Disclaimer: The following is a work of fiction. It contains detailed depictions of consensual male sex. If this or any other aspect of male/male sex offends you or if you are averse to anything homosexual, please go elsewhere.
Author's Note: This is the fifth chapter in a novel length work about Jack and Jevin, their friends and families. If you have any comments (good, bad or indifferent) please write to me at my e-mail address: cutter57@hotmail.com. I appreciate all comments and criticism and will answer all e-mails. Since this is the only feedback I get, please take a few minutes and make your opinions known.
Robert J. Cutter
WINE COUNTRY
Copyright 1999 by Robert J. Cutter - All Rights Reserved
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For My Sweet Aussie Man
Chapter 5 - Sunday Night Thoughts
Jack knew he was in the midst of the greatest fucking he ever had in his life. He felt a tremendous thrill and a jolt when Jevin's wonderfully low hanging ball sac began to slap him on his ass cheeks. God, what a feeling! He knew that Jevin's whole length was now in him. He felt that glorious 7-1/2 inch teenage cock filling him up like he had never remembered being filled before. Jack could not count the number of times he had been fucked in the almost twenty years that he engaged exclusively in male sex, but this one was definitely special. He knew this because the person he was having sex with was very, very special to him. Was he in love with this eighteen-year-old kid? This boy? Could things have turned around so suddenly for him?
"Jev! Oh, Christ, Jevyboy! You're all the way in! It's absolutely fantastic! I've never felt anything as great!"
Jevin was silent except for some very heavy breathing through his mouth. When he did speak it was only with supreme effort. "Oh, God! Jack! It's so wonderful...so absolutely wonderful. I knew having sex with you would be just great, but I never believed that it could be this great. Jack, this is the greatest I ever felt. This is the best!"
"I know, Jev. I know! It's stupendous!" Jack could not fathom how great he felt. Knowing that Jevin had all of his 7-1/2 inches up his ass made Jack squirm with absolute delight. While it wasn't the biggest dong he'd ever taken Jack knew it was certainly the best. Maybe it was because he knew that this was the first time Jevin had put his incredible cock up anyone's ass. Whatever, the reason, Jack was more excited than he could ever remember being.
"Now Jev, pull out slowly and push back in again. Just begin a slow pumping action."
"Then what?"
"I won't have to tell you anything else. You'll find out without any more questions!"
Jevin wanted to rest for a while. He was so incredibly excited that he knew he needed to slow down. His entire cock was now completely embedded in Jack's hot, palpitating ass. It felt magnificent; he knew this was the epitome of his love making sessions with Jack this weekend. The warmth from Jack's body just flooded his own and created longings and desires Jevin had never, ever felt before. He opened his eyes and looked down on Jack's broad back; he moved arm stump over the blonde hairs. He rubbed the stump slowly and soothingly over that expanse of hair; he massaged Jack's heavily muscled and beautiful back. "What a man!" he thought. "What a fabulous man!"
Jack started to moan quietly and slowly began to rock his ass back and forth. Jevin felt the effect on his cock; he rubbed Jack's back a little harder with the stump of his arm. Jevin felt so relaxed and so calm that it frightened him somewhat. "Why am I so serene? Here I am fucking this absolute stud, this man of my dreams, and yet I seem so calm."
Jack continued to moan and groan making sounds that Jevin hadn't heard from him before. He also started to move his ass a bit more. Jevin slowly moved his arm stump from Jack's back and began to slowly play with and massage Jack's nipples. He began to rub them gently but firmly, tracing little circles around each of Jack's fully erect nipples with his stump.
Jack could not believe the thrills coursing through his body. The feelings were phenomenal, feeling that he had never encountered in all his years of sexual activity.
Jevin knew that this was the most wonderful experience of his life; it was not only the best sexual experience but the greatest experience period! His body didn't feel like his body. He felt like he was almost outside his body and was looking down at two men making passionate love to each other. He continued to move his arm stump over and over Jack's nipples and chest; each moan from Jack amplified the extreme feelings he had for this fabulous stud. Jack was reacting like a writhing animal and Jevin loved it all! "I can't wait `til I get to his cock!" Jevin thought to himself.
