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My Surrender
For years I have fantasized, dreamed, & obsessed about a man making love to me. I have masturbated to this dream, for so long, that I needed it to become a reality.
I placed an ad on-line looking for a man to fuck me.
Now, of course, being a nervous & anxious virgin the ad I placed was not as direct as
"I need a man to fuck me."
It went something like this...
"Bottom boi, looking for a man to surrender my virginity to.
We will start by writing sexually charged letters to each other, describing in intimate detail, how we will make love to each other. Our letters will be the stuff of sexual legend, filled with intimate homosexual surrender & conquest. We'll faithfully write our most intimate sexual thoughts, to each other, until we can't take it any more & simply have to get together to consummate our new relationship. This could take a month, a year, two years, whatever. BUT when the time is right, we'll both know it & then we'll unite as true homosexual lovers."
My ad generated the usual replies from men, that just wanted to fuck me right now, BUT one reply was exactly what I was looking for in a lover. I responded, to him, & our pen-pal love affair began in earnest.
Every day, for more than a year, we would write to each other describing in the most intimate detail how I would receive his hard penis into my virgin ass, how he would release a torrent of his warm, fresh living seed deep into my sexually starved virgin body. We would write about all of the ways that I could sexually please him. We would write about how I would surrender to him & how he would take possession of me, as we united as perfect homosexual lovers.
We are so like minded in that we both agree that it's so very important that I surrender my smooth, soft, thin, virgin body to him for his sexual desires & pleasures, and I can't wait for him to be inside me.
We both agree that the purest, sweetest, most intimate, most precious, most right form of sexual expression is the perfect physical & sexual union of love shared between two men.
We both knew that if we ever got together, we wouldn't waste any time in uniting ourselves to each other. We would immediately make love, & the blow jobs would come later.
One night, after about 14 months of these super sexually charged letters, I got an e-mail from him saying that he was ready to unite us as lovers. He wanted my phone number so we could arrange a time & location to make our fantasy a reality.
The moment had arrived!
Either I follow through with my life-long desire to surrender to a man, or I retreat back into my masturbation fantasy. I stared at his letter for quite some time, trembling in fear, excitement, & anticipation.
I wrote my reply letter, including my phone number. I just sat & stared at my reply for hours. The excitement & eagerness to see this though was overwhelming, & irresistible. I finally clicked "send" & put all of our previous 14 months of fantasy into motion.
I went to sleep, knowing that very soon my life will be completely changed & that my dreams would soon become a reality.
When I woke up, in the morning, my heart was racing, thinking about what I had done the night before. I gave a man my phone number, so he could call me & make arraignments to take my virginity. The excitement was overpowering me, & all I could think about was the phone call that was sure to happen.
I needed to calm down & relax, so I took a very hot, luxurious bath. While in the bath, I remembered all of our previous letters where he wanted my body to be shaved smooth. I got a razor, & with trembling hands proceeded to shave my entire body silky smooth from the neck down.
I shaved my legs, chest, ass, cock, pubes, under my arms, every part of my body was shaved smooth. Every now & then I would realize that I'm shaving myself silky smooth to excite a man, who I have never met, to make myself as attractive as possible for him to fuck me in the ass!
I was trembling with apprehension & exhilaration as I began to caress my smooth body. Not only did I feel so fucking sexy, I also looked so fucking sexy as a very smooth & eager bottom boi ready & willing to surrender my virginity to a man.
Just then...the phone rang!
If I answer, my life will be forever changed. If I don't answer, I go back to masturbating about all of my fantasies of surrendering to a man.
The moment of truth has arrived!...I answer the phone, AND there he is!
We briefly exchange pleasantries, & then he gets down to business.
He tells me..."I'm ready to make all of our dreams & fantasies a reality for both of us. Are you ready for this to happen?"
I submissively reply, "Yes darling, I'm ready for you."
He continues, telling me that..."tonight is good for me. I can be with you the entire night, making love to you through the night, & by the time the sun rises tomorrow morning we will be true & perfect homosexual lovers."
