Legal Disclaimer: This story is a total and complete work of fiction. It is nothing but a fantasy I have. It is not intended to imply anything about the sexuality of any of the people written about. In particular Kevin Richardson or Dowie D., of the Backstreet Boys, or any other celebrities mentioned. If homosexual acts between 2 males disturbs you or if you are under 18 or this material is illegal in your city, state, or country then you need to leave.
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AUTHORS NOTES I hope everyone is enjoying this so far. I know that there hasn't been any sex yet, but I want them to get to know each other before they jump in the sack. So just be patient, it will happen. I promise. Also, be on the look out for a special surprise in part 10.
KEVIN & JORDAN
PART 5
As I got into the elevator, I couldn't believe what I had done. I had just kissed Kevin. What was I thinking? How could I do that? I knew what both Brian and Howie had said to me but, I still didn't know how Kevin felt. Neither of them had come out and said that Kevin was gay, but they came close. Just the fact that Howie had told me he was gay was shocking enough. But how did Kevin feel about me?
Once I reached my room, I went in and sat on the bed and lit a cigarette, not sure what to do. My mind was racing with everything that had happened to me that day. From having the Backstreet Boys sing to me for my birthday, to kissing Kevin like I did. I put the barely smoked cigarette out and laid down.
The next thing I know, the phone was ringing. I looked at the clock. 6:30. I guess I had fallen asleep. I reached over and grabbed the phone.
"Hello?"
"Jordan, you ok?" a voice said.
It dawned on me who it was.
"Yeah, Sarah. I'm fine. I just woke up," I said.
"Oh...sorry. Well, anyway, how was lunch?" she asked.
"Don't worry about it. I had to get up anyhow. Lunch was good. Interesting. But good," I said.
"What do you mean interesting? What happened? Tell me!" she exclaimed.
"Let's just say that things didn't exactly go like I thought they would," I told her. I proceeded to explain everything that had happened, including me kissing Kevin's cheek. Her next statement floored me.
"You mean Howie is gay? I can't believe it. You will never guess who will die when I tell him," she said.
"I don't have any idea. Who?" I was curious to find out.
"You will never believe this, but it's David, and he has a thing for Howie," she came back with.
"You're kidding right? You can't be sitting here telling me that David is gay," I asked.
We were talking about David Boreanaz, who plays Sarah's love interest Angel on "Buffy the Vampire Slayer".
"Yes, I am," she answered.
"Oh, my god...you're right! I can't believe it! I mean everyone thinks that you and he are an item. You guys look so good on screen together that everyone just assumes it's because it's real," I said.
"Well, we made it that way, so that no one would suspect. The only people who know are the rest of the cast. And now you, of course. So no telling! Not even Howie. Deal?" she asked.
"Deal," I agreed.
"So, what are you doing tonight?" she asked
"I'm supposed to go out with the guys, but first Kevin and I are going to talk,"
"Well, good luck. I hope everything turns out ok. I'm sure it will,"
"Thanks Sarah, and don't worry about me saying anything about David. I won't," I promised.
"You had better not. He would kill me if you did. I gotta go. Call me in the morning and let me know how tonight goes," she said.
"I will. Bye."
"Bye," Sarah said and hung up the phone.
I looked at the clock, and it was now 7:00. I had to start getting ready.
I got in the shower and let all of the frustration and confusion flow out of me. I got out, shaved, and fixed my hair.
I walked out of the bathroom wearing a towel, heading over to light a cigarette on my way to the closet when the phone rang.
"Hello?" I said.
"Jordan, its Kevin," he answered.
My heart skipped a beat when I heard his voice, but I quickly recovered.
"Hey, Kevin...so what's the plan?" I asked.
"Well, I was thinking that you and I could go and get something to eat and talk," he said.
"That sounds fine, but what about the rest of the guys?"
"We're going to meet up with them later, if that's ok with you. I'll understand if you don't want to though," he said.
"No...no...that's fine," I said.
"Cool. I'll be there to pick you up in about 20 minutes. Is that enough time for you?"
"Yeah. That's fine," I replied.
"Great, see you then."
"Bye Kevin," I said with a little disappointment in my voice. I didn't want the conversation to end. But I also knew that I had all night to talk to him.
I went back to the closet to pick out something to wear. I wound up pulling out a pair of khaki's and a shirt from Structure. I got dressed, checked my hair one more time, and sprayed on a little Escape by Calvin Klein.
