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"It Has Always Been You" Chapter 36 - In The Night (Nifty/Gay/Highschool)
The night had finally arrived and Mikael without much enthusiasm decided to go out of the house and be at the club. Not so much of seeing Drake or Nick or anyone. He just wants to let his hair down, matter of speaking, and to forget everything that had happened during the day between him, Drake and Nick. How dare for Drake to come back to see him and deliberately cause him to remember of the imminent situation Nick was with Amy. Stirring his emotion chaotically all over the place. He had somehow brought back the pain in Mikael heart.
All the while Mikael felt contented with the way he and Nick had gone through and not so much for rushing Nick to take any drastic action, on Amy. Nick needed time and he was giving Nick all the time he wanted. But to uncompromisingly forthright way shot in the face by Drake, had somehow struck a chord in his nerve. Drake had made Mikael realized that he's not totally having Nick in his life ever.
For now, Mikael just needed a distraction, so that he could avoid himself from being sad and angry at Nick. After Drake left that morning, he had reacted to distance himself from Nick as much as possible as he suddenly felt unease with awkwardness being around Nick. At once Nick was quick to notice the change of mood from Mikael. He tried to ask Mikael what was wrong, but all he got from Mikael was a shrugged off the shoulder and a crestfallen looking face.
Back at the apartment, Nick felt wretchedly unhappy about the way Mikael was reacting to him. He knew what had made Mikael to behave that way and he blamed it on Drake. That night, Nick sat morosely contemplating about going out to the club as he preferably wanted to spend his time with Mikael otherwise, together at Mikael house. Even so, he did not liken the idea of having Amy to tag along with them, but Mikael had insisted for him to ask Amy to come along. He only did it for the sake of him and Mikael got to be close with each other and together enjoyed the night with boozing and dancing throughout with the music played by the guest disc jockey for the night, Mikael ex-boyfriend, Drake. Nick knew how good Drake was at being a disc jockey and as much as Mikael said he wanted to support Drake, Nick was not to enthusiast about its real meaning.
Nick probably knew what was going on, Mikael had felt bothered with what Drake had said about him still being attached to Amy as her boyfriend. He did feel stupid, ever trying to love the both of them at the same time and to give equal attention as much as possible. But in his heart, the love that he had been more inclined towards Mikael, and much less to Amy. Over the course of time of being with Mikael, after all the commotion and an argument he had with Mikael, Nick had come to terms that he had fallen deeply in love with Mikael. He had finally able to open up his heart to love the one and only guy, Mikael.
As much as he wanted to be honest and direct, but he was afraid if he told Mikael of his feelings about loving both Amy and him, he might be hurting Mikael ever so fragile heart again. The closeness he had with Mikael was so tight and all the moment spent with Mikael had been magical and he did not want it to end. He began to feel so much love and elated to know that Mikael had loved him all this while. And the time of him being away from Mikael, he felt the void in his heart and been missing Mikael dearly
Before Mikael, he had never ever thought of having any sexual feeling or be making love with other guys even if it was just for experimental purposes. It's the truth, the very first time he had sex with Mikael, it was more out of jealousy towards the relationship that Drake and Mikael had. The anger and the thought of him losing Mikael, that was ever-growing in his heart and mind, made him to do drastic things. But after a couple more times doing it with Mikael, he had a change of heart and liked it so much. He was somehow drawn to Mikael so dearly and he would not want to be away from Mikael ever. The thought of ever to hurt Mikael was long gone from his mind and he wanted to make it right this time.
His mind was generating ideas of what can he do to ever convince Mikael that he truly and wholeheartedly in love Mikael. He had to decide on doing something as soon as possible, before they began to further fall apart. Mikael was so precious to him now, much more than the way Amy was to him. He quickly looked for his hand phone, then he dialed a number and waited. It rings a few times before it was answered by the person on the other line.
"Hello Nick? Is it time for you to pick me up?" The voice from the other side sounded cheery and happy. He rolled his eyes even though he knew the other person would not able to see him.