I am cooing in expectancy & tell him that I'm so ready to surrender to him. He wants my address, as he wants to come to my house to claim my virginity & replace it with his prized gift of impregnating me with his liquid love.
I give him my address! There's no turning back now! A man is going to come to my house & fuck me in the ass & fill me with his living seed, as he unites us as lovers.
Several hours pass, & my cock is dripping the entire time with clear, pure, pre-cum knowing that what I've been waiting for my entire life is about to happen.
After what seems like an eternity, there is a knock on my door. He's here! I'm moments away from surrendering my virginity to a man!
My head is reeling, & my heart is pounding out of my chest. I do have the presence of mind to strip off all of my clothes. He doesn't know that I'm doing this, but I feel that I don't want to leave any doubt as to what I want to happen. I want to give, to him, my smooth naked body for his sexual desires. I want to let him know, from the very beginning, that I am prepared to submit & surrender to him. AND what better way to do that than to greet my future lover completely naked.
I grasp the door knob, take a deep breath, & open the door. AND there he is!
AND there I am, standing naked in front of him, my smooth, freshly shaved body, is glistening in the soft light just waiting to be taken by this man.
My cock is pointed straight out & already dripping clear pre-cum & leaving no doubt how excited I am to be totally naked in front of him & also leaving no doubt that I want to present myself as a surrendered, virgin, naked gift to him to use for all of his sexual desires.
He completely embraces me, & our lips lock as I receive his tongue deep into my welcoming mouth. I feel so very sexy & submissive as my naked smooth body is entirely engulfed in his embrace. I'm sure that this must look so fucking sexy, to anyone else...Here I am, greeting my soon to be lover, entirely naked. I'm a picture of submission & surrender.
Our deep passionate kiss continues, as he scoops me up into his strong, muscular arms. He breaks our kiss just long enough to ask me where my bedroom is. I tell him & he carries my naked, soon to be surrendered body to my bedroom & gently lays me down on my bed.
It is in this bedroom & on this bed that I will submit to his sexual desires.
It is on this bed that I will surrender my virginity to him.
It is on this bed that I will surrender my body completely to him, for him to make love to me whenever, wherever, however he chooses.
It is on this bed that I will receive my first of his countless many generous gifts of his fresh, warm, priceless, sperm placed so lovingly deep within the most remote depths of my inner body.
It is on this bed that I will become so humbled, fortunate, lucky, & truly honored to be blessed with receiving the full & entire length of his hard homosexual penis deep within me.
It is on this bed that he will transform me into his exclusive, personal homosexual lover willing to do anything to satisfy his need to make love to me.
He begins to undress, in front of me, as I uncontrollably begin to purr & coo my appreciation & eagerness as to what is about to happen.
He finishes undressing, & standing at the end of the bed is the most beautiful naked, muscular, Adonis-like man I have ever seen. His penis is fully erect, & it looks so massive & stunning & is dripping with his precious pre-cum. His hard cock looks so very impressive. His cock looks so much better in person, than of the photos that I've seen in previous e-mails. I can't wait for his splendor to enter me!
A part of me wants to lick his pure, clear pre-cum off of his very hard cock, & there will be time for that & I can't wait to taste his seed, I can't wait for him to explode all over my face & into my wanting mouth.
BUT right now, this very instant, we both want & need the very same exact thing & that is me caressing his hard, naked penis, with the very depths of my smooth, virgin, naked ass.
Laying on my back, withering in sexual lust, I spread my smooth legs wide open, leaving no doubt as to where I want him to lay. He lies down on top of me, my freshly shaved, smooth legs unconsciously wrap around his waist, as my arms wrap around his muscular shoulders. We delve into the world's most passionate deep kiss as I feel the tip of his hard cock throbbing against my virgin hole.
He breaks our kiss, for a moment, as he says... "This is the moment we have been waiting so long to happen. We are now faced with a decision, & I want you to decide it for us. The choice is, do you want me to wear a condom OR not?"
