Authors Note: Hi yall, I'm sorry for not getting this out sooner but thigs came up and I had to wait on this one. Yes I have updated the Past Reflections but the reason for this one was something called writter's block. I had finally broke through. I had to redo this installment several times but I finally got it done. Again I'm sorry but things happen and you can't control them.
Legal stuff: Okay you guys and gals know the rules. If you aren't old enough don't read this, other wise enjoy. This is a figmant of my imagination so this does not mean that any one of NSYNC or BSB are gay or bi.
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And now...
Previously
The Concert
There were several people there for the meet 'n greet. And some were contest winners. Of course Scott was there. The guys acted cool with him, I stayed away from him. Everything was ready, the opening act was getting ready to go on stage and the guys were getting ready for their performance. I was excited. This was one of the biggest concerts ever. I had let Justin alone so he could get ready with make up and wardrobe. But when he was done I gave him a small kiss on his lips. NSYNC played hacky sack. Then the prayer. And then the stage manager called five minute warning for the BSB. They would go on first and then NSYNC would come up through the floor. The concert lasted about an hour and a half. The last song that was done was NSYNC and BSB singing God Must Have Spent.
"We would like to dedicate this last song to a very special person in our lives. You know who you are. This is for you." Justin said as the music began. That song with both groups singing it really touched me it was sooo beautiful. When the concert was over we had to get on the busses and head for our next destination. Which was Los Angeles. We weren't due there for a couple of days so we decided to take the bus. The guys all were tired. I was already on the bus when they got there. I waited till I saw Justin and when he got on the bus I grabbed him and pulled him to the back to kiss him.
"Thanks babe, for that dedication."
"Well he did spend a little more time on you babe." I kissed him again. We walked back up to the front and they had Mariah Carey singing on the cd player Thank God I Found You.
Thank God I Found You
I would give up everything
Before I separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I've finally found the honest truth
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from my heart
It would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life
Chorus:
Thank god I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish
And every dream
Somehow became reality
With you
But the sunlight completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you
I will give you everything
There's nothing in this world I want but you
To insure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Cause without you beside me
I can't survive
If you're keeping me warm each and every night
I'll be alright
Cause I need you in my life
Thank god I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish
And every dream
Somehow became reality
With you
But the sunlight completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you
See I was
So desolate before you came to me
Looking back
I guess it insures that we were destined to shine
Over the rain
To appreciate
The gift of what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way
Thank god I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish
And every dream
Somehow became reality
With you
But the sunlight completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you
When the song ended I got up and took Justin by the hand and led him to our bunk so we could get some sleep and maybe have some fun before...
And Now
We arrived in L.A. pretty eairly in the morning. I had the rooms reserved already so all I had to do was get the keys. Everyone was still asleep so I just went to get the keys. The fans haven't gotten here yets so the way to the hotel was clear. I went inside and got the keys and signed us in. I went back to the bus and had the driver turn the lights on in the bunks. I got several yells to turn the lights off.
"Well do you wanna stay on the bus or would like to sleep on a bed in the hotel?" That got almost everyone out their bunks. "Okay lets see Kevin's here, Howie, Nick, A.J., J.C., Chris, Joey, and Lance. I guess the other two wanna sleep here on the bus." I giggled. "Kevin could you get them while I get our luggage straightened out?" He nodded yes. I got off the bus and was talking with the driver about the luggage when I heard Kevin yell.
"Oh SHIT!!!" It scared me so I ran back on the bus. A.J. stopped me up in the front. Nick came through the door and I saw Brian and Justin climbing out of the bunk me and Justin were in. Kevin saw me there and began to yell orders. "A.J. get him off the bus now and up to his room."
"No A.J. I wanna know what the fuck is going on?" I said angerly. But A.J. had gotten me off the bus with the help of Nick and Lance. They drug me to my room and stayed with me. "Lance tell me I just didn't see what I saw?" He just hung his head.
"Yes Wes you did." He said quietly. His soft voice just made wither. I was standing but I began to sink to the ground. Lance caught me and held me.
