Author's Note: Hello again. This is Wes. This story was inspired by some one I used to hold dear to my heart but... Oh well. Any way, there are some great stories out there. Some are When You Say Nothing At All, Just Beginning, Brian's Seven Sea's of Loneliness, and others. If I was to mention all of them then I wouldn't have time to write. I'm not quite sure how to title this so if someone can think of a better title let me know by sending it to wesleym2@yahoo.com. Who ever sends the best title will get an early edition to every installment of this story.
Legal Stuff: If you are underage in your state or country to read sexually explicit material then you should not be here or if you have a problem with homosexuality then leaves as well. Also this is a pure fiction story, it is not to imply that any of the guys from NSYNC are bi or gay. (But we all can dream can't we). Also give NSYNC your support through their tough time. They are a good bunch of guys and they need the support of their fans. Well I'll shut up now so you can read the story.
It was a week into the tour and me and Justin hardly had time alone. But when we did it was special. I had decided to have a single rose placed in his dressing room before each performance. In doing that if he was in a bad mood he had a smile when he saw the rose. He knew who it was from, and that just made his heart jump. We haven't had sex since the last night we were in Orlando. But we didn't need sex to keep the relationship going. We were heading for Denver when I came down with a cold. That's was just great because if I stayed around the guys they could catch it. It hurt me but I made Justin sleep in his own bunk and I slept in another one. I figured it would last a day or two. I continued to do work and watch out for the boys. We would be staying in Denver for a week and then out for Tulsa. Well in Denver they had two days off and one day of signing autographs and a photo shoot and one concert. On the second day off I got better and only had a little bit of a stuffy nose. I was able to sleep with Justin then. I decided to stay in while the other guys went to a club I made Justin go so that he could be with his friends. While I rested. After about an hour of just sitting there I decided to go for a walk. I had all the paper work and passes to get back in so I was ready. I was told by Hotel staff that there was a park three blocks north of the hotel. So I left a message for Justin and the guys in case they got back before I did.
The park was about medium size. There weren't many out but that was okay. I walked around the park for a couple of hours and decided to rest on a near by bench. I sat down and just watched the night sky. I never heard anyone walk up to me so when someone spoke to me I jumped.
"Hey, aren't you with that group NSYNC?"
"Why do you want to know?" I said as I tried to see who it was. The mans face was one that portrayed that of a hard life. He seemed to have a sour disposition from the get go.
"Just wandering."
"Oh okay, yeah I am, I am their p.a." He just smiled but said nothing. I looked down at my watch and realized that I needed to get back. I told the guys that I would be back around 10:00 and it was already 9:45. "I'm sorry but I have to go now. It was nice to meet you...? I never got your name.?" I turned around to see him and I see him holding a gun. "Wh...what are you doing?"
"Oh don't worry it won't hurt ... for long." The man said as he smiled. I was very scared. I wish now I hadn't went out for a walk. What was he going to do?
"Wh...why?"
"Let's just say that I hate all boy-bands with a passion and anyone working with or for them. And I know you got a good bit of money on you so hand it over or else." The truth was I left my money at the hotel.
"I didn't bring any with me. I just went out for a walk."
"Bullshit either you hand over the money or you'll wish you had!!!!"
"I said I don't have any on me." I said very nervously. I heard a scream from somewhere in the park and then two gun shots. I fell to the ground when the bullet hit me. The pain I felt was in my leg. and in my right shoulder. The pain was extreme, soon I was unconscious.
At the same time at the Club
"Guys I'm gonna just this dance out okay" Justin says. Just before the guys get up a bright light flashes before them. In the mist of the light an angel apears.
"Do not be afraid, Wes is in danger! He has been shot twice and is alone. I have placed in your mind where his exact place is. Hurry!!!" And the light was gone. Immediately The guys left the club.
Back to where I was
The blackness was broken by a white light. In that light was angel. He was caring and peaceful. I wasn't feeling any pain at the moment.
"Wes is not time for you to leave this world. This is not God's plan for you. Justin is on his way. I am here to keep you alive untill you can get some help. I wish I could cure you but the one who shot you was the devil. He is trying to stop God's plan with you and Justin and the rest of NSYNC. Yes the ones who taught you that loving someone of the same sex is wrong but I am here to let you know it is not wrong. God is love and he wants his people to love who ever they wish to love. Here they come Wes I will go for now please don't let your love for Justin faultor or the devil wins." And with that he left and the pain was back.
"WES!!!!!!!" I heard Justin scream. "Wes please stay with me babe." He said when he reached me.
"Justin calm down you must stay calm." It was J.C. I tried to speak.