He continued saying... "If I wear a condom we will be nothing more than 'fuck buddies, & friends with benefits.' We'll be nothing more than two guys that fuck, & I'll fuck you in the ass."
"If I don't wear a condom, everything changes. My naked hard penis will enter your smooth tight virgin ass & you'll feel every inch of my hard cock & I'll feel every inch of your naked virgin ass. We'll be doing much more than simply fucking, we'll be truly making love. We'll be celebrating our desire for a complete & pure homosexual experience. The only way that we can become true homosexual lovers, is to unite my naked hard cock into your naked tight ass."
My response was instantaneous... "Darling, I want & need your glorious naked, hard penis to penetrate me, so I can properly surrender to you."
He smiled at me with lustful desire & said... "In a little while, you'll have to make another important, life changing decision. The natural climax to our love making will be the explosive release of my fresh, warm living sperm. The big question is... will you want me to pull out, when I cum? OR will you want me to cum inside of you?"
I thought to myself, Oh My God! This is really happening!
Before I could answer, he continued speaking... "If I pull out; my seed will be spent & wasted on your stomach & chest, & you will not be able to experience the pure delight & contentment of true homosexual surrender.
You will not experience the gratification & pleasure of receiving my living gift as I impregnate you with a flood of my liquid love, which has been prepared exclusively & entirely for you.
You will not experience the true ecstasy & thrill of knowing that you are carrying my seed inside of you.
You will not experience the happiness & tranquility of knowing that I will live inside of you forever.
You will not experience the serenity of knowing that my living seed is coursing through your entire body, laying claim to every inch of your body that my seed comes in contact with.
You will not experience the quietness, of peaceful total homosexual surrender & unification.
You will not be able to fully please your man, which I know how important it is for you to fully please your man, & give yourself entirely to his sexual desires.
You will not be able to say that you are a proper & pure homosexual, which is so important to you, & I know it is what you truly want to become."
He finishes by saying... "By the way, just so you know, I've been extremely busy with work & other things that I haven't had a chance to masturbate in about two weeks. I have two weeks, worth of cum, just waiting to explode from my cock & flood the inside of your body with my impregnating cum."
I'm thinking to myself...oh my, he already knows me so well.
He knows how badly I want this to happen.
He knows that I'm looking so forward to being filled to overflowing with a torrent of his hot, fresh living seed.
He knows how eager I am to give in & wholly surrender to mine & his homosexual needs.
He knows how badly that I want to be known, as a pure & true homosexual bottom boi that is entirely focused on giving him his sexual release & pleasure.
Before I can answer, he tells me... "Don't answer my question until I'm about to cum. Don't answer until we are in the absolute pinnacle of homosexual paradise."
I reply softly... "OK darling, will you please make love to me, so I can fully surrender to you & your penis."
With that, I feel his pre-cum soaked tip of his penis gently massaging my tight virgin hole. His pre-cum is lubricating my wanting hole as my virgin opening is instinctively & uncontrollably beginning to gape wide open for his glorious entrance into me.
I feel the very tip of his raging man-hood begin to enter me & I'm not sure if the progress is from him pushing OR from the neediness of my desperate virgin ass sucking him in, almost like a vacuum.
Either way, it doesn't matter because my focus is entirely concerned with receiving the full penetration of his superb hard penis.
He alternates between deep kissing me, & telling me all of the words I have longed to hear my entire life......
"Soon I'm going to take possession of you.
Soon you will fully surrender to me.
Soon all of your hopes & dreams will be fulfilled.
Soon my penis will be buried deeply & fully into your tight ass.
Soon your destiny will be realized, as your tight ass will entirely accommodate the full length of my enormous rigid cock."
I begin to feel the entire head of his splendid penis begin its journey into the depths of my gapping hole.
As I feel the thickness of his shaft begin its beautiful voyage of conquest into me, he tells me... "Relax sweetheart. Let this happen.
You know that you need my full penetration to make your life complete.
