From the 35th floor he could see it during the coldest month of winter. But most of the year it was hidden by evergreens and other limbs of leaves.
He had seen the dark silhouettes moving about in the evenings though he stood far away sitting on an unused picnic table.
Calhad come to realize he was gay. It didn't pose a problem for him. He enjoyed jacking off looking at porn on the Internet, pics of guys having sex and remembering sights of guys on the campus or even those that moved about the neighboring park.
So the only challenge was when he would be brave enough to become one of those guys or even one of those he saw in the nortorious park late at night.
It was one of those nights, the middle of the hot Spring month, a voice asked him if he was ok.
"Yes Sir" He said not knowing who the shadowed figure was. "Thinking of going?" he asked again.
"Maybe, not sure" Cal said.
"Well when you go, go slow. You'll be very popular I can tell you" the man said as he walked towards the building.
It was a bathroom building in the park far from the areas where people sunned, threw Frisbees and ate on available tables. At night, a few people walked along the sides of the lake, but few hung out there.
Calhad sat on the side of the lake smoking joints with friends. He had left his nearby home on the 35th floor of the condo building where he lived to get away too....sitting near the lake. And eventually seeing the shadows walk towards the wooded area.
The building was large. He thought it was probably used for equipment or other things too. He didn't know until one day, during the morning he walked in the area to check it out.
There was an entrance for MEN and another for WOMEN. Two other doors seemed to provide an entranced to another part of the building. And yet another door on the far side faced the thicker part of the wooded area. It had no markings, only a light on the outside. It seemed like a blue bulb.
Jokes he heard about the men's room became more revealing as he realized why he was interested. He stroked himself incessantly thinking about it.
And finally one spring night, frustrated by his assignments and his absent as usual parents; he left the apartment and sat nearby on the picnic table.
The shadow moved into the woods and went behind the building, not into the MENs room door. He moved as silently as he could as if worried someone would hear him.
He crept around the building and hearing the creaking of the MENS room door, he froze. Inhaling for strength and resolve he completed his walk and entered.
A man looked up. He was leaning against the sink and reading a paper under a dim yellow light. Cal nodded and the man smiled.
"BOOTH THREE?" he asked.
Callooked confused and the man nodded. "OK use anyone"
Calstood looking around. He heard some sounds from where the stalls were. He knew those sounds. They were similar to the ones he made when masturbating.
"Use the urinal" the man said "just wait"
Calmoved to the trough and lifted his shorts leg to hold his penis. He couldn't pee, too nervous.
"You ok?" the voice was quiet and next to him. Cal jumped a bit. He felt the man moving closer his leg touching his.
"Can't pee in public" Cal said.
"Me neither, let's go to a stall" the man's hand moved against Cal's bare leg. He moved and Cal watched him go pause and look back. He smiled. His lips formed "IT's OK" and Cal smiled letting his penis loose and followed.
Inside the stall, the man touched his chest. "You're cute" he said moving his head closer. It was the first time Cal kissed a man. He had played around as a little boy kissing others just to see what it was like.
But that was different. He kissed back and felt the man's arms around him holding him close. Cal's penis grew harder when the man's hand found it under his shorts.
He sat on the toilet seat and pulled Cal towards him engulfing the cock until Cal's body lost control erupting in the man's mouth.
"Sweet" the man said afterwards smiling.
Cal, didn't know what to do next. "Uh thank you Sir" he said and left quickly.
It took awhile for Cal to return. He entered the room and the same man was there reading a newspaper.
"Ah you're back, go to stall three, strip and sit on the toilet, I got a guy coming at 9" he said.
Calwasn't sure what to do, so he did what the guy said. The stall was empty and might have been the same one where his cock got sucked by that nice man.
He sat on the toilet, and then removed his shirt. His cock was hard. Cal didn't know why exactly. He lifted his legs and the shorts off, intending to jack off while he listened to others having sex in neighboring stalls.
"Good" the voice said as a man entered the room and locked the stall. "Just sit back and take it" he watched the man open his fly and hold his man-sized cock. He jacked it while staring at Cal's bare boy body.