"How long has it been going on?"
"We don't know, Kevin will know more and tell you when he gets up here." I began to cry hard. My heart was crushed again and it was Lance who caught me again. He sat there in the floor rocking me and humming a song I had heard be fore but couldn't place it. I finally fell asleep in his arms. A.J., Nick and Lance picked me up put me on the bed. "Nick go see what you can find out." Nick knodded and left the room.
The Bus
"Ok what the hell is going on Brian?" Kevin yelled at him. Brian and Justin were sitting next to each other in the lounge.
"Kev.. I Love Justin. And he loves me." Brian said as he took Justin's hand which justin was glad to take. It hurt him that he had hurt Wes.
"Who do you love Justin Wes or Brian?" A tear ran down his face as he answered.
"Br..Brian." With that Kevin just sat down. and J.C. began to speak.
"How long has it been?"
"A week, we have been seeing each other fow a week or more." Slowly everything was fitting together. All those times during rehearsals when Brian and Justin were gone or would dissappear for a while. It broke J.C.'s heart that his best friend would do this to someone who had truely loved him. As J.C. sat down Nick got on the bus.
"Kevin what's going on Lance wants to know as well as everybody else." Kevin gave him the low down and Nick walked up to Justin and punched him in the stomach and then hit Brian on the head with his hand flat. "You mother fuckers be glad that is all you'll get before this is over with." Nick stormed off the bus and back inside to my room. He entered and saw Lance holding me while I was asleep. He let a tear fall. "Lance... Brian and Justin have been together for a week or more." Lance let a tear fall. Knowing what was going to happen to me.
"Wes doesn't deserve that, he has so much love to give, and then someone comes along and crushes his heart. I wish I could take the pain away." He said quietly.
"Lance your in love with him aren't you?" A.J. said. Nick looked at A.J. and then back at Lance holding me. Lance let a tear fall as the truth about Lance came out.
"Yes I love Wes. I love everything about him. But I don't think he could or would love me after this." I made everyone jump when I answered.
"Yes Lance I could and would love you but right now I am hurt and need to heal, would you wait for me?"
"Yes I would... I would wait for you no matter what. I would wait a thousand year if I had to, I really love you and I can't stand to see you hurt." He said with tears. I leaned up and kissed him and then replied.
"Thankyou Lance, I promise you that we will be together but let me heal." I got up and went to the door and opened it and saw Justin and the others out there. I raised my left hand and took my ring off and gave it back to Justin. I then walked down to the end of the hall where the stairs were and headed to the roof. Lance followed me. I got up there and began to cry again. Lance came up to me and held me.
"Wes it's going to be okay, I promise." He then began to sing.
This I Promise You
The visions around you
brings tears to your eyes
and all that surrounds you
are secrets and lies.
I'll be your strength.
I'll be your hope,
keeping your faith when its gone.
The one you should call
I'm standing here all alone.
I will take you in my arms,
and hold you right where you belong,
till the day my life is through
this I promise you,
this I promise you
I've loved you forever
in lifetimes before.
and I promise you never
will you hurt anymore.
I give you my word.
I give you my heart.
This is a battle we've won.
and by this vow
forever has now begun
Just to look into your eyes
and see you right here with me.
I know that this feeling wont go away
Till the day my life is through
this I promise you.
Every word I say is true
this I promise you
ooh I promise you
"Wes I promise you that when you are ready to begin anew I will be there for you. I promise you." I hugged Lance tightly knowing he was there for me. He was the one who picked me up when me Scott broke up and now he is here for me when I find Justin and Brian together. I do have feelings for Lance and they are most likely turn in feelings of love, they are already doing that but it is still too soon.
"Thank you Lance, I do care about you but it is too soon. Please wait okay?" I asked.
"I'll wait till the end of time if I have to Wes I love you." I hugged him again and then he lead me back down stairs to face my betrayer. I would have rather faced a lion than HIM at that moment but I had to at some point and time. The walk was silent. Lance respected that and he would wait for me to make the first move. He opened the door where everyone was gathered and they stopped talking when we walked in. Lance went and sat down in a chair in the corner that was empty. I just stood in the middle of the room. Every eye was on me. Trying to see what I would do. I just went into my business mode and began a meeting that I was going to have later that day but since everyone was here go ahead and get done with. Of course they needed their keys so I guess they are waiting on me.