You know how vital it is for you to receive the entire length of my penis.
You know that the only way that you can experience the full, pure & total ecstasy, that is homosexuality, can only be achieved by allowing my hard cock to be fully engulfed in your body."
His words fill me with such tender love, that I begin to swoon.
I open my body entirely to his advancing penis, & I relinquish all resistance as I accept my fate & realize my life's purpose of being able to fully accommodate a man's hard penis deep into my body.
His exploration into the depths of my soul continues as his penis begins to glide, without any further restraint, to reach the very nadir of my willing & welcoming ass.
He has hit rock bottom, & is in me balls deep. I can feel every inch of his naked cock, deep within me, as he takes possession of the inside of my unprotected ass.
He pauses, for a moment, to let me savor & delight in the blessed splendor of his full penetration.
I feel so safe, so protected, so secure, so grateful, so wanted & needed when he is deep inside me.
It's so perfect, right & pure when two men unite with each other, both knowing how good a hard cock feels, & both of us trying to achieve the same goal of making his beautiful penis feel every ounce of pure, beautiful, complete, perfect homosexual pleasure.
I can feel every throbbing vein of his enormous penis, massaging the inner depths of my warn, smooth, moist ass. I have a fully erect, living, throbbing, penis completely impaled into me & I'm falling in love with him...with his cock...with this experience...with homosexuality.
The inner walls of my smooth ass begin to unconsciously quiver as it repeatedly clamps down & releases its grip on his invading penis.
I am entirely consumed & committed to the unreserved satisfying nirvana-like rapture of enthusiastically & cheerfully permitting a man's fully erect penis to penetrate me to the very depths of my being.
I am giving total sexual pleasure to a man, & this very notion completely overwhelms & pleases me in a way that mere words can't describe.
Somehow I'm able to muster a few words as I exclaim... "Darling, please fuck me with full deep strokes of you magnificent penis. I'm yours for the taking. Please take what rightfully belongs to you, & allow me to surrender to you."
With those words of encouragement, he proceeds to fuck my gaping, needy ass with full deep strokes of his wonderful cock.
He withdraws his penis all the way out of my cock loving ass; only to plunge in, full length, balls deep.
This is repeated for what seems like hours, as I'm reduced to a quivering mass underneath him, basking in the glory of pure homosexual paradise.
We bond & meld together. My smooth legs are wrapped around his waist and I'm pleading for him to fuck me faster & deeper.
My smooth, moist rectal tissues are molding around his pulsing thick cock.
I begin moaning; groaning, gasping, screaming, crying out & whimpering.
My body begins to violently shake as I begin to have what I've never experienced previously... an internal anal orgasm.
Wave after wave of this astounding feeling of an internal, anal climax wash over me as I begin to shake, in seizure like fits of passion.
I have never felt so loved & treasured as I do right now. My entire concentration & focus is centered on his cock, & milking all of the cum that I can out of his hard penis.
His hardness is sinking into my softness, & my bowels are becoming my womb as he thrusts even deeper into my inner sanctuary.
We are joined in a loving perfect union of pure homosexual love.
I tell him with my eyes, and my gasping breath that I am his, & he is free to take possession of me.
I can feel his cock not only grow longer, but also wider, as he descends deeper than he has have ever been before.
He holds his cock in me, as the walls of my inner sanctuary cleave to, & clutch the entire length of his penis.
My ass is pulsating in homosexual delight, as I'm continually grasping & releasing his cock, involuntarily trying to make him cum.
We both know what is about to happen, & then he asks me... "Do you want me to cum inside of you?"
We both know what the answer will be, but for some reason I feel need to express it in words...
"Yes darling, please release every drop of your precious gift deep into me.
I need to be filled completely with your love.
I need to receive my reward.
I need to surrender to you.
I need you to unite us as pure lovers.
I need to feel your love.
I need to express my love, for you, by allowing you to flood me with your living seed."
