won't stop. I desperately need him to go slower, but I know I just need to man up and control myself. Please, God, don't let me have a premature ejaculation in front of him. I'm trying so hard to hold it in. But if he keeps stroking me like that.... I don't know how much longer... I'm trying so hard... please don't let it happen again... I'm so close... I can't ... I can't hold it... I can't hold it... I'm cumming... Uuuhhhhhhhhhh..."
Jared was with Tom every second of the way, his dick growing more and more erect with every stroke. He could feel how hard Tom was struggling to measure up to being the man he wanted to be, and in his own way he felt the same. As he heard Tom begin to lose control, Jared could feel himself starting to get close, and said, "Me too... I'm gonna shoot... I'm cumming.... I'm cumming..."
It took a long time before either man was ready to stir. When they did, it was simply to say good night to each other after a long, good day.
And as Jared wiped himself off with a towel and then drifted off asleep, his mind swirled around all of the guys that had occupied that day: Tom, of course. Kyle and Ben. LacrosseBoySean...
And for some reason, he thought of Luke, his old friend from childhood.
To be continued...
Thanks for reading! Just know that if you're a guy with a small penis, a guy who cums quickly, or a guy who is slow to get hard, you're not alone. And if you've thought about writing, please do: judestjude2357@gmail.com. I promise to do my best to answer, especially if you're feeling alone with no one to talk to about this stuff. Thanks again, TJ