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Lacrosse Lover
By Mark (BostonBiGuy) some1yuno@hotmail.com
"Charles, we need to talk.
I could feel my heart thundering in my chest at what I was about to hear. I didn't know what was coming, I was both hopeful and afraid of what he might say. I thought about all that had happened between us and how much I loved him.
He finally continued, "Listen, I know that you're gay.
I was stunned by what he said but let him continue.
"And, I know that you like me. I saw some of the stuff on your computer and those pairs of my underwear you had."
I hoped he was going to say the words I'd been waiting so long to hear, but there was an ominous tone to his voice that I didn't like.
"And, I'm kinda ok with it. But you should know, I'm straight and I don't like you that way. I don't want this to change our friendship, but I'm not sure if I can carry on like nothing ever happened. I really like you as a friend but I'm not like that."
"Listen, Rob I. " I didn't know what to say, I couldn't think of anything, my tongue seemed swollen in my mouth. I couldn't think clearly. I had always wished that I could find out how he felt, so that even if he didn't feel the same way I wouldn't have to wonder anymore. Now that it had finally happened I regretted that wish.
I broke into tears unable to control my emotions anymore.
"I didn't want to hurt you like this. I wish it had never come up, but now that it has I had to talk about so that this didn't go any further. I know you might have been mislead by some of the things that have happened but I really didn't mean to do so. I never even considered that you might be gay. I'm sorry."
Rob left the room leaving me by myself. I cried as I thought over what he had said and how wrong I had been. Part of me had known all along that I was living in a fantasy about him. I guess I'd always had these doubts or I would have acted on my feelings sooner.
I don't know how long I lay there crying, I do remember Matt shaking me awake. "Charles, go to bed." I didn't even think about what I was doing, I just went into my room and climbed into bed. I was still in a state of shock at what had happened.
Over the next few days things finally settled down. On the surface our friendship seemed to be a lot like it was before. However, I knew the difference. The jokes that Rob had freely told before now stopped. I suppose he didn't want to torment me but I still missed the old camaraderie. He spent much less time around me in the nude. Whenever one of us was in the bathroom it became off limits to the other. There was almost no horseplay in the pool.
Where once we had an incredible friendship it was now only a shallow parody of what was before. Eventually I got depressed. I suspect Rob knew why, but he never said anything about it, it would have seemed like too much.
He didn't want things to change, but they had. I suppose it was inevitable. That spring Rob found a girlfriend and I knew that I couldn't continue to live there much longer.
I found an apartment off-campus, Chris and I moved in together. We had separate rooms and only occasionally sharing the same bed long enough to have sex. I did eventually find someone else and we hit it off. But I'll never forget Rob or what had happened between us. I was always cautious after that, keeping my feelings under control. But I met Christian at a gay club so there was no doubt that he was gay.
Ok. That's it for Chapter 9, well for this chapter 9 anyway. The real ending can be found here http://bbg.webjump.com/bbg/lacrosse9.htm So I would suggest going there if you want to find out what really happened.
For those wondering why I chose to post this ending it is merely intended as an alternate possibility. I found that the major of readers assumed that there would be one particular ending and I wanted to show that it was possible to end it a different way. I hope this teaches a small lesson about perspective and thinking too far ahead.
Remember, go check out the real ending at http://bbg.webjump.com/bbg/lacrosse9.htm before you start sending hate mail. I'll post the real ending here in a few days for those who don't have web access or for those who have trouble getting to my page.