Jevin's cock was moving slightly in and out of Jack's incredibly hot ass because Jack was wiggling so much. Jevin decided to begin his own humping motion, to begin thrusting his cock deeper and deeper into Jack's rectum and to begin letting Jack feel the full extent of his member.
So Jevin withdrew his cock slightly and then pushed it back in. It was only about one half inch at first and he did it quite slowly; each time he did, though, he heard Jack moan and sigh heavily. Jevin began to increase the length of his strokes; when he did he noticed that he apparently was stroking a rather hard object inside of Jack's tight rectum.
"Oh, God, Jevyboy! You're clipping me every time! It's incredible!"
"What am I doing, Jack?"
"You're clipping my prostate every time you thrust into my ass. It's absolutely the greatest! It's just stupendous!"
"So that's what I'm hitting," Jevin thought to himself. "I'm getting his prostate with every stroke. It feels wonderful to me and it must feel fantastic to him. I must keep doing this and keep Jack on the very edge. I've gotta learn to keep this up."
Jevin again lengthened his strokes; he knew that Jack was feeling each and every inch of his cock and feeling his prostate being rubbed and rubbed on each thrust. He began to move his arm stump slowly down Jack's chest towards that waiting and straining cock, while he continued to tweak his nipples with his right hand and fingers.
Jack's body was really rocking back and forth now as Jevin lengthened those strokes and began to speed up how fast he was thrusting in and out. His arm stump had reached and was massaging the hairy mound above Jack's cock. He intensified the pressure with the stump and Jack began to moan very loudly. Finally Jevin lightly touched the end of his stump to the head of Jack's cock and Jack went absolutely crazy. His body began moving in different directions simultaneously. He was calling out Jevin's name and cursing and muttering things that Jevin could not understand.
Jevin was delighting in the feeling of power he had over Jack; for the first time in his life he was exerting physical power over a person more physically adept than him. It was a very heady experience. His cock felt so marvelous being enveloped and secure in Jack's pulsing hot chute. Jevin felt the warmth pervade his entire body. He even felt it in his arm stump as he slowly began to stroke Jack's cock shaft with his arm remnant.
Jack was like a bucking bronco. They were both going for an incredible and seemingly unending ride, one that Jevin knew was the most phenomenal of his young life. Jevin's first lesson in anal intercourse seemed to be a resounding triumph.
Jevin kept thrusting his cock in and out and began to move his arm stump up and down the entire length of Jack's thick cock. He also touched Jack's ball sac for the first time. He could not believe the noises coming out of the both of them - the moans, the screams, the bellows of excitement, the cries of contentment. Jevin was in heaven - these sounds were glorious music to his ears and he reveled in each and every one of them.
Jack started to really gasp for breath and Jevin knew they were both very near to orgasm. "Jev! Jev! I'm getting very close!" Jack screamed.
"So am I, Jack! So am I!" Jevin screamed back.
Jevin did not let up in his furious pounding of Jack's ass or the manipulation of his arm stump over the full length of Jack's cock. He was also giving extra special attention to Jack's incredibly swinging ball sac. The feel of Jack's hairy nuts rubbing against his arm stump was amazing. He knew wanted the most that he could possibly get from this man and he was certainly getting it.
Jack gave a piercing scream and he let loose. It was an incredible volley of cum. Jevin could feel it coating his arm stump; the warmth and wetness of it was wonderful. Jevin also knew that he did not have very far to go. In fact, when he felt Jack's cock pulsating and spewing out the semen and his ass contracting and contracting in almost unending spasms, Jevin knew that it was his time - and it was! He gave one more huge thrust of his cock up Jack's ass and he began pumping out his enormous load into the rubber.
It must have been quite a sight with these two men screaming and yowling. Jevin could not believe that he had come three times in less than a day and had fucked a man for the first time in his life. Jack could not believe that after more than twenty years with men he had just had the fucking of his middle aged (and soon to be old) life.
When Jevin finished pumping out his load, he flopped forward onto Jack's back and became completely limp. Jack could not keep supporting his own body and also that of Jevin's. He collapsed onto the bed and sprawled out, Jevin spread out on top of him. They lay there motionless...and totally spent...and completely exhausted...and entirely contented.