Twenty minutes later, I was down in the hotel lobby and Kevin was walking in.
"Jordan, you look great," he said.
"Thanks. You, too," I commented. He had on a pair of black pants and a dark blue shirt. He looked absolutely gorgeous.
We got into the rental car that Kevin had gotten, as the guys had the limo, and headed off the restaurant he had decided upon.
We didn't say much in the car ride over. I think we were both too nervous to say anything. I just kept looking at him and smiling. Trying to keep myself calm.
Ten minutes later, we arrived at a small Italian restaurant. We walked in and the maitre d' approached us.
"I believe you have a reservation for Richardson?" Kevin said.
"Ah...yes, Mr. Richardson. Everything is ready for you. Right this way, please," he said.
The maitre d' escorted us to a small, secluded table in the back of the restaurant. Subdued overhead scones and candles lit on the tables. It was perfect.
"Here you are, gentlemen. Enjoy your dinner," he said, as he walked away.
"Thank you," we both said in unison.
We sat down across from each other in the small booth and just looked at each other.
Kevin was just about to say something, when our waiter came over to explain the specials to us, leave menus, and take our drink orders. With that done he left. I decided right then that I was going to have the upper hand. Or so I thought.
"Kevin." I started, but before I could say anything else he cut me off.
"Jordan...let me go first...please...because if I don't, I don't think I'll be able to get this out," Kevin said.
"Ok...go ahead," I said.
"First of all, I want to apologize for being so distant this afternoon. I was just wrestling with a lot of feelings that I wasn't ready to deal with," he started.
"Kevin, it's ok," I replied.
"Thank you. I also want to apologize for my outburst in the limo. It was uncalled for. I had just started thinking about someone I haven't thought about in a long time. I didn't think I still felt that strongly about things." He said all of this never looking directly at me, which had me scared.
"Kevin, it's ok...really. We all have our moments sometimes," I reassured him.
"It's not ok, Jordan. Not when the person you're attracted to is right in front of you and you're trying to make a good impression."
"Kevin, did you just say..." I never got the chance to finish what I was saying, because at that moment the waiter came with our drinks. He took our orders for dinner and left.
"So, Kevin, before we were interrupted, I was asking..." I tried to pick up where I left off, but again Kevin cut me off.
"Jordan, I'm almost done, please let me finish," he said.
"OK...I'm sorry, go ahead," I replied.
"Ok, so like I was saying before. It was no way for me to act in front of someone I'm attracted to. Yes, that person would be you Jordan. And yes, I am gay..." he said.
My head started to spin. I couldn't believe this was happening. Kevin had just told me he was gay. This was too much for me to take in. Plus he had said he was attracted to me. This was turning out to be one hell of a birthday. I looked at him in disbelief.
Then he continued. "Jordan, nine months ago I was flipping through TV channels in a hotel room somewhere, and came across 'On Our Own.' That was the first time I saw you. I knew right then that I had to meet you. There was just something about you. I thought about you all of the time. So when your manager called and asked us to come on the show, I begged the guys to do it. I mean I really, really had to beg them. It was the only way I knew I was going to get a chance to meet you. And it was so worth it. I never thought I would be sitting here with you like this. So, if nothing else ever comes out of this, that's fine. But, at least I got the chance to meet you," he finally stopped.
"Are you done?" I said trying not to laugh.
"I guess, but you don't have to laugh at me, you know. I mean here I am pouring my heart out to you, and all you can do is laugh," he said.
"Kevin, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to laugh at you. It's just I feel the same way about you. Ask Brian, he'll tell you," I said.
"Why didn't you tell me?" He exclaimed.
I proceeded to tell him everything I had told Brian at lunch. When I was done, he just looked at me and didn't say anything.
"I tried to tell you, but Nick got in the way," I said.
He still had that look on his face and now I felt like a fool for saying anything at all.
"Kevin, did I say something wrong?" I asked.
"No, not at all. You said everything right. I just never thought I would hear that from you," he answered me.
Before either of us could say another word, our food arrived. We both just looked at it and laughed. After the waiter left, we looked at each other. What happened next will stick in my mind forever. Kevin got up from the table and walked over to me. He stood in front of me and held out his hand. I looked up at him and saw the smile on his face. I took his hand and he pulled me up to him. He put one arm around my waist and pulled me as close to him as I could get. I looked into his eyes. I couldn't say a word. He laid his other hand on the side of my neck, and gently pulled my face to his. Then I felt his lips on mine. They were so soft. We lightly kissed each other like that for a few minutes, while my arms went around his waist. Then, I remembered that we were in a public place. I pulled away from him and he got a look of disappointment on his face like I had slapped him.