"Babe, help me, the...pain." I said as tears fell from my eyes. Just after they got here an ambulance arrived.
"Please step back so we can get him loaded and to the hospital." I heard that voice and I knew that voice. I looked up at the one who said that and saw it was the angel who came to me. Justin saw that to. But he kept quiet. They got me preped and loaded. They let Justin ride with me to keep me calm. When they start to the hospital I blacked out again.
From Justin's Veiw
"Is he going to be okay?" I asked the paramedic.
"I hope so, I think we got to him in time but you really never know." He explained. The rest of the ride was done in silence. When we got to the hospital They took Wes to O.R. to stop the bleeding and repair what they could of the wounds. By now J.C. and the others were here to comfort me.
"Come on Curly, it is going to be okay." Lance said. I just cried on J.C.'s shoulder. We sat there for what seemed hours. When the doctor came out. The look on his face was not very good.
"NOOOOOO!!!! He can't be." Justin cried.
"I'm sorry but he just didn't make it." Then he left. A nurse came out and let the us see Wes one last time. I walked over to the bed and bent down and gave Wes a kiss.
"I love you Wes." All of the sudden there was thunder and bright light every where. I looked and saw the angel that came to us and told us about Wes. I saw a movement to far side of the room. I turned to look and saw a dark shadow cowering back. Then we all heard the angel speak.
"I said this was not the end. God still has use of you Wes. Your life is returned to you." A small ball of light entered Wes's chest and the heart monitor began to beep. The wounds were healed. "Justin God gives love to you and now the power of love has restored Wes to life. In your life you have never turned from God and God has rewarded you. J.C., Chris, Joey, and Lance, you to have been rewarded for you faith in God. I must go now but remember to love all." And the angel left. The doctors came running in to see what was going on. They saw the light but couldn't get in. I was soo happy to have Wes back. I just held on to him for dear life.
Wes's veiw
The doctors checked me over and couldn't figure out how I had just returned to life and perfectly healed. They released me but not after they tore up the death certificate. I was tired and it was late so we all headed to the hotel. The cops never found the shooter, but me and the guys knew who it was.
"Guys make sure you get some rest because you have an autograph signing tomorrow." I reminded them. "Your wake up call will be around 8 in the morning." I got alot of groans but oh well. Me and Justin just laid down in our clothes. He was holding me. I guess he was afraid of me leaving or something but I didn't care. I loved him with all of my heart. I had started to dose when I heard him sniffle. "Justin, babe what is wrong?"
"I was just thinking of what I would have done if you hadn't returned to life."
"And what would you have done?"
"I'm not really sure, promise me you will never leave me ever."
"I promise babe, you know it takes more than death to keep me away from you. But remember your faith Justin, remember God is love and He wants us to love one another." I kissed his hand and he kissed my neck. I giggled because my neck is a very sensitive area. "I love you with all of my heart, body, mind, and soul."
"Diddo." was all he said. Soon we were both asleep. We knew nothing would seperate us ever again. Our love for each other and for God was what made us work. The next morning would be very hectic. Well the next couple of days actually.
It was the day of the concert in Denver. We had done everything we could and was waiting on time to start. Me and Justin sat together on the couch with Lance. Really Justin was laying in my lap but I didn't mind. There was a knock at the door and Justin got up. J.C. got up and answered it.
"Yes?"
"It's time get to your places." We all got up and the guys headed for the stairs to the stage. I went to the side and waited on the show to start. After a minute or so the guys came out and sang `I Want You Back'. When they finished Justin spoke to the crowd.
"How ya'll doin' tonight?" The reply was screams. He just smiled. "Well we are glad you came out to see us tonight and I hope you have a good time." When he finshed J.C. began to speak.
"Hey ya'll you ready to party?" He screams to answer his question. "Ok then be cause `Here We Go'" and then they did the song Here We Go. The guys were doing very well tonight and the crowd was having a good time. They did a couple more songs and took a break. I followed the guys to the dressing room. When they got there I was pulled into a chair and was being prepared to go onstage.
"Guy's what is going on?"
"Well we called Gloria and asked if you could sing her part in Music of My Heart and she said yes. So you have to be ready." Lance said. After make-up I was taken to wardrobe and was given an outfit to wear. When I got it on I was pulled over to to make-up again but this time they did my hair. Then I was done and we all had similar outfits. We then head back on stage.
"He ya'll we have a special guest tonight, he is our p.a. but he is very good singer. So this next song we are going to do with him. Let's welcome Wes Cook." With that I walked out onstage and took my bows. I stood in between Justin and J.C. I heard the music begin and Justin began to sing with his angelic voice.