Each was enveloped in his own world - a world of caring and loving and warmth. Each knew that he had experienced something he had never encountered before.
----------------------------------------------------------- As Jack lay sprawled out on the bed with Jevin equally stretched out on his back, his mind was racing. All these thoughts, all these feeling! Was it real? Was this for real? What Jevin was offering, was it the real thing? After all these years of trying, did someone offering real true love just come into his life by happenstance? Out of nowhere - a chance meeting in a bar - a Saturday night quickie - a young college kid. Is it possible? Maybe, maybe not. Jack could not reconcile these two days with Jevin to be anything more than a weekend well spent.
True, it had to be the greatest fucking he had ever experienced, but what did that mean? That the kid was able to perform was not a question. What was a question was "Is this the kind of relationship that I need and want? And why? What could this kid really have offer? Yes, great sex - that he certainly had proved. But what else? Companionship? Possibly so - he definitely seemed to be the home loving type. But what else? What else can he offer? What else does he need to offer? Aren't great sex and great and loving companionship enough? What more can a person want? What more does a caring person need? What more do I really need or want?"
He felt that wonderful arm stump still at his groin area - it was touching his sac. Jevin moved it very slightly and Jack had to inhale deeply. The shock was amazing. He could never remember being this sensitive after sex. It was marvelous. Here he was in his forties and he was experiencing something new and different in sex. "This is astounding - this is totally awesome!" he thought as he felt himself sinking into a light sleep. "Fucking totally amazing!"
----------------------------------------------------------- Jevin felt absolutely numb. When Jack collapsed onto the bed, Jevin was spread out on the big man's back. At first he had absolutely no idea where he was. Both of his arms were still under Jack's massive body - his right arm splayed out on Jack's chest and his left arm stump still in Jack's crotch area. He could feel that Jack had come a massive amount - his arm stump felt coated with Jack's semen. He was drooling from his mouth onto Jack's broad back. Jevin felt that he no control over any of his extremities or any of his bodily functions.
Without the shadow of a doubt, it was the greatest experience of his entire life. Not just sexual experience, but experience period! The effect was absolutely earthshaking. Yes, the earth did move for me! Jevin could not believe the extraordinary feeling pervading his entire body and his entire well being.
He moved his arm stump very slightly and Jack inhaled suddenly and sharply. Whoa! Jack's body jerked uncontrollably. This guy is still massively sensitive, Jevin thought. I had better stay still for a few more minutes otherwise he will start bucking and throw me to the floor. At this point Jevin also realized that his cock was still pretty far inside Jack's ass and that he would have to get it out soon. Even though his tool had become somewhat softer he felt that there was still plenty of rigidity to it. He knew he needed to pull it out and to remove the condom. But not quite yet...not yet.
----------------------------------------------------------- Jack felt like he was floating. It was like he was in a hot air balloon, floating noiselessly and serenely over a beautiful green and amber landscape. Just the slightest whisper of air was blowing across his forehead. It was a dream world - it was an absolute dream world. He never thought that sex could be such an intoxicant, such a hypnotic drug. He could still feel Jevin's incredible cock resting in his rectum. It was a delicious feeling. It made him feel completely whole. It made him feel youthful. It made him happy. It made him the man he always wanted to be.
----------------------------------------------------------- Jevin felt like he was floating. He was floating on a calm sea in a large raft, slowing being raised and lowered by the gentle swells. The magnificent blue/green sea stretched endlessly before him. The serenity was wonderful. A light breeze seemed to ruffle his hair across his forehead. It was a dream world - it was an absolute dream world. Jevin could feel the rise and fall of the beautiful sea beneath him. Of course he realized that it was Jack's body that was beneath him. The rhythmic breathing of his lover caused this rising and falling. His lover. What wonderful words - his lover. His man. His Jack.
Jack knew they would both have to move soon. He was lying in a pool of his own semen. Jevin was still blanketing him with both of his arms under his heavy body. Jack began to stir slightly and Jevin decided that it was time to finally break and move. He pulled his arms out from under Jack and slowly sat up on his haunches. He felt and saw his still semi-hard cock come out of Jack's ass. Jevin sat up all the way and began to roll the condom off. Jack looked around at him and saw him performing the unrolling routine; he knew that he wanted to remove it. He reached over and slowly rolled the condom off of Jevin's incredibly beautiful cock and found himself getting excited all over again.