The cum hit him in the face and chest. Cal didn't know if he should wipe it off or not. As he reached for the toilet paper the man said "JUST SIT THERE BOY"
Calleaned back and watched the man's penis pee on him. It felt weird and nice. The warm water washed the man's cum off his face and chest rolling down to his crotch.
"THANKS KID" The man said handing a wad of paper to him before leaving.
"Hey" the man with the newspaper said to him. Cal thought he was about to be told not to come back or something "Here" the guy held his hand out.
The roll felt like money. Cal looked down and discovered a twenty dollar bill. "Oh no this isn't for me" He said.
"Yep, you get half" the man said "take it or the guy will be insulted" Cal put the twenty into the pocket in the back of his shorts.
"Tell me when you can come, I'll set up stuff for you, that's how it works" the man said raising his eyebrows.
"When?" Cal asked wanting the sex more then the money. But the idea that grown men liked him enough to pay to have sex excited him.
"Did you cum back there?" the man asked.
"No he just..." Cal started
"Don't tell me. If you come back at midnight" the man said "we'll see"
Calpressed against the wall, the cock inside him hurt like hell but it felt natural doing what it was doing. He had come back and stood at the urinal until a hand tugged on his shorts. He was in another stall and the man was fucking him. It was the first time he got fucked and the pain and pleasure Cal had read about became real.
"Did good kid" the man handed him two twenties. "Stick around" he said
Calnodded but left sitting on the same picnic table he had been on that first time what seemed so long ago but was only a week before.
"You working?" The man didn't stop but walked on.
Calfollowed him into the room pausing while the man spoke to the newspaper man.
He moved down to the last stall, Cal followed.
The fucking itself was hot but what turned Cal completely on was the hungry man moved his hands under clothing and all over his chest, back, butt. He kissed Cal every where too. And breathing so deep his words were hard to understand, but the guy complimented him and called him names at the same time.
He told Cal what to do and Cal hissed "Yes Sir" not because he was told to but because it seemed right. He loved being savored, explored wanted and loved. The cock wasn't his first but it was the best. His own cock was in the guys hand..he had control.
And Cal loved being controlled. The man knew when he was close to coming somehow and pressed his taint to stop him. The cock inside kept pumping.
"Ok kid now" the man said jacking Cal faster and fucking just as fast.
Calnearly lost consciousness as his body erupted on the side of the stall. The man's body was jamming inside him. Cal knew his intestines were being coated with cum.
There the best part happened as Cal recovered. The man held his bare skin, kissed the back of his neck and hugged him tightly until they both were breathing less rapidly.
"Kid you're one hot fuck" the man said
"Thank you Sir" Cal said turning around and milking the last drops from his cock. He kissed the man's lips then moved to his opened shirt to kiss the hairy chest. He licked each nipple and moved his mouth to the stomach and the cock that dangled out of the open fly.
"Can't do more boy" the man said "stop now"
Calstood up "Yes Sir" he waited nearly at attention like soldiers he had seen. The man moved his hand over Cal's bare body.
"You'd make a good slave boy" the said "very obedient, are you?"
"I guess I am Sir" Cal said wanting to remain there for the man to play with, pet, use again.
"Hmm talk to Abe" he said pulling Cal's shirt down and his shorts back up from his ankles.
"Wait here till I leave"
Calreached and buttoned the man's shirt. He moved the cock that had been part of his own body inside the man's pants and zipped up the fly.
"Thank you boy" the man said
"Thank YOU SIR" Cal said liking the relationship.
"So you want to do more?" Abe, the name of the newspaper reading man asked Cal.
"Uh I guess, that guy was uh you know something" he said blushing at his admission. Someone else knew he was a queer slut he realized and he felt embarrassed for the first time, even though it wasn't news to Abe.
"Think about it and come back when you're ready. Friday nights are good, come after midnight, like 2 am. And we'll keep you as long as you can handle it" Abe said matter of factly "It pays good" he handed a roll of money to Cal.
Caldidn't want the money. He had a man make love to him for the first time. It wasn't like the other times. He hesitated and Abe pressed the money to his palm.
