DISCLAIMER: This story is just a work of fiction, it does not mean to imply anything about the real feelings or sexuality of the characters. I am not related in any way to 'N Sync or their management, record company, blah blah blah. Also, English is not my native language, so please forgive me if I make any mistakes. I want to thank the four people wro read the first part of my story, thank you Red, Sarah, Daniel and Adam. You're the best!
Tearing up my ass
Chapter 2: JC
By Rick - jc.chasez@gmx.net
February 2, 1999
Dear Justin's Diary:
Hey, this is JC. I didn't know that Justin was keeping this diary... I saw him writing things on a notebook, but that was years ago. Anyway, he asked me to share my feelings with him, and that's just what I'm about to do. We met when we were in the Mickey Mouse Club, of course now every teenage girl (and many boys) in the world know our complete lives, so I won't bother telling you when did that happen and stuff... I felt something for him right away, but it wasn't love, I guess I just felt protective... well, I'd like to think that I didn't feel something for a kid, I'm not like that. He was so childish... he still is! Ooow, he just hit me for saying that. I told him to go away while I write this, he can make me dinner, hehe. So, for many years I was like his mother, someone would make him cry and I would be there to console him. We were best friends and hung out together, although I sometimes felt a little embarrassed, he is five years younger than me, after all. Suddenly, there was no more MMC and I went back home, thinking that I will never see again any of the people I met there, including Justin. You know that saying... something about that you never know what you have until you loose it? well, that's exactly what happened. The days went by and I couldn't think of anything but that blonde curly kid and his perky attitude... his round tight butt... oops! One day, I was feeling down and he called, he told me that he was in this new group, that maybe we could make it, and that they were missing a singer. Of course I said yes, it would mean the chance to be with him again. When he saw me, he jumped in excitement and I wanted to kiss those sexy lips... We started with all those rehearsals and sometimes I couldn't help but to be a complete bitch. I felt that we were too similar to the Fagstreet Gays... haha, I shouldn't be so mean, but they made me mad when they called us 'N Suck and 'N Stink... later I had my revenge... but that's another story, and maybe Justin shouldn't hear from it. What else? well, when the dancing began, I couldn't believe what my eyes saw, Justin was so hot... I know that most people sin when they see the video where he appears in his wifebeater, you know, showing his armpits and stuff... I was actually mad that our management made him do that just to sell more records, but I was also enjoying the view. It was even better, because I had the real thing, even if it was from a distance. He insisted in sharing rooms with me and I was happy to comply. He was always under the covers and changed in the bathroom... on few occasions did I get the chance to see his little butt in his underwear. He didn't know this... he'll find out now, but when we slept together, and he would snuggle up with me, I couldn't help but to throw a bone... I rubbed it on his soft buns and I would caress his body a little. A couple of times I even had the nerve to feel his balls and dick through his shorts!!! I know, I'm a pervert, but I couldn't help it. He wasn't that little anymore, like 16 already, and his cock sure wasn't that of a little child, he's well endowed... here I go again, bad JC! Since I was so horny, I had to find someone to get off, maybe I'll tell Justin of those times. But when I was fucking someone, I could only think of him, squirming under me while I plowed his little hole. And with time, he has only become hotter, I couldn't help but stare at his ass all the time, just longing... So, it was that way until the day before yesterday, it was Justin's birthday and I bought him some presents, I never know what to get him, it has to be something expensive though. I was planning on getting a big cake and then get inside it with just my underwear, you know, and then come out and jump him, hahaha. Just joking. At night we went to this club and I don't know what got into me, but I drank a lot, well, I didn't take so many drinks, but they were strong. Justin had to bring me home, I wasn't actually that drunk, but I was enjoying the attention. I felt him getting the room's key and he actually rubbed my crotch!