"Kevin would you hand me the keys and my note pad?" He shook his head and got what I asked for. "Okay I guess first of all is room assignments Kevin and A.J., Chris and Joey, Nick and J.C., Brian and Lan...Justin, Howie and..." Howie cut me off and said he wanted to be by himself. " okay, Lance and me or if you want Lance I can get another room and you can have one to your self?"
"The way you got it is fine with me." Lance said.
"Okay before you all disappear here is the agenda while we are here. We are here for three days including today. Today is an off day, there might be a rehearsal called if Devon says so be at hand for it. Then tomorrow is autograph signing and rehearsals till 9:00, no going out tomorrow night, because at 6:00 am you begin last minute rehearsals till 12pm lunch, then meet 'n greet at 2:00 then sound check at 3:30 till 5:00 supper and then be at the arena at 6:00 for dressing and makeup and all that jazz. After the concert we leave for San Fransico Cal. for a week. You got your keys so I guess you can go to your rooms or what ever. I'll be in my room if you need me." I turned and left. I entered my room and got ready for a nap. I was soon asleep.
Lance's View
Wes left to go to our room and rest. I wanted to cheer him up some. But what could I do? maybe a stuffed animal would work with some balloons and a thinking of you card. Yeah I'll do that. The rest of the guys were heading to there rooms or out so I left and headed down stairs to the gift shop. I couldn't find anything there so I went to the front desk to ask about a floral shop near here.
"Yes do you know of a floral shop near here?" I asked the clerk. She looked and gave me directions to the closest to them. I hailed a cab and gave them the address and we were off. I got there just after they opened so there weren't very many people there. I looked around and finally found the perfect stuffed animal it was small but it just seemed to fit Wes. it was a little puppy, tan with a brown coller and bendable ears. it had a look that made me smile so I grabbed it. I then looked around and found a card for Wes. then I found some balloons. I paid for them and then headed back to the hotel. I got back and up stairs. I entered the room to find Wes still asleep. I laid the puppy with balloons and card next to him. I smiled and then got ready for bed my self. I was still tired after the concert.
Wes's View
I awoke to find this stuffed puppy and card with some balloons sitting next to me. I smiled and took the card. It read on the front:
I know right now things look down
and you think you can't go on.
I just wanna say...
inside
I am always thinking about you and
things are gonna rise again.
Wes,
I am thinking about you and I know you are hurt right now
I just want you to know I am there for you. If you need a hug then
just ask and you shall recieve. I do Love you but I will wait till
your ready.
Love,
Lance
I smiled and let a tear fall but wiped it away. I hugged the puppy and got up and went over to Lance's bed and nelt. I watched him sleep. I waited there for over an hour when he finally woke up. He opened his eyes and saw me there beside his bed and he smiled.
"You like your gifts?"
"Like them I love them and I... I love you Lance. I know...I know I said that I needed to wait but I think I would heal better if I was with you." I said as a tear formed and fell down my face. Lance reached and wiped it away. He sat up and pulled me to him. Our lips met and I felt fireworks go off. There wasn't lust there just love he gental. I felt like I was cloud nine. I didn't even hear the knock on the door or some one enter. All I heard was a whistle. We broke and saw A.J. standing there with Howie. "And what do you guys want" I said with a smile.
"Oh we just wanted to know if you guys wanted to go to a club tonight."
"O.." I was cut off by Lance.
"We have plans for tonight sorry." They smiled and left. I looked up at Lance with a question showing on my face. "Wes would you like to have diner with me tonight just the two of us?"
"Yes I would love to." I leaned in and kissed him and then got up to get a shower for tonight. Things were begining to look better.
TBC...
I wander how the date will turn out? Again I am sorry for this being late. I don't know when the next one will be out. But please be patient. And thanks.