"This was one gorgeous and sexy guy," Jack thought to himself. He maneuvered himself so that he could put his arms around Jevin once again. They hugged each other tightly and kissed. They fell back onto the bed in a semi-doze wrapped in each other.
"Want to shower again, Jack?" Jevin asked his dozing partner.
"Yeah, yeah," Jack said immediately with a slight start and jerk of his head. "Yeah, I think that'd be a good idea."
Jevin walked into the bathroom, pissed and turned on the shower. Jack straggled into the bathroom and joined Jevin under the shower. They washed each other loving and slowly and Jack felt himself beginning to feel human again. After the fucking Jevin had given him he had wondered if he would ever be able to return to normal again. In almost twenty years of fucking and being fucked by men, Jack had never experienced anything even remotely close to this incredible experience. It was a world class, world championship fucking he had received! Was it possible that his incredible attraction to Jevin was the reason for this total assault on his senses?
They didn't speak one word while they showered and dried each other. Jevin changed the sheets on the bed. They returned to that haven for replenishment and sleep.
At around seven o'clock, Jack got out of bed, dressed and prepared to drive back home. Jevin immediately became teary-eyed. They held each other, hugged and kissed fervently. Jevin was still naked and loved the feel as his naked body rubbed against Jack shirt and jeans. They both became hard once again. Jack reached down and lightly stroked Jevin's cock.
"Jev, did anyone ever tell you that you have the most amazing tool in the whole world?"
"I think you just did, Jack." Jevin looked down at he floor and then up at Jack again. "Do you really like it Jack? Does it really please you?"
"Like it? Please me? I absolutely adore it! And I absolutely adore you!"
The kissed passionately. It was a kiss that reaffirmed their love for the other. When they broke Jevin started balling almost uncontrollably. Jack soothing rubbed his hand up and down Jevin's back and petted his hair lovingly. "What's the matter, Jev?"
It took Jevin a few minutes to calm down enough so that he could speak clearly. "It's hard for me to say this. But, Jack, I have never known love like this in my life - not from another person or even...even from my family. I think I am just overwhelmed by the intensity of it all - my strong feelings for you...and your obvious feelings for me." He gave out a little laugh between the small sobs. "This has been the best weekend of my entire life...since my bar mitzvah, I think. Maybe better."
Jack drew back and look quizzically at Jevin. "You're Jewish?"
"Yeah, I am." Jevin got a panicked look on his face. "That doesn't m-m-make a difference, d-d-d- does it, Jack?" Jevin stammered.
"Oh, god no! It most certainly does not!" Jack leaned in for another kiss. "My loving Jevin..."
"'Cause some...uh...people find they...don't...like having sex...er...or associating with...you know..."
"Jevin, get that panicky look off your face. Now! I really and truly don't care. In fact," Jack continued softly as he blushed and looked down at the floor, "the first man I ever had sex with was Jewish - David, the doctor from the post hospital I told you about. He was Jewish - Captain David Hirsch, MD." Jevin finally smiled and they kissed again. "You know, I did noticed that...you know...that candle holder thing..."
"Menorah."
"Yes, the menorah on your shelf in the bedroom, but I never gave it another thought."
"I got that when we were in Israel. I'm quite active in the Jewish community here in Santa Rosa. I'm even vice-president of the Jewish student organization here on campus. I do volunteer work at the Jewish Community Center in town - you know, tutoring kids with their studies and all, and mentoring."
"That's great! You are really part of the community. I think that's wonderful." Jack paused and looked a bit guilty. "I was born and raised a Catholic. However, I can honestly say that I haven't been inside a Catholic Church since..." Jevin noticed that Jack was starting to tear up a bit "...a...er...family funeral a number of years ago." Jack paused again and wiped his eyes. "Wilkenson doesn't sound like a particularly Jewish name, though."
