The sound of Starting over- Ch.7
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"Dude I'm not playing anymore I'm over getting my ass kicked by some little kid!" I yell laughing.
"Whatever dude you just suck at video games period!" Jake says turning off the play station.
Liam walks into the room, as Jake heads up to his room. "Sup?" I say.
He sits next to me on the couch. "How's the ankle feeling?"
I move the boot, and shrug my shoulders. "Good I guess."
We sit there in awkward silence, for a few minutes before I get fed up with it, "Spit it out Liam you have been acting fucking weird since the night I broke my ankle." I tell him.
He shifts uncomfortably, "Chandler told me."
"Told you what?" I say getting more annoyed with this shit.
He fidgets with his hands for a second, "He told me that he came on to you and kissed you...I didn't know he was gay." He blurts out.
I laugh, "I mean who could blame him I am fucking sexy."
"Dude seriously I feel like a jack ass. I kind of flipped out on him in the hospital."
I give him a funny look, "isn't he your best friend?"
"Yeah, and I haven't talked to him for a few weeks. I feel horrible about how I acted." He confesses.
"So call him up then. Stop being a bitch about things." I tell him getting up from the couch while looking for my crutches. I can't deal with his shit right now, I need to find my pain medicine.
I find my crutches on the other side of the coffee table; I pick them up carefully and head off to my room. I pass Helen as I am on the way to my room, "You okay honey?"
"I'm fine." I tell her not wanting to talk at all.
I slam my door, and crutch over to my bedside table and reach for the pill bottle, I pick it up and realize it's empty and I don't have any refills left. I get pissed and throw the bottle across the room.
I think back to what Liam was saying, I feel like a major dick about what I said to Chandler, it's the reason why I wanted to take more pain medication to get a little high off of it and forget about it.
I reach for my phone that I threw onto my bed, I pick it up and text Chandler. -Hey-
C: Hey.
L: What's up?
C: What do you want Landon?
L: Whoa man chill, I just wanted to see what's up.
C: I can't talk right now.
I text him back asking why, but he doesn't respond to me. I hate being ignored, I like to be acknowledged. I shake my head feeling the flood of memories that I tried to drown out, about how she had me wrapped around her little finger. She would have me texting her while I was in class, saying how hard I was and ready for her. How she loved giving me the attention that I would never go without it. Well she fucking lied to me.
I hear a knock on my door, "Go away!" I shout.
"Landon it's me." I hear Helen's voice.
"I don't want to talk Helen!" I yell.
She comes into the room anyway. "Well I don't really care if you don't want to talk you need to listen."
I sigh, "Is this the part where you try to act like a responsible parent? If that is the case you're a little too fucking late." I say with as much sarcasm as I can muster.
I don't expect it but she slaps me so hard across the face, and I reach for my face. "You listen hear Landon Ty, I will not deal with your hurtful words, or your poor attitude toward me. I know you don't want to be here. I love having my baby here, but I don't like the asshole he has turned into. Maybe part of it is my fault, and I will accept that blame! But I will no longer sit here and feel guilty about how you turned out. We all want you here, everyone does, Hank loves you like his own son. You have two step brothers who want to connect with you so bad, but you won't give either of them the time of day."
"YOU ARE TO BLAME FOR ALL OF THIS!" I shout at her.
"No I am not, your father is just as much to blame as I am. You want to know the real reason why I left?"
"Yeah Helen how about you just tell me the truth for once!"
"Your father wasn't a saint! I walked in on him cheating, our marriage was falling apart way before I left. There was no love left between us. The countless arguments over stupid things, he would stay out late while I would take care of you, I had no life and I couldn't handle it anymore!"
"Dad cheated on you?" I ask in disbelief.
"Yes he did, he cheated a lot on me. When I told him I was leaving he said not to contact you or him ever again. Of course when he sobered up he changed his mind, but I was gone by then. Your father fell apart Landon, and I couldn't help him. I wanted to, I wanted you here with me not with him. I am sorry for how you felt abandoned, but I am not sorry I left your father. I would like to start our relationship over. I know it may take awhile for you, but it's what I want. I know you're angry and you have years of pent up anger in you, but here we are Landon. We have to do something because this whole dance around the pain isn't working anymore. You will start seeing a therapist for your anger. I know there is something you aren't telling me, and I can't force it out of you and I wished I could take all the anger and pain away but I can't."
I just look at her, I can't stop the sob that escapes from me, and that's when I realized maybe I was fighting against myself. She wraps her arms around me, and squeezes me into her, "I'm sorry, I am just so fucked up..."