Justin: You'll never know what you've done for me
What your faith in me has done for my soul
You 'll never know the gift you've given me
I'll carry it with me yeah yeah
When I hear him sing I get goose bumps. I could really feel the love in his voice and so could the crowd.
J.C.: Through the days ahead I think of days before
You made me hope for something better (yes you did)
You made me reach for something more
All of them: You taught me to run
You taught me fly
Helped me to free the me inside
Help me hear the music of my heart
Help me hear the music of my heart
You opened my eyes
You opened the door
To something I 've never known before
And your love is the music of my heart
Music of my heart (music of my heart)
Now it was my turn. Justin echoed what I sang.
Me:You are the one always on my side (always on my side)
Always standing by seeing me through (always standing by)
You are the song that always made me sing (made me sing made me sing)
I'm singing this for you (sing this for you baby)
Every where I go I think of where I've been (think of where I've been)
And are the one who knew me better than anyone ever will again
Thenall of us:You taught me to run you taught me fly (you taught me fly )
Helped me to free the me inside
Help me hear the music of my heart
Help me hear the music of my heart
You opened my eyes
You opened the door
To something I 've never known before (before)
And your love is the music of my heart
Me: What you taught me only your love could teach me
J.C.:And you got through when no one could reach me before
J.C.,and Me :Cause you always saw in me all the best I could
It was you who set me free All:You taught me to run you taught me fly Helped me to free the me inside Help me hear the music of my heart Help me hear the music of my heart
All: You taught me to run you taught me fly Helped me to free the me inside Help me hear the music of my heart Help me hear the music of my heart You opened my eyes You opened the door To something I 've never felt before (never never felt before) And your love is the music of my heart
Justin: The music of my heart
Me: The music of my heart
Me and J.C.: Is the music of my heart
We got a very good reply. We took our bow and I left the stage.
"That was Wes Cook every one. Now this next song is for that special person in your life. Wether is be your boyfriend girlfriend, husband , wife or just your best friend. You know God must have spent a little more time on them." Lance said and every one went wild.
"We would like to dedicate this song to them and to people who are in our lives." Justin added looking straight at me.
Yeah Can this be true? Tell me, can this be real? How can I put into words what I feel? My life was complete I thought I was whole Why do Ifeel like I'm losing control? Never knew that love could feel like this And you changed with just one kiss. How can it be that right here with me There's an angel? t's a miracle
Your Love is like a river Peaceful and deep Your soul is like a secret That I could never keep When I look into your eyes I know it's true God must of spent a little more time on you (a little more time yes he did babe)
In all of creation All things great and small You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than Any diamond or pearl They broke the mold When you came into this world And I'm tryin' hard to figure out Just how I ever did without The warmth ofyour smile The heart of a child That's deep inside It leaves me purified.
Your Love is like a river Peaceful and deep Your soul is like a secret That I could never keep When I look into your eyes I know it's true God must of spent a little more time on you
Never knew that love could feel like this And you changed with just onekiss.
How can it be that right here with me There's an angel? It's a miracle
Your Love is like a river Peaceful and deep Your soul is like a secret That I could never keep When I look into your eyes I know it's true God must of spent a little more time on you A little more time on you
I was crying again from that song. The guys ran off stage and Justin grabbed me and pulled me to the dressing room and gave me a kiss. I didn't remember the rest of the concert because I could only think of Justin and the song he sang to me. What seemed like minutes which was really an hour the guys were finished with the concert. I followed them to their dressing room. They quickly changed and headed for the bus because we had head for Tulsa. I hadn't told Justin or the guys about Scott living not too far from Tulsa. I also decided not to tell them yet. When we got on the bus I sat down in the lounge area. Justin joined me. The other guys had this snile that was like they knew something I didn't. The guys went on to the back to wind down. Justin then got up and turned to me.
"Wes, I know we have only been together for a little over a week, but this just feels right and we also know that God wants us to be together. I love you and I want to be with you for the rest of my life and then afterward in heaven. Wes, what I'm trying to say is... Wes, will you marry me?" He asked while holding in his hand a silver ring in a velvet box.
"Yes Justin I will, marry you." I pulled him into a hug. I sat back and he put the ring on my finger and he put one on his. He then picked me up and took me to his bunk. We laid down and had the most passionate sex we have as yet had. But it wasn't sex we were making love. Sharing love for each other. I looked at my watch and saw we had been making love for five hours. No wander we were tired. But before I could go to sleep J.C. opened the curtain.
"I guess you said yes." He asked with a smile. I knodded and he closed the curtain and I soon feel asleep in Justin's arms.
TBC...