Back in the late 50's the word for homosexuality was not "gay" it was "queer" and just the thought of being called queer was enough to frighten you to death. I lived in one of the larger New England cities. We all walked to our schools up until High School.
I had been attracted to boys since I was seven years old and even in the first grade I would go down to the basement bathroom just to see if there was another boy taking a piss. The urinal was this long black slate wall with a trough in the floor with water running through it constantly. Every now and then another boy would be there and I would get my thrill just by seeing his dick. Then I would go home and hump the pillow until I would orgasm.
Later when I went to the third grade in another school within walking distance they had a gym and showers stalls each for two boys. By now I had developed secret crushes on two particular boys. Most of the kids in my school were Italian like me and like me there cocks were intact. One day I was in the stall with Frankie and I saw that he had a huge cock for our age. By the time we were thirteen was already considered a stud by most of the girls and I could see why. He was handsome and very sexy. But he was so straight and if I gave a hint of liking him he and his gang would have killed me. So I my pleasure was derived in the middle of the night when everyone in my house was asleep and I could hump my "Frankie" until I came. Or I could jerk off in the bathroom right after school.
The other boy that I had a huge crush on was the cousin of my best friend Rob. One night as the sun was going down Rob ask me if I new about sex and I said I did. He asked me if I ever got a hard-on and I told him that I was hard right then. He asked to see it so we went into a high grass area and I pulled out my cock. By that time I was already around seven inches. His was around four and a half. As soon as he saw it he said "wow that is big. It is almost as big as my cousin Anthony's". Anthony was the one I had this crush on. Rob and I became jerk off buddies for the next three years.
Anthony and I were bigger than most kids in our class and he and I use to like wrestle on the grass competing with each other to see who was strongest. I fondly remember one particular time when I had him pinned down and had my crotch pressed directly on top of his. We had blue jeans on at the time. I could feel his massive bulge under mine. I held him there for a couple of minutes and he let me. I remember this so clearly because it was the first time that I ejaculated without ever touching my cock. Anthony was also straight and I was too scared to let him know how I felt about him so much to my regret nothing ever came of it.
When it came time for us to graduate Junior High, I decided to go to a different school than most of my friends because I wanted to pursue a vocational curriculum. Now I had to take a public bus. On the bus were some students from a neighboring small town and that is where I met Donald. We were fifteen at the time. I pretty much kept to myself on the bus but Donald would occasionally sit in the seat next to me. We would ride to bus down Broadway and then walk the rest of the way to our respective schools, about a quarter of a mile.
My hormone were raging all the time and I lusted after so many young boys. It was hell trying to keep my hard-on hidden because I didn't want my secret revealed. At that time the jeans and slacks we wore were fairly tight, not like today baggy sloppy pants.
This one particular day Donald came and sat on the bus next to me. He said " I bet that I can make you get a hard-on" I said how can you do that. He then lowered his hand between us and grabbed my ass cheek and squeezed it intermittently. I told him that I was hard already. he got excited and said "let me see". I got so embarrassed and scared and told him to go sit somewhere else on the bus. He did. But when we got off the bus and started down the side street leading to the other main street he again asked me to let him see my cock. I kept pushing him away and he kept getting in front of me looking down at my crotch. I wore tight briefs so he could not see my hard-on. I kept telling him to stop it others would catch on to what he was doing. He relented when I promised him that I would let him see it if we could find a private place. After about another ten minute walk he found a small alley in between two brick buildings. I agreed so we went into the alley and sure enough it was hidden from anything near. I tock out my the eight inch uncut cock and he was so excited. I asked him to take his out and he did. His was around five an a half inches but as thick and mine and also uncut. He liked to pull his skin back so I saw what a beautiful cock head he had. I was so hot I could have shot my load again without touching my cock.
Donald asked if he could touch it and of course by this time I wanted nothing more and he began to stroke me telling me how wonderful it felt in his hand. I then reached over and grabbed his cock and started stroking him. This was the first time I had felt another guys cock and it felt so wonderful I can still feel that sensation that I felt that day. Then he then asked me if he could suck it. I was getting very nervous because now if we took too much longer we would be late for school. He was so excited and persistent that he just dropped to his knees and took my cock in his mouth and started to suck me off. My knees wobbled and I felt electricity throughout my body right down my cock into his mouth. It wasn't ten seconds when I t old him I was going to cum. He got off my cock and we both stroked our own cock and shot our cum pointing to the same spot between us onto the pavement. We quickly put our cock in our pants and hurried off to our individual schools. We just made it in time. My mind was on a roller coaster all day at one time euphoric and at another totally depressed because my secret was now out and I feared he would tell everyone.
As it turned out he kept the secret he too wanted it kept. I later learned that he had a friend that would sleep over at his house and they would have sex with each other.
Perhaps I will write of other encounters.
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