"Jordan, what is it? What did I do?" he asked nervously.
"Nothing, Kevin, nothing. You did everything right. It was the most incredible kiss I've ever had," I said.
"Well, then, what is it?" He asked, still looking like I had slapped him.
"Kevin we can't be doing this here. Look at where we are. We're in the middle of a restaurant in the heart of Chicago and we're kissing. This is not the best thing for us to be doing." I answered.
"Well, if you had paid attention when we walked in, you would have noticed that there is barely anyone here, and the people that are here are all in the front part of the restaurant. We are all the way in the back, so nobody can see us. So we don't have to worry," he explained.
"Kevin, I'm so sorry. I should have realized. I just wasn't paying attention. I was too caught up looking at you and I don't want to hurt either of our careers," I said.
"Thanks. I know the feeling. But at least you realized the one thing that we both have to worry about: behaving in public," he said.
"Well, for right now, we don't have to worry about it." Then it dawned on me. "You set this up this way, didn't you?" I asked, noticing the big grin on his face.
"Yeah, you could say that," he answered grinning.
"So, what if I were to do this?" I said, as I put both of my hands on his face and pulled him into me and began kissing him for all I was worth. Kevin put everything he had into the kiss too. Kevin pushed his tongue into my mouth and our tongues met for the first time. It was like no kiss I had ever had. Our tongues wrestled and played. Then we slowed down a bit and just enjoyed the kiss. He became very gentle with me, like he would break me if he kissed me too hard. We finally broke our kiss and just looked at each other, smiling.
"It would be fine," he answered, catching his breath.
"Maybe we should eat, while our food is still hot," I said.
"Yeah, I think we should," Kevin agreed.
We sat back down to eat, not letting go of each other's hands until we absolutely had to. In between bites of food, we just looked at each other. Not really saying anything, but with a lot being said by the way we were looking at each other.
PART 6
Kevin and I sat eating our dinner quietly. I kept running the events of the last fifteen to twenty minutes around in my head. Kevin telling me he was gay and then telling me he was attracted to me. The kiss. It was so incredible, soft yet forceful and full of passion. Kevin's voice brought me back to reality.
"Jordan, are you ok?"
"What? Oh yeah, I'm fine. I was just thinking, that's all," I said.
"Oh...just making sure. What were you thinking about?" Kevin asked.
"You...me...us...a lot of things," I replied.
"Like what? Tell me please."
"I don't know where to start."
"Well, just start at the beginning," he said.
"Ok...here goes. First, let me just say that I never thought I would be here with you like this."
"Me, too," Kevin said, grinning.
I smiled and continued. "You know, some of what you said in the limo this morning made a lot of sense. Let's just say, for the sake of argument that, we both want this to go further. I think I do, but what do we do then? I mean, my show films in LA, and you're on the road all of the time. How would we make this work? Please don't think that I'm avoiding giving this a chance before we even get started, but it's something we both have to think about," I finished.
"You're right we do, and I don't know what we're going to do. I guess we'll just have to cross that bridge when we come to it. All I know is that right now I want to be here with you and get to know you. The rest will work itself out. If we were meant to be together."
"Listen," he added. "You're not leaving until Friday afternoon and neither are we. So, why don't we just enjoy the rest of tonight, and see how it goes. Then, if we don't hate each other by Friday, we can sit down and talk it over, and figure out how to make this work. Because I think you could be someone I want to have a relationship with. If we both want it bad enough, we can make it work. How does that sound?" He finished.
"That sounds like a plan to me," I said.
He just gave me that gorgeous smile of his.
"So, where do you guys go when you leave here?" I asked him.
"Well, we leave here and go to New York for a concert and some promotional work for the new album. Then to DC for the same thing. And all of that by Monday. Then, we have the next two weeks off," he said.
There was a plan forming in my head, but I had to remain in control and not let Kevin think that I was up to anything. But now I was going to need the other guys' help.
"Wow. I thought that I had a busy schedule, but shit, I have nothing on you guys. Now I can see why you said the things you did this morning. I can understand your frustration," I said, sympathizing with Kevin.