"Well, it wasn't Wilkenson when my great-great-grandfather first came to this country. It was a long Russian name that I can hardly pronounce." Jevin chuckled.
"Would you mind being seen around town with your goyish boyfriend?" Jevin started crying again. "Jevin, Jevin, we can't have you balling like this every few minutes. What is it?"
"You c-c-c-called me your b-b-b-boyfriend."
"That's what I am; at least, that's what I hope I am. I'm your boyfriend and you are my boyfriend." He picked Jevin's face up with both his hands and kissed his very wet face. "Okay?"
"Yeah. Boyfriends. I like that a lot. An awful lot!" He hugged Jack tightly. "By the way, where did you learn the term goyish?" They both laughed.
"Remember, I lived in San Francisco for a few years."
"You know, Jack Turner even sounds a bit Jewish."
On the drive back Jack had time to think of the overwhelming events of the last two days - not even two days, more like something just over twenty-four hours.
This was the first time he had not been with Jevin since they had met yesterday evening in the Mayfair Grille. The more he thought about them the more and more overwhelming these events became. He felt that so much had happened that he could not get everything clear and sorted in his mind. Times began overlapping into other times and events forgotten...and then remembered.
Jack realized with growing dismay that they had done a lot and said a lot of things together. The more he started recreating the happenings of the last two day the more he began to regret some of the events that had transpired between him and that really fine, very young man.
He knew that the lovemaking had been wonderful - and that they both had really enjoyed it and savored it. He adored Jevin's sexy body, his totally winning personality and that absolutely gorgeous arm stump. Everything about Jevin was perfect - from his long silky hair to his sexy toes. Everything was just perfect.
But the difference in their ages began to weigh on Jack's mind all over again. "How could such a beautiful, sexy, enticing young guy really want someone like me?" he questioned. "Why would he be so willing to accept such an old man? It doesn't make sense! Does it? Is it because I was the first man to let him fuck me? No, can't be that - we seemed to fit together so wonderfully before that. Then why? I just don't get it! Is it possible he sees me as a father figure and not a lover? That could very well explain certain things."
As Jack continued his drive, images of Jevin seemed to materialize before his eyes. He even saw the forms of Jevin and himself together, cuddling and kissing and loving. He rubbed his eyes quickly.
"And what about Nick? Shit! I'd completely forgotten about Nicky! Christ, what would he say about Jevin and me? Christ, what could he say? A great looking young guy with such and old fucking fart like me! Not good - not good at all! No, no, Nicky would not be able to accept a coupling of me with someone as young as Jevin."
Somehow, as hard as he tried, Jack could not get Jevin out of his mind. Such a beautiful guy, such a loving and caring individual. "Why? Why am I doing this? Why am I even thinking about ruining Jevin's chances for future happiness - of finding a guy with many of the same interests as he has? And someone closer in age. Shit, I'm a hardhat and he's an intellectual. What do we have in common? I mean, after we've gotten to know each other and each other's lives what the fuck are we going to talk about? Jevin will be busy with his intellectual and academic pursuits and I'll still be fixin' cars. God, he's smart! I know that's the way it'll be. I'd b like a fifth wheel around him and his smart friends."
Jack was now in the full throws of his rationalizations. "And I'll be depriving myself of the ability to find someone.someone much more compatible with me and my likes - like fishing and camping and tennis and golf. Yeah! Of course, Jevin does play tennis - he's on the college team. Okay, but boating and bowling and mountain climbing - what about them? I'll bet Jevin doesn't like any of those things. Why should I give them up? Why should I be taking up with someone so much younger than I am? Am I so completely burned out that I need to rob the cradle? Fuck!"
He kept up this internal questioning and dialogue session until he reached his house. He pulled into the driveway and parked the truck in the garage. The lights were on in the house and he knew Nicky was up and probably watching television. By the time he walked into the kitchen Jack had come to his decision.
He trudged into the family room. Nicky was asleep on the sofa with the TV set blaring away. Jack shut it off and woke up his nephew.
"Oh, hi Uncle Jack," Nick said groggily.
"Hiya Nick. I think it's time you got to bed."
"Yeah, I suppose so. Did you have a nice weekend, Uncle Jack?"