Then, he took my shoes and socks off, touching my toes. When he was unzipping my pants, I had to get up, because I didn't want to get a stiffy right there. He helped me to the bathroom, and well, when we came back I had to take my chances. I told him how much he meant to me and that he was my whole world. I stared at him and saw something in his eyes giving me the go-ahead. I leaned forward and I kissed his lips softly, barely. He backed off and looked at me surprised, I was like, fuck! I really did it this time... I thought that I was wrong and that maybe my imagination had gone too far. All kind of thoughts raced through my mind at once, what if he hates me now, maybe I'll have to leave the group and never see him again... fuck! fuck! fuck! Something snapped me out of this, he told me he loved me too. I couldn't believe my ears, what if I was really drunk and making up stuff? I figured that I could always blame the alcohol for my acts, so I went for it. I started kissing his lovely face, like I had always dreamed of. I had to touch his naked body, I could never have imagined the feeling of taking his shirt off, expose those muscles... I ran my tongue over his nipples, I wanted to swallow him complete. Then I took off his shoes and socks. I didn't stop there because I was too horny already. I unbuttoned his pants and took them off too. I felt I was going to explode when I had him in his white boxer briefs! I almost ripped off my clothes, I couldn't get undressed fast enough. We were both in our underwear and I couldn't keep my hands off his butt. Finally, the big prize was awaiting for me, my reward after all these years... I slowly uncovered him. It was like when you get your presents for Christmas, you kinda know what you'll get, but no one can take away the look of happiness on your face... I could feel his heart beating loudly when I began to lick him all over. I got his balls in my mouth. The smell and the taste were intoxicating. I licked his shaft, savoring him little by little. When I got to the head, his eyes were closed and his mouth open, trying to breathe. I don't know why, but we never talked about our sexual partners, I guess that I didn't want to find out that he was screwing someone and then it would be painful for me. And I figure he felt the same way. When we were younger he used to ask me about stuff, because it's always less embarrassing to ask your best friend, and I told him what he wanted to know, but it was just like that. Anyway, I thought that he was having sex with every girl he could, later he told me that he was saving himself for me. I was touched and I regret I didn't do the same, but who could have known? Back to the good part, I sucked him until he came and I swallowed every drop of his sweet nectar. I hope he has a good reserve, because I intend to drink it all. I still had doubts at that moment, maybe it was all a moment of horniness, and I couldn't make him do anything else.But I was wrong! he was eager to experiment, so he made his own trip down my body. I thought I was going to sprinkle him right there... haha, how gross! but it's true. He licked my chest and my navel. When he got to my cock, it was like reaching nirvana or something. I felt just too lucky. And the best part, he was willing to go further! he asked me to make love to him and take his virginity. Never in my wildest dreams could I have thought that this day would arrive. I was shaking, but I couldn't let him down and besides, I would have sold my soul for this moment to happen, so I wasn't about to chicken out in this moment. I kissed him for a long time while I was rubbing his ass. I had him lay face down on the bed and got a good look at the place where my dick was going in. I swear that I've never been so horny in my life, I could have melted ice with my hands... With my tongue I reached for his virgin unexplored rosebud. I ran it through every wrinkle, all along that hairless paradise. I worked on him for what it seemed to me like hours, but actually no more than 15 minutes or so. I was so anxious... still I didn't want to hurt him, I wanted him to remember this night his whole life as something beautiful, not just a guy humping him and getting his nuts off. I turned him over and asked him one more time if he was sure. When he said he was, I started the first penetration of his life. It would be hopefully the first of many times together. He was sweating and grimacing. I couldn't help but to feel extremely aroused, even if I was somewhat worried. When I got all of myself inside him, I let him get used to the feeling. After some more minutes, I started thrusting back and forth. His insides were like some hot velvety stuff and my dick felt awesome. I knew he was now experimenting pleasure too, he was smiling at me and moaning. I kissed him the whole time. I can't get enough of his lips. Finally I couldn't contain anymore and I came with a force I had never felt before. He did too. I kept my arms around him and we slowly drifted to sleep... When we woke up in the morning, I saw his face, so peaceful and smiling. I know that this is where I belong, home is wherever Justin is. We will have a difficult time being together. The world is still not ready for us to be completely happy, but I sure as hell won't give up. Justin, as you read this, I want you to know that I will love you forever.
Josh.
Ok, how was it? I want to hear all possible comments and suggestions. Hopefully there will be a chapter 3, but I need some ideas. Next time, JC gets his own diary and we'll read some of his secrets. Write me at jc.chasez@gmx.net Rick