"Yeah, it's hard. That's why my last relationship didn't work. Because I was never home. He couldn't take it. It ended very badly. But that's in the past," he said looking a little depressed.
"What happened?" I asked.
"To make a long story short, we were on tour and he didn't like the fact that I was gone so much. So he went out and found someone else to fill his lonely nights. When I flew home to surprise him on a weekend off, I walked into his house and found him in bed with another man. So that ended that and I told him I never wanted to see him again. And I haven't. He's tried to call me, but I can't trust him. He tried to tell me it was an accident, but I still can't believe him or trust him," he said.
"Kevin, I'm so sorry. He must have really fucked with your head for you to have reacted the way you did this morning."
"I was in love with him. Or at least I thought I was. But I've come to realize, since it ended, that I didn't love him. He was just something familiar to come home to."
"I can understand that," I said.
"Thanks. So, what about you? Any disastrous break-ups in your past?" he asked.
"No, not really. Maybe when I was younger. But, since I got to LA, no. I've barely gone out with anyone. I've gone to premiers and stuff with different actresses here and there for appearances sake, but I haven't met the one person I've wanted to be with." I started, but thinking to myself 'until now.'
"The other problem is Phil. He worries about me. He knew I was gay when he signed me. But we agreed then that for the good of my career, I should be seen with as many girls as possible. That leaves me very little time to even go on a date," I finished.
"I know the feeling. It sucks, doesn't it? That's why I'm so happy you agreed to have dinner with me tonight." He was smiling.
"Thank you. I'm glad I said yes too. Although, I was a little nervous on how it would turn out. That, and I knew that if I said no, Sarah would never forgive me," I said laughing.
"Sarah? She knows we're here together?" He questioned nervously.
"Yes, she does. But don't worry. She's my best friend and she knows about me. She won't say anything to anybody. I mean. she told me about David and...I... oh...my...Go...I don't...believe...I just...said that," I just stopped talking. Sarah is going to kill me. I thought.
"David who?"
"No one."
"David who?"
"No one. Forget I said anything."
"No, I'm not. You said David. David who?"
"Kevin, please just forget about it." I pleaded.
"Oh my God. I just got it. If Sarah said something about David, it could only be one person. I never would have guessed," he said excitedly.
"Yes, it's him. But, please, I beg you, don't say anything to the guys. I promised Sarah. She would kill me if she knew I told you. And I will never kiss you again if you do," I threatened.
"Ok...ok...I promise. I just want to be able to kiss you again," he said.
Kevin sat quietly for a minute thinking. I wish I could at least tell Howie, but if I want this to last, and I do, I can't say a word.
"So, where are we supposed to meet the guys?" I asked trying to change the subject.
"Well, I told the guys that after we finished eating, I would call them, and let them know what's up. So, what do you feel like doing? It's your birthday after all?" he asked.
"Well, I know what I'd like to do, but I don't know how the other guys and you would like it."
"What is it?"
"Well, I want to go dancing. I haven't been in months. But I don't want you guys to get mobbed if we go to a club somewhere. And, honestly, neither do I, but I want to dance," I told him.
"Fine, then that's what we will do, and trust me, the other guys won't mind. We go all of the time, and as long as we get up and do a song or two for them, people usually leave us alone. As for how they will react with you there, we'll just have to wait and see, won't we?" he said smirking.
"Gee, thanks," I replied.
"You're welcome," still kind of laughing as he answered.
We finished eating while talking about nothing really important. Things like how we felt about the business we're both in. Movies, music, anything and everything. When we were finally done, we both got up from the table.
As we got up, I grabbed Kevin's hand and pulled him into me and kissed him. When we parted, he asked, "What was that for?"
"Because I wanted to. And I wanted to thank you for the best birthday I've ever had," I said.
"You're welcome. But the night's not over yet," he said. "Come on, let's go. We still gotta call the guys. They're waiting for us."
Kevin paid the bill and we walked back to the rental car. Once we got into the car, Kevin turned to me and asked.
"Do you want to play a little joke on the guys?"
"Sure...what did you have in mind?" I asked him.
"Well, they know how we feel about each other. And, if I'm right they wanted this to work out just as much as we did. So, why don't we, just for a little while, make them think that it didn't? Nothing drastic, but, let them think that we didn't hit it off," he explained.
"Fine with me, but you know just as well as I do how hard it's going to be not to look at each other and give it away!"