"Yeah, it was okay I suppose. Nothing really new or really out of the ordinary. Same old same old."
"Same with mine," Nicky replied while yawning.
Both men knew they were lying to the other.
They said their good nights and Nick walked to his bedroom and closed the door. Jack went around, turned out all the lights and set the alarm. He went into his bathroom for his evening ritual.
He looked at himself closely in the bathroom mirror again - he knew he had been doing this a lot recently. Jack shook his head slowly and deliberately. "What a pathetic excuse for a man," he muttered under his breath. "What a fucking pathetic old excuse for a man I am." He kept mutter this over and over.
Jevin sat down at his PC right after Jack left; he had some unfinished class work to complete plus his special work for Professor Pollack. He brought the unfinished bowl of popcorn and a bottle of water into his bedroom and booted up the computer.
He turned and looked at the bed where he and Jack had spent so much wonderful time this weekend. He thought again of their fantastic lovemaking and this brought tears to his eyes. He thought of the night in the Mayfair Grille and how Jack had touched his arm stump so gently and carefully. And of their wonderful first night together when Jack didn't mind the look or the feel of his crippled body.
He thought of the restaurant and the park and how caring and sensitive Jack was to him and his needs. And the extraordinary session of sex this afternoon when he fucked a man for the first time. What an unbelievable event that was!
Jevin thought he would work for about two hours before stopping but found that his thoughts were constantly returning to Jack - his beautiful, loving, funny, furry Jack. He continued to work, knowing that he had to train himself to get as many things done as possible during the weekdays and to free up future weekends - for Jack! "This was going to be marvelous!" Jevin thought to himself. "This beautiful, sexy man wants me!"
But something in the back of Jevin's mind was bothering him. It was gnawing, like a piece of corn or meat caught in between his teeth. He kept working on it and working on but it still would not go away; it was hounding him and destroying his thoughts of a beautiful future with Jack.
"Jack has a terrible age hang-up, doesn't he?" he thought. "I wonder if he will be able to overcome it. Shit! It was amazing, though, wasn't it? It was an absolutely amazing weekend. I know every person has problems, but why do I have to find so many of them? Why is every person I meet so troubled? Here I meet someone who seems to have no hang-ups with me and he has these fucking problems with himself. Shit!"
Jevin continued working, coding at a feverish pace. He was utilizing his new voice recognition software to enter his complex code into the machine. It was marvelous since he was not stymied by his physical handicap. He was oblivious to time. When he felt himself getting very sleepy he turned around and looked at the clock - it was after two! And Jack...and Jack had not called as he had promised.
Jack could not sleep. It was 2:08 AM according to the digital clock by his bedside and still he was awake. His mind was not letting him get any rest. He knew that it was because of the decision he had made earlier. "Shit! It has to be the right thing to do! It has to be! Otherwise I'm totally and completely fucked up!"
He rolled over again. He was perspiring very heavily and got out of bed to open the window. He noticed that it had started to rain again. "Shit! On top of everything we'll have rain to put up with tomorrow. Actually, it won't be tomorrow - it'll be today!"
Suddenly he screamed out into the dark night. "There is NO FUCKING GOD! Jevin! OH JEVIN! Why couldn't I find you years ago?" He began to sob uncontrollably. "Why couldn't I know you...why couldn't I find you...why weren't you here.why weren't HERE before my fucking world come crashing down all around me?" Jack slowly sank to the floor. He beat his fists on the floor. "JEVIN! JEVIN!" he screamed out.
Jevin was in bed and was looking closely at his arm stump. "Why the hell did I have to loose my hand?" He was repeating this over and over to himself. "Why? Why can't I be normal? Why can't I find someone who can really love me and not be so wrapped up in his own problems and fears and neuroses and little world? Oh, God! Why hasn't Jack called? Why hasn't he bothered to call me? Why?"
Of course, deep down he knew exactly why hadn't called. It was very obvious, wasn't it? Poor crippled Jevin had struck out again.
He began to rub his arm stump in an agitated manner. He began clawing at the stump, digging his fingernails into the flesh of his severed hand until he was bleeding and in great pain. Jevin began to sob loudly into his pillow.
The End of Chapter 5