"No baby you're not fucked up, just things have happened beyond your control. We just have to start letting each other in. You are my baby boy, we can work this all out. You don't have to do it alone." She says holding me.
I never let myself feel this pain it's so sharp. I let myself cry for once, I couldn't tell you the last time I felt this emotional pull in me. "What if I am fucked up, and you can't fix me?" I ask in a voice that I don't believe is even mine.
"Baby I promise you aren't. We just have to stop the fighting, I will do whatever I can to help ease the hurt I caused, but you also have to let go of that anger it's eating you alive inside. You are not supposed to be an angry person. You used to be so happy, so funny, you let that anger turn into hostility. You have used this anger to build up this wall around you, and your heart. Tell me has anyone ever been able to get close to you?"
I shake my head, "if you let people get close, they hurt you." I tell her.
She just pulls me in tighter for a hug. I try to stop the tears, and I try to stop feeling safe, because this is the same woman that left that gaping hole in my heart. The same woman that took that innocent boy and turned him into what I am now.
Chandler's POV
I Look down at the phone, and back up towards the street. "Where is he?" I ask out loud.
I finally see Kale pull up in his mother's car; I barely let him put the car in park before I am opening the door. "I didn't think you were coming." I say.
He looks over at me, "are you okay?"
I shrug my shoulders, "Can we just please, please get away from this place." I beg.
"Chandler, you don't look good at all. Do I need to take you to the hospital?"
"NO!" I almost shout at him.
I fold my hands into my lap and I let the tears flow. I don't even try to stop them, there is no point, "I'm sorry." I choke out.
Kale put his hand on my shoulder, and I flinched. "Look man you are scaring me. We will be at my house soon, but I need to know did he hit you again? What is going on?"
I can't tell him anything right now, I don't think it would even come out in English or anything close to it. I told Kale everything over the last few weeks, ever since Liam and I had the huge fall out. He has been a great friend, but these past few days I haven't been at school or answered a call, I just couldn't do it anymore.
He doesn't push me to talk anymore and we soon pulled into his driveway. His house wasn't huge, nothing like Landon's or Liam's. It was nice; nothing over whelming just warm and inviting. Kale runs around to my side of the door and opens it up. "Let's go in."
"Mom, I have a Chandler over here! We will be in my room." He shouts.
He leads me into his bedroom, and I sit on the queen size bed, he sits next to me cross legged. "Hey man, you look really sick. What is going on?"
I wrap my arms around myself, "I...I...I haven't slept in three days. He took my... all my pills from my room the other week. I can't think straight!" I tell him not able to hold in the emotions right now.
"Hey, hey it's ok. Who took the medicine? Luis? Chandler is that bruising around your neck?"
I just nod my head, and pull my knees to my chest, that's when he notices my shirt is ripped as well. I am still shaking, but then again I don't think I have stopped shaking since Luis came after me.
He pulls me into him, "What happened?"
"I walked in on him and my sister arguing and he slapped her, and I got in-between them. He slapped me around; I hid in my room from him. He came into my room the next night, and he tried to force me to suck him off. He said he knew I was a faggot sissy boy, and that he wanted to work my mouth over with his dick. I kicked him, and that's when he hit me again. I tried to get off my bed and he shoved me to the ground. He straddled me and started to choke me. I couldn't breathe, he kept telling me that if I ever got in his way again, he would fuck me like a bitch and make sure I never breathe a word of it. I locked myself in my room after he left. I haven't slept since then. I haven't eaten or left my room." I tell him trying to keep my panic under control.
Kale pulls me in closer to him, "I am so sorry. Look we need to do something, about him! He can't stay at your place anymore you have to talk to your sister."
"I have tried she doesn't care about me, she doesn't even want me. All she cares about are the drugs and that asshole!"
"Have you talked to Liam?"
I shake my head violently no. "He hates me, he fucking hates me because I'm gay..." I say losing my breath.
"Chandler, you need to calm down!"
I just shake my head, my breath starts to shorten, I try to just stop but my head hurts so much, I can't process anything. I start to see black spots in my vision; I can't hear Kale's words. I see him move in front of me and then turn his head and yell. ----------------------------------------------------------------------
Sorry it has been so long since I posted a chapter but I have been busy working on Alive in the Lights, I know this is short I am preparing to go on vacation soon, but I hope this will hold you all over! I wanted a darker chapter to express things and hopefully some good will come out of it comments are always appreciated