"Yeah, I do, but just think of it as practice for when we're in public. Just follow my lead. Ok?"
"Ok."
"Good. Now let me call them," he said, pulling out his cell phone and he started dialing. We leaned in together so we could both hear the earpiece.
"Bri? Hey cuz, it's me," he said.
"So how did it go?" I heard Brian ask.
"I'll explain later," he said, trying to sound disappointed, while he was taking my hand in his.
"Come on, Kev, tell me what's going on," Brian pleaded.
"I said I'd tell you later. Now, are you guys ready to go out?" he asked.
"Yup, we're all set. What's the plan?"
"Why don't I come back to the hotel and get you guys and we'll decide then where we are going?"
"Um...yeah...sure. But, Kevin, I have to tell you, I don't like the tone in your voice. Are you sure everything is ok?"
"I said later, Bri. Now let it go."
I started to laugh, and put my free hand over my mouth so I wouldn't be heard.
"Ok, cuz."
"Good. I should be there in about fifteen minutes."
"Ok...see you then," Brian said.
"Bye," Kevin said, and hung up the phone.
"Do you think he bought it?" I asked.
"Yeah, I think so. What I wouldn't give to be a fly on the wall in that room right now!" he said laughing.
"Me, too. But, I'd much rather be here with you," I said smiling.
"Ok...see you then," said Brian, hanging up the phone on the hotel night table.
"SO!!!" Nick, AJ, and Howie, all said at the same time.
"Well, he wouldn't tell me anything. He said he would tell me later," Brian muttered.
"What is that supposed to mean?" Nick asked.
"Yeah, you can't tell me that things went that badly," AJ put in.
"I don't know. He wouldn't tell me and he sounded kind of weird," Brian said.
"I can't believe those two. I mean, you could see on their faces how much they want to be together. What could have happened?" Howie asked.
"I don't know. We'll just have to wait until Kevin gets here and tells us to find out," Brian said.
"And that would be when?" Nick asked.
"In about fifteen minutes," Brian answered.
"Let me show you where I want to be," Kevin said, pulling me into a kiss. Our lips met and I opened my mouth to accept his tongue. We sat there and kissed for what seemed like forever. When we broke apart, it had only been two minutes.
"I could definitely get used to that," I said.
"Good. That's the point," he said smiling again.
Kevin started the car and we headed back to the hotel. He held onto my hand the entire ride there.
We arrived at the hotel and Kevin turned to me.
"Are you ready for this?"
"Yeah. I'll try not to blow it. Just make sure you don't smile at me, because if you do, it's all over," I said, trying not to laugh.
"I'll try not to. Let's go," he said.
We got out of the car, and headed into the hotel. Once we got to the Elevator, Kevin grabbed my hand and held it until we got to the door of Brian's room.
"Here we go. Remember, act disappointed," Kevin said.
"I will. Don't worry. I'm the actor, remember?" I said.
"Yeah, I know," Kevin chuckled and knocked on the door.
The door opened and Brian stood on the other side.
"Hi, Kev. Oh, Jordan, I...uh...didn't expect to see you," Brian said blushing.
I almost lost it right there, and started laughing, but I had promised Kevin I wouldn't blow it. Now I was going to have some fun.
"Hi, Brian. How are you?" I asked.
"Fine, come on in guys."
Kevin followed Brian in and I followed right behind him so the others couldn't see me. The guys said hi to Kevin, then I stepped out from behind him.
"Hey, guys," I said, solemnly.
They all looked at me astonished for a minute, then regained their composure.
"Hey, Jordan," Nick said.
"Hi," AJ and Howie said together.
I tried my best to look a little depressed. I must have done a good job, because none of the guys looked like they knew I was faking it.
We sat and talked for a few minutes to decide where we were going. All the while, the guys were getting used to the idea that Kevin and I were just going to be friends.
The guys left to go to their rooms to finish getting ready and we went to Kevin's.
After we got to Kevin's room, he went into the bathroom. And I walked out on the balcony to look at the city. A couple of minutes later, I felt a pair of arms circling my waist. I turned my head and there was Kevin. I turned around in his arms, and looked into is beautiful hazel eyes. We started to kiss.
Moments later we were abruptly interrupted by a voice.
"I KNEW IT! There was nothing wrong with you guys," Howie exclaimed.
Kevin and I started laughing hysterically.
"Busted," was all I could say.