"Go ahead kid it makes them feel in control and you like that don't you?" the looked into Cal's grey round eyes that made his youthful face look wiser then his age.
"Yes SIR" Stood erect smiling, realizing he was still discovering parts of him that he didn't know existed.
Two weeks passed by. Cal didn't want to do any more quick sex. He wanted to remember that night when the man really had him. He finally went to see Abe. It was after midnight and on a Friday.
"So you're back" Abe said without looking up.
"Is there anyway to know when that guy, you know the last one I was with, is coming back?" Cal asked.
"Kid I don't know who that was, I don't know any of em. I just get em hooked up and collect. If you want to find out yourself, chances are he's in the back. If you're ready stall 8. Are you ready?"
Calwasn't sure what that all meant. But if the man he sought was "in the back" as Abe said, he wanted to go. If he didn't find him, he'd leave.
As if hearing his thoughts Abe added "Remember once you go in, you can't leave on your own. We decide when you can go, we control you, understand boy?" Abe stood and looked mean now. Cal was sure it was for effect.
"Yes Sir" Cal said and turned.
The line of stalls was long and turned a corner to where more stalls existed. There were more then Cal thought. The numbers were faded or scratched. Finally the last one had an "8" on it and he entered the door marked for handicapped use.
It was large even larger then most handicap stalls he had seen. A tall thin closet was on the walls on either side of the toilet.
He looked in one and saw shelves of toilet paper and toilet seat covers. The other one was different. First of all, the name ABE was stenciled on it. The lock was unlocked and the inside was pitch black.
Caldidn't know what to do next. He waited.
"GO IN KID" the voice said. Abe had opened the door, the left door.
Calsqueezed himself easily into the closet and the back opened when he put his hand on it.
There was an eerie blue light there. The odor was like a locker room. He saw shapes of men moving about the room which seemed even larger then the MENS BATHROOM.
"You here first time boy?" a voice asked.
"Yes Sir" Cal said to the anonymous man. The hands began to strip him. Cal let them hoping whoever it was wanted him the way the man had before.
"NICE" the voice said "YOUR CLOTHES WILL BE HERE WHEN WE'RE DONE WITH YOU" the voice growled more then spoke. The hands that had removed his shirt and shorts were on his buttocks.
"NO LIMITS, JUST DO WHAT YOU"RE TOLD, UNDERSTAND?"
Calstood at attention "YES SIR" he said loudly. He heard laughing.
"Hot one here men" The voice seemed to say to the others as his arm moved Cal forward into a room full of mystery that would change Cal.
Calblinked in the sun. He was starving. Hours had passed. He had even slept some while housed in a metal cage. Released he was pushed, pulled, sucked, spanked, pinched and fucked again.
His ass was as sore as his jaws. Still inside him the feeling of cocks existed, though there was, of course none now.
The two one hundred dollar bills made his rear pocket bulge along with the piece of paper with a name and phone number.
"When you're ready to serve full time, call me boy"
Calfelt the hand stick the paper in his rear pocket and squeeze his somewhat bruised and sore butt cheek.
The sun felt good. He removed his shirt to feel it over him and walked toward the lake where Sunday strollers walked by.
He sat on the cement lakeside and stared out at the water. There was a month left of classes and then a summer with unknown experiences after that.
He didn't feel sexy or like he did after that man had made love to him. But he had learned that being handled, used, tortured even, he was different, far different then the boy who masturbated looking out the window at the wooded area only a few weeks before.
It wasn't the money, he said to himself as if an argument had occurred. He'd go back to the building and hopefully would find the guy sometime. It would take time, more encounters and maybe another weekend like the one just about over.
He sighed.
"You ok?" the voice deep and velvety made him jerk his head aside.
"Uh yea, just you know tired" Cal said stretching his bare arms skyward.
"Good just thought you looked uh you know like you were going to walk into the water for ever" the man smiled. He wore running shorts. His body hair glistened with the sweat his jog had created.
"Gotta go hit the john, glad you're ok" his hand patted Cal's shoulder and squeezed. Cal's eyes watched him jog across the green past the closest bathroom toward the wooded area.
He stood and followed. After all it wasn't about the money, not at all.