We both love the idea of the beauty, passion, intimacy, & purity of his naked cock entirely within in my naked ass, this is true perfect love, this is true perfect nakedness, this is the truest, most perfect, most pure form of love in the history of the world; the two of us in deep, passionate, intimate, homosexual love.
He wants to plant every drop of his seed deep within me, & I want every drop of his seed planted deep within me, this is so very right & perfect.
Continuing to press his immense cock deep into me he says...
"This is the moment you've been waiting for, all your life.
This is the moment that will change your life forever.
This is the moment that all of your dreams will become an actuality.
This is the moment that you will become a true homosexual, as you experience the pure joy of total surrender to a man."
I replied with upmost sincerity, almost in tears, & positively begging to be seeded...
"I genuinely promise to care for, nurture, protect, & nourish every single living sperm that you so generously & lovingly ejaculate into the safety of my inner sanctuary.
I promise that my womb will be a safe haven for your living seed to flourish & thrive, & as a result you will live inside of me forever.
I promise to relinquish all ownership of my body, & freely yield my entire being to you for the purpose of sexually pleasing you, whenever you desire.
Please gift to me what I so urgently require, & that is the priceless endowment of your living seed claiming total possessive custody of my entire body, soul & mind."
He leaned in to kiss me again, whispering... "I'm going to cum inside of you."
I whispered back to him... "Yes darling, please cum in me & consummate our love."
He replied... "I'm going to breed you, & fill you with my living seed. You'll be my cherished possession forever."
I quickly answered back... "I need you to breed me. I need to carry your living gift deep within my homosexual womb. I crave & covet the opportunity to be possessed by you."
He flicked the tip of my tongue with the tip of his tongue as he continued telling me about my imminent surrender & my forthcoming gift... "Only love flows from my cock, & I'm going to fill you with my gift of living love, which has been created especially for you. My seed has been born & nurtured deep within my body, & I'm going to transport it to unknown depths within your body, where you will willingly accept my gift of pure homosexual love."
I was swooning with homosexual love & lust as I panted out breathless gasps... "I can never fully repay you for my impending, priceless gift. All I can hope to do is completely surrender my body, to you, for all of your sexual pleasures. I know that my surrender can never equal the extraordinary generosity of impregnating me with your living seed. All I can promise you is that you will entirely posses me, & that I will guard, protect, & nourish your living gift deep within my womb."
Another wave of a powerful internal anal orgasm begins to wash over me, as seizure-like, convulsive shaking, takes control of my body.
I can feel the very beginning of my orgasm start around all of my anal nerves that are imbedded within the walls of my smooth, inviting womb, which is massaging, clutching, & completely enveloping his entire penis.
My orgasm then begins to build & radiate outward, from his rigid penis, to the rest of my body.
In a moment's time, my entire body is consumed with my orgasm, & all of my senses are simply flooded with very pure thoughts, feelings, & emotions of homosexual love & lust.
His hard cock, which is fully embedded into my wanting ass, has truly become the center of my universe, & unquestionably the center of my body.
He seems to love my orgasms as much as I do, because he's whispering in my ear... "Let yourself go. Give in to your orgasm. Let your orgasm take control over you. Surrender to your orgasm. Embrace & love your orgasm. Allow your orgasm to own you, just as my cock owns you, & just as I own you.
Your all-encompassing orgasm tells me how much you really need this to happen.
You are speaking to me without words as to how much you love my cock inside of you. You are telling me that you need to be seeded & conquered."
After he finished speaking his words of encouragement to me, two amazingly, stunning things began to happen.
My internal anal orgasm took on a life of its own & significantly intensified taking complete control over my entire body.
I was simply powerless to try to control it, & just let it consume me in unbelievably wonderful feelings of homosexual surrender.
The muscles, in the walls of my womb which had a virtual death grip on his hard penis, were fluttering in powerful, spastic, orgasmic waves up & down the entire length of his imbedded penis.
The other stunning thing that happened is that his cock got even larger, not only longer but undeniably wider. It was like he was tying his knot inside of me. He was locking himself into me & preparing for what I hoped would be an explosion of his fresh living sperm deep into the bowels of my soul.
