I know I've been gone for a while. Sorry about that. Well, now that school has started, I am home a lot more and my social activities have become fewer, so that means I'll start writing again! (yea!!)
To the 3 people who E-mailed me about the last chapter...thank you. To all of those who didn't...why not?
OK, so if your under 18 (right...like most of you aren't) go away (dont get caught). If you are offended by gay issues...why the hell are you reading this? As always, I'm not saying that any of the people mentioned are gay...we just wish they were...this is FICTION!!!!
Steven and Brian Chapter 14 ====================================
===Brian's POV=== I opened my eyes as I slowly drifted into consciesness. Slowly I remembered the events from the day before. Everything had been perfect until I ruined it. I felt guilty. I knew Steven had gone to a lot of effort over the last few days to make me happy and comfortable. It seemed I was doing nothing in return. But then I had to smile. He was such a wonderful man. The first person I have ever been happy with. Better yet, he loved me. For some reason, with all my imperfections, Steven had taken me into his heart and cared for me in some of the most painful moments of my life.
With these thoughts I turned over in the water and slowly moved so that I could wrap my arms around him. I knew what I felt was love. I had never felt like this before. I was sadened that I couldn't feel his skin against mine, but I knew he was touching me, and I rested my head over his heart, listening to his deep breathing and heartbeat. The feeling was...utopia. That is the only possible way to describe the moment. I felt Steven move slightly beneath me and stir from his sleep.
"Good morning babe." His deep voice vibrated around me.
"Good morning."
"Feeling better?"
"Yes. Thank you."
"You had me really scared last night you know. I had to try really hard to keep from totally freaking out when I saw you like that. I think it hurt me as much as it hurt you."
"I'm sorry."
"For what?"
"For ruining the perfect day you made for me."
"You didn't do anything to ruin anything. You ended up in my arms at the end of it. I call that pretty fulfilling."
"Really?"
"Yea! If I keep up the nice guy act I might get something more from you."
"AH!" I punched him in the arm, as if either one of us could feel it. "I don't know. I think I am going after Lance Bass. Those eyes really get to me."
"Uh oh. I've got competition."
"You better believe it buddy."
"Yea, as if all those screaming women scare me!"
"Hey, if it weren't for all those screaming women you might not have ever found me. I would probably still be working in Long John Silvers."
"Eeeew!" we both said in unison, and that gave us the giggles.
"What do you say to breakfast?"
"As long as it doesn't involve snails."
"Oh no! -Now- what are we going to eat?" We both chuckled at that.
"You need to shave."
"So do you."
"Your point?"
"Lets get out of the tub and get cleaned up and then I'll bring you some breakfast in bed. But Brian, be careful...I know you've lived blind, but having to sense of touch it a whole nother ball game. Watch everything you do closely so you don't hurt yourself."
"Yes daddy."
"And don't you forget it boy."
I stuck my tounge out at him and got out of the tub. He told me to keep it in my mouth unless I wanted to put it to better use. We both rinsed ourselves off in the shower and threw on a some boxers.
"You know what?" I asked
"What?"
"I don't want breakfast in bed."
"OK, no breakfast in bed then."
"Aren't you going to ask why?"
"Nope." I gave him and evil glare and he smiled and asked "Why not Brian?!?!" in a goofy voice.
"Because I dont want to be away from you for even a moment."
"I'm not complaining."
"Good. I don't want you to be sick of me already."
"I don't think that will ever happen."
"I hope not. But if you do, please tell me. I don't want to go through the whole 'I hate you' break-up process. I would rather salvage what I can."
"Don't talk about an ending to something that has just begun." He said gently puttin his hands on my cheeks and turning my head up to meet his eyes. "We both know that this relationship is going to be difficult. I know we can do it Brian." He closed his eyes for a moment, as if in intense thought, then opened them quickly and began to speak calmly. "I don't think you know what you have done to me Brian. Just two weeks ago, I was a very cold, hard person. Not that I had a terrible personality or anything. I had my good moments. But I had nothing to live for, nothing to lose. Not I have so much to live for, and everything to lose."
We stood in silence for a moment before I leaned foward and pressed my lips against his. It wasn't a passionate kiss, or anything fancy. Just a simple kiss. Meant to convey emotion, and it did just that. We soon seperated and continued to get dressed. No words were spoken as we walked down the stairs together, hand in hand. Eventhough I couldn't feel his skin, I could feel his heat, and everytime we looked at each other I though I was going to pass out from the intense looks he was giving me.
When we walked into the kitchen, all activity stopped. All the guys stopped chewing their breakfast, and Marie was holding flowers just above a vase. It was an interesting sight to see.
"I'm fine guys." They all gave me doubtful looks. "Really I am guys. I had an allergic reaction to some food, and Steven took care of me, and I'm ok. I promise."
"Is it ok to give you a hug now?" asked Nick.
"Yea." Nick stood from where he was eating and gave me a quick hug.
"You gave us quite a scare last night." I looked up and saw Kevin with his arms out-streched and I moved on to him. As soon as everybody got their hugs, I drug Steven over to the cabinets with me and started looking for something to eat, only to have Marie shoo me out of the area and to the table.
"You just sit down right here and your breakfast will be out shortly."
"Yes ma'am!"
"Oh, and he has manners!" she turned to Steven and pointed the large wooden spoon in her hands at him, not more than an inch from his face. "You keep him, you hear?"
"I plan on it."
"You had better be!" I said, leaning around Marie so that I could make eye contact with Steven. His only response was to mouth the words 'I love you'.
I smiled. So sue me, it was the only thing I could do. And on top of that, he was giving me that look. I couldn't believe he was turning me on at the kitchen table. That wasn't fair play because I couldn't do anything back without it being obvious.
Breakfast came and went. Nothing too exciting. Who am I shitting? Steven was there! He is so awsome. I can't believe he loves me. Me of all people. He hasn't even gone to work in the last two weeks we have been together. He has devoted every minute of his time to me.
After breakfast, we all walked down to the art gallery, and Steven told us about each picture than hung on the wall. I couldn't belive he knew all that. Yet another thing that made me smile. How did I get to be so lucky. The entire morning was spent in leisure. What more could I ask for?
Well, I know what I would ask for, but I didn't think Steven would be too happy with me. I knew that our relatoinship was new, but I was sure that I loved him. I was also sure that he loved me. What I really wanted was to make to make love with him. Steven was right though, I hadn't been ready earlier. But I was over the things that had happened to me. I wanted to show my love to Steven. But, if he wanted us to wait, I would wait forever.
===Steven's POV=== Did Brian know how sexy he was? Just sitting next him turns me on. I quickly ushered the thoughts out of my head. When Brian was ready, he would say something...and I was content with that. His happiness was all that mattered. I would wait forever just for Brian. I loved him.
The rest of the day went on. We watched a quick movie, and even took another bath together. Maybe Brian was ready. But all the happiness of the day was ruined by one simple thing.
The ringing of the telephone. ======================================== OK, I know it was really short, but I at least got something up right? Anyway, E-mail me and let me know how you liked it.
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