"No, not really, but I need a favor from you," Nick voice went low when he was talking on the phone. Sounded a bit intimidated with whatever that was on his mind.
"Oh. Okay. What can I do for you Nick?" Instantly the other person voice sounded depressed.
"Well, is it possible if we could meet at the club instead of me picking you up? You see, I kind of have something that needs doing first and I will meet you there." Nick was hoping for the other person agreed to his suggestion and not be a fuss about it.
"Oh, it's okay, Nick. So shall I wait for you at the entrance?" Surprisingly the other person agreed with him. Nick began to smile and felt relief.
"No, No. You just goes directly inside and try to get for us a seat before we, I mean, I arrive," Nick nearly made a slip up of words but he managed to recover it back instantly.
"Sure, I will do that. Hope everything is alright with you Nick and please do not be long, as you know I do not like waiting." Whatever, Nick said to his own self. He could not care less for how Amy feels, as long it's done with the problem solved.
"Thank you so much Amy. That will be great." Nick immediately disconnected the call without ever saying goodbye to Amy. Now, he got a mission to do and he better be fast and miss everything. He quickly got himself dressed up ever so smartly and prop himself handsomely with tight black jeans and a blue colored top that had a low V-neck line. He completed his looks, with a dashed off his favorite cologne Davidoff Cool Water, someone significant favorite scent. He gelled his hair and styled it in the way he wanted it to form and after a last look of himself in the long mirror, hanging beside his dressing table, put on his black socks and black colored Vans sneakers, not forgetting his black leather coat hanging on the coat rack to complete his look as he then left his apartment and headed to his intended destination.
Mikael himself finished his long refreshing shower and assured that he was thoroughly cleaned, he dried himself with a big fluffy towel and making sure every patched of his skin on his body dried of the water droplets. He was not in a hurry as he already knew by the time Drake will be spinning at the club. Tonight he wanted to dress up sexy, not that he intended to impress anyone. He just wants to look handsomely good. He knew he had the packaged of being a good-looking guy, but he would not be vain enough to flaunt his gayness to everyone. He knew that there still people out there who were not into the gay world. He decided to go and to enjoy himself with lots of booze and dancing and stress free.
For the night at the club, he decided to wear a skinny black denim jean with a cobalt blue flannel shirt that was tight enough to insinuate his toned body and showing off his perfect sculptured stomach. Not forgetting his skinny jeans was lifting up his perfect bubble bottom. He knew he was able to carry himself proudly as he is a sexy guy and he was going to get noticed by all the guys at the club. He took one last look at himself from the long mirror by his bedroom door and felt satisfied with what he had done to himself.
As Mikael was about to open the main door of the house, he heard a knock coming from the other side. He did not wonder much and slowly turned the door knob to open the door slowly. When the door was fully opened, he's surprised to see Nick, who had propelled himself forward and grabbed hold of Mikael for a tight hug and was kissing him forcefully on the lips. Mikael was shell-shocked and was just standing still at the doorway. As dumbfounded as he was, slowly yet surely he reached out his hand around Nick's back and pulled Nick closer to him. The kiss subsided and became more gentle, yet still as passionate as it was a while ago. After reluctantly they parted from each other, Mikael was appalled to see streaked with tears had run down Nick's cheeks. Without much hesitation, Mikael reached up his hand and wipe away Nick's tear with his thumb.
"Nick, what's wrong and why are you crying." Mikael was trying to calm Nick down by caressing Nick face.
"Mikael, please do not hate me and pushed me away. Please believe me Mikael, I do really love you so much." Nick pushed Mikael back into the house and by using the ball of his right foot, he kicked the door close.
"What are you trying to say Nick? Are you messing with my head now?" Mikael slowly was getting annoyed with Nick.
" No, I am not Mikael. I knew you were avoiding me just after Drake left your house this morning. I had to wonder why and when I finally got to realize that you were so affected with what Drake had said about Amy and me still being together." Nick was trying to get Mikael attention and sure he did get it hard.