I couldn't breath, I couldn't speak, but somehow I heard myself say... "The moment you impregnate me with your seed is the moment that we unite as one flesh.
I want & need you to fill me with your seed. I beg you to take what's rightfully yours.
I need to feel your warm, fresh cum pulsing into me AND declaring to me & the entire world that I belong to you.
I've waited & prepared my entire life for this very moment of freely giving my smooth, soft virgin body to you, to surrender sexually to you, to receive your seed, to carry your living seed deep within me.
To know darling, that you will impregnate me with the very essence of your being, fills me with so much joy.
To know that you love me so much that you will completely fill me with your gift of love, I will happily spend the rest of my days re-paying your beautiful gift of love, & generosity by giving myself entirely to you for your sexual pleasure."
His cock continued to swell in all directions, deep inside of me, when he exclaimed... "I'm uniting us. I now possess you. I'm cuming."
The first blast, of his living seed, exploded very, very deep in my womb. This was followed by wave after wave of almost as powerful eruptions, going almost as deep as the first.
My quivering orgasm shot into high gear as my ass muscles gripped & released his raging hard on. The combination of feeling his cock literally pulsating cum out of it, & my ass pulsating in orgasmic ecstasy was the most intensely, wonderful experience that has ever happened to me.
I could feel the powerful strength of his penis, deep within me, as it would swell up & then release another round of his life-giving sperm.
It was like his cock would re-load & then swell up to release another load into my ravenous ass.
This happened over & over again, as he pumped load after load into me.
Unless you've had the pleasure of experiencing the exquisite joy of having a man release his glorious gift inside of you, words could never do justice to the utter delight & pure gratification of receiving such a priceless endowment.
I certainly could feel the pleasant warmth, of his liquid love, deep within me.
I felt full, almost bloated, with the shear volume of his ejaculated sperm, which I knew was being absorbed & transported through-out my entire body.
My newly emancipated body adoringly accepted every one of his living sperm.
I felt so alive & so full of life, as I felt his life thriving inside of me.
It's impossible to describe in precise words how delightfully wonderful it is when a man chooses you to impregnate you with his living seed, which has been prepared especially for you.
I know that his cum, his seed, his life-force is the most valuable gift he can give.
I'm so grateful & value the opportunity to be able to yield, surrender & receive his priceless gift.
He planted the very seed of his life into me, & I know that it's the most precious & valuable gift a man can give.
The very essence of his soul is planted deep within me, showing me how much he loves me by letting every drop of his liquid love ejaculate completely into the depths of my soul.
I give thanks to him for cuming inside of me. I'm overwhelmed with tears of joy & contented satisfaction in knowing that he has surrendered his life giving seed deep within me.
I'm overwhelmed with feelings of irrepressible love knowing that his sperm is truly living & swimming deep within me.
I am feeling so very lucky & fortunate to know, & feel not only his living hard penis deep inside of me, but also to feel his living sperm deep within me.
I love knowing that he has chosen, & entrusted me to carry his seed, the very essence of his life, deep within me, & I will always need him inside me.
I can feel his sperm staking out their claim for him to truly possess me.
I feel so very fortunate & happy to know that I have surrendered to him, and that he will always be living deep inside of me.
I love the feeling of pride, joy & honor knowing that I have surrendered to a man.
I love the feeling of total satisfaction, comfort, peace, & serenity in knowing that he has every right to enter & breed me whenever, wherever, & how often he wants.
I love knowing that he has chosen me, so I can be allowed to create, & share a perfect homosexual love with him.
I love that he has transformed me into what I was always destined to be, his pure homosexual lover, dedicated exclusively to servicing, submitting, & surrendering to his most intimate homosexual needs.
I love knowing that the entire scope of my joy & happiness is concentrated wholly on the focus of keeping his penis hard & deep within my body.
We have united as one flesh and he is living inside of me!
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