"You better believe it Nick. I am totally effected by what was said by Drake. He makes me realize how stupid I am to love you wholeheartedly when you, yourself, was not even committed to be with me." Mikael was sure furious by now.
" I am sorry Mikael. It is all my fault to make you feel this way. I was not sure if what I ever did have somehow hurt you. It finally dawned on me that I need you more than you ever needed me. " Nick was ashamed to even look Mikael in the eyes while he talked. "I love you Mikael, I really do. Please believe me."
"I tried Nick, I really do. But what I get from you is nothing. Now I feel so shameful as I was beginning to feel like a fuck buddy than someone that is love by you. You've hurt me more now than you ever know. And it takes for Drake to make me realize whom am I in your eyes." Mikael was bawling with tears and feeling anguished. " I am just a fuck buddy, where you just come around when you needed to get your nuts off and after that I meant nothing to you."
" You meant everything to me Mikael." Nick was whispering when he replied to Mikael.
"Am I Nick? How can I be, believing in you when you had done nothing to what should have been done a long time ago." Mikael could not believe that all of this was actually coming out of him. " I thought that I had you all this while. But by the fact I was not even close of having you Nick."
"You had me Mikael. You had me." Nick lifts up his face to look at Mikael directly at his hurtful eyes. "This is all so new to me Mikael. I do not know what to do in loving you. I never thought in my life I will be in love with a guy and when I had Amy, I thought my world was complete and then you confess to me of your love. How am I suppose to react to that Mikael?" Nick continues. "Yet now, my heart is aching to see you hurting. I know now then I did before, that I am in love with you, Mikael." Nick took a deep breath. "I really do."
"All of this is about you, is not it Nick? Do you know how did I suffer every day with all the names calling, the badgering and with others saying I am just a piece of trash? " Mikael had raised his voice." You did show me how you feel, you did Nick. That is, when you knock me couple of shades, and I am always going to remember that day."
" Please Mikael, I did not mean to hurt you. I was just shocked and confused with what was happening. I make a stupid mistake to succumb to the taunting from the rest of the people, especially that one guy." Nick tried to explain. "That will never happen again. I was wrong, totally wrong."
" I do love you Nick, really do and I have said it many times before." Mikael was so disheartened with the situation Nick and he was having now. "But I do not want to be a fool and to keep on hoping that you, will one day be in love with me for real. I know that will not happen in a short notice. But Nick, I....."
Nick surprised Mikael with his reaction when he suddenly moved forward a step closer and hug Mikael ever so tightly and closer to his body.
With a gentle whispering voice, Nick conveyed his words into Mikael ears, " I promise you Mikael, that I am going to do my part." Nick felt the warmth when Mikael pulled him closer to Mikael body. "Please do not push me away and promise me that you will always love me as much as I am going to love you back Mikael. I need you more than you have ever known." Nick was sobbing hard on the nape of Mikael neck and without him realizing it, he had a wet Mikael shirt collar.
Mikael slowly parted from Nick but before giving Nick a deep kissed as passionate as possible. That night they took a moment to hold on to each other and to embrace each other presence in each other life.
" Nick, I had loved you since the very first day we have met at the school office. My love for you is genuinely always in my heart and it will never fade. But I do not want to keep on hurting from loving you. I might need to move on if it keeps on happening." Mikael was confessing to Nick.
" I will not hurt you ever again Mikael. I promise you." Nick kissed Mikael on his lips longer than it intended to be. "I am the one that you get to ever love and I am going to love you as much as you love me. As you are the one and only for me, Mikael."
They parted and made their way to the club to enjoy the night being together and to have this lingering feeling of love for one another. Mikael resigned to his constant longing for affection from Nick. He had tried to banish from his head all the thoughts of romance from Nick. But the more he tried, he failed it miserably.
Will they ever get to be happy? Only time will tell.
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